SAY THEIR NAMES!

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I’m back after six months, whilst I took six months out I was trying to think of new powerful topics to come back with, I had the topic names, but not the true content that will remain inside, I couldn’t think of how to start and intros really loop everything together, yet the simplest of things I just couldn’t seem to think of.

However, Teeks is back better than ever before with my new topic ‘Say their names’ and in the midst of where we are today it needs to be spoken upon.

I’m going to be talking on the black community because that’s what I am BLACK BLACKITY BLACK, racism, discrimination, colourism and whatever else I find suitable, I’ll be adding in links from previous topics where possible as I’ve already blogged about it more deeply and intensely.

This blog will be a mix of my own opinions, it’s your choice to agree or disagree,  and I’ll be including facts and statistics which you can’t argue about because it’s the truth, cry about it if you want but that is your own.

I’ll also add in trigger warnings in, which will be big and bold in red, as I know a lot of the images and videos I’ll be including can be triggering and cause distress, so a warning before you see it as you scroll is fair right?

I was meant to do 10 people from the UK and 10 people from the USA but that’s virtually impossible for me to include everyone, but I’ll try my best to include as many people as I can, however, names you don’t see you will be remembered, all the black people in jail for petty crimes or wrongful convictions from the very organisations that are meant to ‘Protect & Serve’ my heart is with you, all of the black people that are being hidden and ‘secretly’ deported by ICE, when our ancestors BUILT the very land they’re ruling on, turfing and surfing us, putting several bullets through our bodies, choking and killing us, knee to the neck making sure every breath is our last, why because our shade is darker than your own? Our missing black community, no trace no case, maybe a few days in the media that quickly gets kicked under the carpet again whilst our lights go dim, just a hope of going viral on social media to spread awareness and fight for equality & justice, and that is why I’m writing this blog ‘SAY THEIR NAMES’ Say our fucking names in the media, I don’t want to be known as ‘A black young woman has gone missing in London’ ?? What does that do? Do you know how many black girls are in London? When I mean to say their names, pronounce my name properly, if you didn’t say it right the first time I’ll give you time to get there, don’t just call me any random name, my parents didn’t name me for others to pronounce how they like & what they feel comfortable with.

TRAYVON BENJAMIN MARTIN 

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Born: 5th February 1995,
Miami Gardens, Florida
Parents: Sybrina Fulton (Mother)
               Tracy Martin (Father)

In February 2012, Trayvon was visiting his father Tracy Martins in Sanford, Florida after receiving a 10-day suspension due to drug residue in Trayvon’s book bag.

Trayvon’s had gone on a visit to his father’s fiancées townhouse in the retreat of of ‘Twin lakes’ in Sanford, February 26th Trayvon was walking back to the fiancées’ house from a nearby convenience store.

George Zimmerman neighbourhood watch captain in Sanford, Florida. Zimmerman calls 911 of reports of a suspicious person in the neighbourhood, Zimmerman was instructed to stay in the vehicle and not approach the person, however, Zimmerman disregards these instructions, moments later there was an altercation, Zimmerman fatally shot Trayvon Martin in the chest.

February 27th, Tracy Martin files missing person report as Trayvon didn’t return home the following evening, cops show Tracy Martin an image from the crime scene, he confirmed it as his son Trayvon Martin

Trayvon Martin was a 17-year-old African American murdered by George Zimmerman.

The same George Zimmerman who cops did not charge as there was no evidence to disapprove of his version of events, March 14th 2012.

Doesn’t this story sound familiar? No evidence? Minding your business? Asleep in her bed?

The media portrayed Trayvon as a thug which he was certainly not, loved by his family, loved by his friends, loved by a community, his cousin Stephen Martin February 27th, Tracy Martin files missing person report as Trayvon didn’t return home the following evening, cops show Tracy Martin an image from the crime scene, he confirmed it as his son Trayvon Martinho had been at the park the night before telling jokes with Trayvon, Stephen said him and Trayvon were like brothers growing up and said that Trayvon was very skilled at assembling, repairing and riding pocket/dirt bikes, does that seem thuggish to you? When Trayvon was just 9 years old, he saved his fathers life by pulling his father who had been immobilised by burns to his legs, does that see, thuggish to you? Trayvon washed cars, babysat, mowed lawn to make his money, does that see, thuggish to you? OR does that seem like a kid who knows what he wants in life and by any means will work for it?

Critics judged Trayvon based off of his tattoos, do tattoos on black skin make someone any less of a person?

Also, judging off of an EMPTY marijuana bag?

Trayvon was UNARMED & MURDERED those two words shouldn’t even string together in a sentence, unfortunately being black a large majority of the time we’re unarmed yet we’re still killed in an unforgivable & merciless way.

March 20th 2012

A lawyer for the Martin family, Benjamin Crump holds a conference telling reporters that Trayvon was on the phone to his girlfriend at the time she said she heard an altercation, she said she heard someone ask Trayvon what he was doing, Trayvon asked why he was being followed, at that moment Trayvon’s earpiece fell out and the connection went dead.

March 22nd 2012
A petition on change.org calling for the arrest of George Zimmerman, created by the parents of Trayvon Martin surpassed 2.2M signatures, which became the largest in website history.

Back in 2012, change.org was launching 15,000 campaigns a month

The most recent report of 2018:
– Audience, 265.7M
– Signatures, 603.9M
– 25,000 petitions launched every month
– During 2018, 1.6M people promoted change.org petitions

However, it was Sybrina Fulton & Tracy Martins campaign that propelled the site into public consciousness.

Following on from Trayvon’s Martins death, a movement was created on 13th July 2013 called #BLACKLIVESMATTER, an international human rights movement originating in the African American community that campaigns AGAINST violence and systemic racism towards black people. BLM holds protests speaking out against police brutality which is murder, by the way, no matter which way they want to dress it up, racial profiling and racial inequality in the United States of America.

The USA should stand for ‘The Divisive states of America’ nothing United about that country.

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The originators of the hashtag and co-founders are Alicia Garza, Patrisse Cullors & Opal Tometi.

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The creation of Black Lives Matter also brought backlash and in response, a further two hashtags were created to discredit the black community, they’re known as #ALLLIVESMATTER & #BLUELIVESMATTER.

My response will always be NO LIVES MATTER UNTIL BLACK LIVES MATTER

MARK DUGGAN

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  Born: 15th September 1981
          Broadwater Farm, North London

Mark Duggan 29 years old, when he was shot and killed by police in Tottenham, North London 4th August 2011 18:15pm, the metropolitan police stated that officers were attempting to arrest Duggan of suspicions of an attack and that he was in possession of a firearm, the same firearm that was found 14FT away over a wall?

So the police are telling us, the firearm he was ‘supposedly’ in possession with was 14ft away? Over a wall? The lies are tremendous, what a thought process that is!

An inquest jury found the shooting to be ‘lawful’ & the police watchdog didn’t find any wrongdoing by the officer known as V53.

In my eyes this was an unlawful killing, he supposedly picked up a firearm from East London, drove to North London and when the police pulled him over in the taxi, they shot and killed him but in their ideal world the ‘gun’ literally flew over their heads and no one saw it? Ok

Can we look deeply into the two images below, if you don’t see a difference then I must say you’re extremely obtuse and deluded.

Mark Duggan’s death sparked the 2011 Tottenham riots, the biggest riots in modern English history.

The 2011 riots were a series of riots between the 6th August to the 11th August and carried on for a few days, there were several violent clashes with police ensued, along with the destruction of businesses, homes, police vehicles & 4 double-decker buses received a significant amount of damage, the London riots spread like wildfire up and down the country including Birmingham, Bristol, Coventry, Manchester and many other towns and cities around the UK.

The media called the riots copycat energy, I’m sure this is a directive to the Brixton riots in 1995 which only later 5 hours in comparison to the 2011 riots that lasted several days, either way in both situations to black men were murdered by the police.

WAYNE DOUGLAS

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1995, Wayne Douglas was in police custody being questioned about a burglary, police reported that he collapsed in Brixton police station due to a heart attack which was revealed on his post mortem, in actual fact, the inquest showed on FOUR different occasions he was handcuffed with his hands behind his back and was being held face down.

I hope they meant copycat behaviour where two black men were murdered by the ‘Protect & Serve’ organisation, how can you kill a man in your custody! This law enforcement organisation need to bake off, how do the police not learn? Once it’s repeated it’s no longer an accident, life isn’t something you can play with, one who commits murder should get the death penalty, I ain’t God but murdering someone you don’t deserve to ‘Start over’. I always get beyond angry when I hear police officers/cops left right and centre being dismissed from a case of misconduct, why should they be let off Scot free but my BLACK brothers and sisters are laying six foot under, due to mistaken identity, raids on properties, unlawful killing, in prison on petty crimes, I will forever be sick to my stomach over the UK & USA justice system forever killing our people no reasonable excuse. Defund the cops, Defund the police & fuck the Feds forever and always.

If you don’t know the full ins and outs regarding Mark Duggan, then please look at the entirety of the case, from the beginning right through to the end, then you can make your own judgements, it was the police, government and publicists flipping the real script to their very own villain story, all police know how to do is falsify information. Lastly, Mark Duggan’s case deserves to be reopened & investigated and so does Wayne Douglas.

SANDRA ANNETTE BLAND

Sandra Bland

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              Born: February 7th 1987 (28 years old)
        Naperville, Illinois

Sandra Bland was a 28-year-old African American woman who was found hanged in her cell, Waller county, Texas on July 15th just 3 days after being arrested during a pretextual traffic stop.

Sandra’s death was ruled a suicide, this ruling followed by protests against her arrest, disputing the cause of death and racial violence against her.

Brian Encinia, don’t forget his name was the officer who stopped Sandra Bland, Encinia had a history of performing pretextual stops, having issued 1,600 minor tickets in less than 12 months, he performed these in hopes of finding something criminal on said persons.

If an investigation was ever carried out, I would like to know how many minor tickets he gave out to the African American community, because 1,600 tickets in under 12 months, is it crack that you smoke?

Encinia was never indicted on his crime in spite of video graphic evidence of how he treated and spoke to Bland within the heated interaction including “I will light you up” whilst holding a taser, the full video is online including the conversation between Encinia and Bland, Bland’s phone footage was released 4 years after her death which shows a 39-second clip of her view of arrest.

Following new footage, this has prompted calls for a new investigation into her death.

Bland was pulled over for a minor traffic stop, July 10th the exchange resulted in Bland’s arrest and a charge for assaulting an officer, the arrest was partially recorded on Bland’s dashcam, Bland’s phone and also a bystanders phone.

 Minor as in failing to signal, FAILING TO SIGNAL

Texas authorities and the FBI conducted an investigation into Bland’s death and determined Waller county jail did not follow policies including time checks and ensuring that employees had completed mental health training, but the police/Cops are meant to ‘Protect and Serve’?

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Are you telling me she isn’t dead in these mugshots? Her skin colour has discoloured, she looked like she had been battered, her head is leaning back and on a sideways tilt as if she was lying down her shoulders? Eyes don’t fully focus when you’re dead, half-open eyes which the lower image signifies means she was dead on the top image, on the lower image they either edited the photo or tampered with her body.

SEAN RIGG

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         Born: 11th February 1968

Rigg lived in a hostel for people with a forensic mental health history, following a deterioration in mental health, Rigg became uncooperative and aggressive which led to five 999 calls being made within a period of three hours by the hostel staff, the police simply said it wasn’t their issue and that the staff should take it up with their local MP, police eventually responded to calls from members of the public due to ‘strange behaviour’

FOUR police officers gave a chase to Rigg, who was handcuffed and restrained in a face-down position as officers lent on him for eight minutes, 8 whole minutes? Are you seeing how history repeats itself no matter where you’re located in the world? Rigg was arrested for assaulting a police officer, public disorder and ‘theft’ of a passport which was actually his own, Rigg was then placed face down with his legs bent behind him in the caged section of the police van, during the journey to Brixton police station, Riggs mental and physical health was deteriorating & he was extremely unwell, I’ll never in my life forgive these officers,  FOUR officers to one man and to add on top he had mental health issues and they treated him like an animal.

The police LIED to medical examiners on his state, all the officers denied seeing any physical injuries to Rigg, despite the jury seeing several fresh abrasion on his face, and a large bruise on his right shoulder, but the police are meant to ‘Protect & Serve’?

Sean Rigg didn’t utter a single word from the time he got arrested right up until his death, Rigg died in police custody.

SHY KEMMIA PATE

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   Born: Unadilla, Georgia
                   Missing since: September 4th 1998

You’ve probably never heard of Shy Kemmia Pate, let alone the full story may be because black girls/woman go missing and get lost amid the flurry of attention that our white counterparts receive instead which is true in a sense for example ‘missing white woman syndrome’ a term used by social scientists and media commentators to refer to coverage especially on television of missing cases involving a young white woman from middle/upper-class backgrounds compared to black women, men of lower social classes.

Stories involving missing children have captivated the public since The 80s when widespread panic over stranger snatching, which struck American families in 1984, children had gone missing before but it was in 1984 that their faces began appearing on milk cartons.

Shy was meant to ride with her older sister to a football game that night, however when it was time to go her older sister couldn’t locate her, the county sheriffs, Georgia bureau of investigations & FBI couldn’t locate shy in the following days, weeks, months and years to commence.

The cops incorrectly told her family that a person has to be missing for 24 hours before they could report Shy as missing, they could’ve started the investigation when they first got alerted on the situation, unfortunately, falsifying information had big consequences for Shy’s family as till this day she still has not been found.

Authorities received the various amount of tip-offs but due to no solid evidence they couldn’t go any further with the investigation, neighbours in the area allowed police to search their homes but still no evidence gained.

Shy was described as an outgoing child who loved skating and purchasing new clothes, she was involved with her families church, authorities believe she was abducted by someone she was familiar with however due to extensive search of her area and her neighbours cooperating no new leads, Shy Kemmia Pate is now 30 years old.

Shy was only 8 years old when she went missing, hardly any media attention just a family who hopes she’ll return home one day.

In 2014, the black and missing foundation reported that 64,000 black woman and girls were missing throughout America.

Black Americans only make up 13% of the US population, however, more than 30% of all missing people were black in 2018, according to the US bureau.

Only 1/5 of black missing cases get covered by the news, however, the rest of them are dropped and down to social media to spread the word to gain large traction.

Black families in America have expressed that their missing loved ones aren’t classed as just ‘missing’ but are more likely to be classed as runaways and that somehow they’re not a focus to the police or media.

An analysis of US census data by the New York Times shows that around 1.6M black men are missing from everyday life due to disproportionate incarceration, early ‘deaths’ more presumably murder and overseas deployment.

STEPHEN LAWRENCE

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Stephen Lawrence was born in Greenwich on 13th September 1974 to Jamaican parents who emigrated to the UK in the 1960s.

Bought up in Plumstead, South-East London, eldest out of three.

During his teenager years, Lawrence excelled in running, competing in the local Cambridge harriers athletics club and appeared as an extra in Denzel’s Washingtons film ‘For Queen and country’

Stephen Lawrence was a normal teenager, active social life, school work, family commitments and a dream to become an architect, unfortunately, his dream was cut short when he was murdered in a racially provoked attack 22nd April 1993 at the age of 18.

Lawrence was waiting for a bus home with his friend Brookes, when 5 or 6 white guys crossed the road whilst saying ‘what, what nigger’ they all engulfed him, the attackers forced Lawrence to the ground then stabbed him to the depth of 5cm on each side of his body, the right collarbone and left shoulder, Lawrence was losing blood from four major blood vessels.

Lawrence ran 130 yards as his friend Brookes shouted at him to run to escape the attack, Lawrence collapsed and bled to death.

Two young black boys waiting for a bus home minding their business and one gets stabbed multiple times for minding his business, does that make sense?

After the initial investigation, five suspects were arrested but not CONVICTED. A public inquiry into the handling of Stephen Lawrence’s case was held in 1998, leading to the publication of the Macpherson report which has been called ‘one of the most important moments in the modern history of criminal justice in Britain’

It led to profound cultural changes in attitudes towards racism, to the law and police practice.

Now we’re in 2020, I have every right to question this statement because the UK is still racist, this gets shown on multiple occasions within the media, businesses, in public yet the UK government always deny the fact that they aren’t, I find it incredible that some people see their own ideal fairytale world and not a world we’re facing today, 400+ years ago and in my opinion forever, I want to see justice I want peace but in a very real reality we are not going to get that, I don’t believe all white people are racist but unfortunately, the majority that is overclouding the minority that isn’t.

Dobson NorrisJanuary 2012, 18 years after Stephen Lawrence was murdered, Dorris and Nobson were finally convicted of murder after a 6 week trial into the death, both men received ‘life sentences’ Life sentences in the UK is nothing compared to America, Life sentence in the UK is 15 years and it’s exactly what these two got.

11th April 2018, Scotland yard admit they have no new lines of inquiries into the investigation and will consider closing the case.

Stephen Lawrence was a normal teenager except he was BLACK.

Did you know?

Did you know Presidents’ Day (George Washington’s) birthday was created in 1885 to honour the man who enslaved 316 slaves at his Mt Vernon plantation, George Washington’s dentures were made of ivory and human teeth, yes you read that correct he yanked slaves teeth out and got them moulded into a denture and wore them. 

Did you know, Benjamin Franklin attempted to abolish slavery in 1790, he wanted to promote mercy and justice towards the distressed race but it was immediately denounced by pro-slavery and caused a heated debate in both the house & senate. 

Did you know? Most of the White House was built by slaves 

Did you know? The pyramids in Egypt were built by paid labourers, not slaves that were a myth by Herodotus, the Greek historian. 

Did you know? Slavery was not made a statutory offence in the UK until April 6th 2010, if a criminal forced a victim already inside the UK of from the EU into servitude, they could not be prosecuted for trafficking. 

Did you know? There are more people in slavery today than at any other time in history. 27 million people are enslaved today, more than double the total number believed to have been taken from Africa during the transatlantic slave trade. 

Slavery was abolished in Saudia Arabia & Yemen as recent as 1962, Niger abolished in 1960, Bhutan in 1958, Qatar in 1952 & Kuwait in 1948. 

Did you know around 4 million slaves were taken from Africa to Brazil about 40% of all Americas, some estimate that 4.9M slaves were brought to Brazil from Africa during the period from 1501 to 1866, the most of any country? First sugar, then gold, diamonds, cattle ranching & foodstuff, in 1888 Brazil became the last country in the western world to abolish slavery. 

Did you know, by 1850 American slaves were worth the US $1.3B, one-fifth of the nation’s wealth 

MICHAEL BROWN JR

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   Born: May 20th 1996
 Ferguson, Missouri
Michael Brown was an ordinary teenager, drank alcohol, smoked marijuana, played video games, active social life his friends & family knew Michael as Big Mike or Mike Mike since was 6’4, despite his height Michael was seen as a gentle giant he shielded himself away from confrontation and used his size to intimidate people from fighting with him, he also embraced Christianity.

On August 9th 2014, 18-year-old Michael Brown was fatally shot by 28-year-old Missouri cop Darren Wilson in the city Ferguson. Brown was accompanied by his 22-year-old friend Dorian Johnson, Brown was left in the street to bleed out for hours without any medical attention which sparked outrage in Ferguson and across America.

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Michael Brown was UNARMED

There was an altercation before Brown was shot, Wilson asked Brown not to walk in the middle of the road, the officer reportedly realised Brown was a robbery suspect and stole Cigarillos from a nearby convenience store.

Wilson claimed Brown was ‘violent’ throughout there encounter, even charging at Wilson even after shots had been fired, however a witness said Brown was trying to flee Wilson it’ll never be perfectly clear what happened that day, Brown was trying to flee from Wilson but eventually surrendered with his hands up.

The grand jury and the US Department of Justice didn’t believe there was a sufficient amount of evidence to convict Wilson.   

The Ferguson Unrest protests and riots began the day after the fatal shooting of Michael Brown beginning on August 10th – August 25th 2014. The Ferguson Riots had 3 waves, Augusts were the first, 24th November – December 2nd 2014 (Darren Wilson not indicted) and lastly August 9th – August 11th 2015 (Anniversary of shooting)

August 2014 a makeshift memorial of flowers & candles that the residents made was put in place where Brown died, an unidentified policeman allowed their dog to urinate on the memorial and police vehicle later crushed the memorial.

Michael Brown memorial hit by car, then rebuilt - Los Angeles Times

And the police want to ask us why they’re not respected?

September 2014 a memorial to Michael Brown was burned to the ground.

November 2015, the body of 20-year-old Deandre Joshua was found inside a parked car within a few blocks of where Michael Brown was killed, initially, the cops found it suspicious then ruled the case a homicide, he had been shot in the head and burned.

The question surrounding this case was “Was Deandre Joshua murdered after testifying in Ferguson?”

The incident happened on the same night the grand jury decision not to indict Darren Wilson.

September 2016, Darren Seals a leader in the Ferguson protests was found shot and killed inside a burning car very similar to Deandre Johnson.

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Edward Crawford known for the iconic photograph of him throwing tear gas canister during the protests, Crawford said ” I didn’t throw a burning can back at police, I threw it out the way of children” Crawford died of self-inflicted gun wounds.

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August 9th the anniversary of Michael Brown’s fatal shooting, peaceful demonstrations occurred and attendants observed four and half minutes of silence signifying the 4 and half hours Brown was left on the streets.

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August 2016 on the second anniversary of Michael Brown’s death, mourners decided to hold a protest by blocking a roadway, a vehicle later drove through the protestors hitting one and flinging them into the air, protestors then began to shoot at the fleeing vehicle, the injured protestor was brought to the hospital and the driver cooperated with the cops.

As of March 2019, Ferguson protestors have continued to receive threats to their lives or well being, a number have died under circumstances that seem suspicious, this leads to a continuing of mistrust between the cops and community.

We get ushered around by the police every week, 24 hours a day, police putting their dirty hands on us, a kick to the ribs? A knee on the neck? Uncompromised positions to degrade us like we’re animals, speak down to us like we are any less to them, putting so much force on someone during an arrest you leave them paralysed, that must sound familiar, am I right?  if anyone in the police scene is reading this (opps btw) does that sound familiar to you? Victims doES this force sound familiar to you?

Regarding the police leaving someone paralysed, I present to you:

JULIAN COLE

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In 2013 Julian Cole was arrested by SIX police officers outside a nightclub in Bedford, England.

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The police broke his neck, he is now paralysed and suffers from severe brain damage.

The same organisation that is meant to ‘Protect and serve’ does that look like protecting and serving?

No one deserves this, Julian was a student at Bedford University studying Sports Science, the police just tear people’s lives away, strip them of everything they were working towards.

Julian cole was involved in a scuffle outside a nightclub called ‘Elements’ on the 5th May 2013, he was just 19 out on the town with friends but was ejected through a side door, he was refused a refund and kept trying to get back in, staff the called the police at 1:34am 6th May.

During one attempt a bouncer took him down but luckily he stood up, at 1:48am he was taken down to the ground by officers Oates, Kalyan and ross then handcuffed whilst his face was down on the ground?

Hypothetically speaking IF the club just gave him his refund I’m sure none of this would’ve happened, how can you chuck someone out and not expect them to get a refund?

THREE OFFICERS lifted him from the ground and took him to a police station.

PC Ross made a call to the ambulance at 2:02am as reports that Julian wasn’t breathing, 30 minutes later they took Julian to hospital and discovered broken vertebrae.

PC Ross made up her account and said that she could see movement in the legs in an attempt to demonstrate she had taken Julian report of neck pain seriously if someone is unconscious then where did you see leg movement??

There’s so much more to this story but the fact is the police lied and tried to cover up the truth, SIX officers on one man that led Julian being left paralysed all down to a nightclub scuffle which wasn’t the fault of the victim.

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Doesn’t this story sound familiar to you?

OLASENI LEWIS

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             Olaseni Lewis died on the 4th September 2010 after being restrained by 11 police officers whilst he was seeking help as a vulnerable voluntary patient at the Bethlem Royal Hospital, Croydon.

Lewis was admitted early in the evening of 31st August 2010 & had been at the hospital for only a few hours before the incident occurred. 

11 officers pinned down a black man who was experiencing mental health issues, he never regained consciousness, so 11 officers took it upon themselves to restrain a man at a mental health hospital. The family claims he was held face down for 40 minutes, doesn’t this story sound a bit dear to previous ones? 

2017, 6 police officers involved in the death of a man subjected to excessive and prolonged restraint at a mental health hospital in London have been cleared of wrongdoing over death.

Who knew it takes 12 weeks to become a police officer, put a police uniform on and becoming part of the biggest gangs that you can just kill people and get cleared off of an entire case. 

Lewis who was 23 died 3 days after an excessive amount of restraint, he had NO HISTORY of violence or mental health he had been taken to the hospital by his parents after an episode of mental ill-health that began over the bank holiday weekend. 

The police tried to lock him in a seclusion room, that’s when his behaviour changed he sustained injuries during this altercation. 

A doctor called the police in assistance to detain Lewis after he attempted to leave, don’t work in an organisation where you know you have to deal with difficult clients if you can’t handle the pressure, instead of Lewis to be receiving care and help he was met with incompetent staff with them being so undertrained they called the police on someone who had 0 histories of mental health. 

ERIC GARNER

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July 17th, 2014, Eric Garner was murdered on the streets of New York by a police officer Daniel Pantaleo put him in a chokehold whilst arresting him, chokeholds have been illegal in New York since 1993. Video footage captured by Ramsey Orta of the incident generated widespread national attention and raised questions about the appropriate use of force by law enforcement. 

NYPD suspected Garner of selling single cigarettes without tax stamps, Garner expressed how he was tired of being harassed by the cops, and that he was not selling cigarettes, the officers attempted to arrest Garner as soon as Pantaleo placed his hands on Garner, Garner pulled his arms away, Pantaleo then placed his arm around garners neck and wrestled him to the ground. 

With multiple officers pinning him down, Garner said ‘I can’t breathe’ 11 times whilst lying down on the sidewalk. 

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December 4th 2014, a Richmond County grand jury decided not to indict Pantaleo. This decision stirred public protests and rallies with charges of police brutality, by December 28th there had been 50 demonstrations had been held nationwide in response to the Garner case. 

July 13th 2015, an out of court settlement was announced in which the city of New York would pay the Garner family 5.9M. 

2019 the US department of justice declined to bring criminal charges against Pantaleo. 

But wasn’t the chokehold made illegal from 1993 in New York? 

Pantaleo was fired on August 19th 2019, more than five years after Garner’s death. 

Ramsey Orta was arrested for taking the video of Eric Gardner which received worldwide attention, he was arrested in 2015 and was  released on 28th May 2020

Are YOU seeing a pattern between each case?

Edson Da Costa

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Edson Da Costa was a 25-year-old black Portuguese man who died on 21 June 2017 after being stopped by police in Beckton, the unclear circumstances of his death led to protests. 

Da Costa was put face down in the prone position, with his arms handcuffed behind his back, hit twice and sprayed with CS gas. 

In June 2019 an inquest jury found that da Costa died by misadventure from the consequences of a cardiorespiratory arrest after he placed a plastic bag containing 88 wraps of class A drugs down his throat. 

Rashan Charles

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Rashan Charles, a 20-year-old black British man, died on 22nd July 2017 following contact from the metropolitan police in Dalston. 

Charles died after being chased and restrained by a police officer and swallowing a ‘supposed’ package containing caffeine and paracetamol. 

The officer who wore a body can throw Charles to the ground held him down by the neck and tried to reach inside his throat, a member of the public helped the police to further restrain him. 

First of all, if someone is choking you don’t restrain them, and then bring your longhand to stick down their throat, sticking your hand down someone’s throat whilst there’s something lodged in there will actually shove it further down causing said persons to choke. 

Also to the member of the public that tried to ‘help’ the police officer I hope you know that you assisted into murder. 

Charles became ill, was given emergency treatment at the scene and was taken by ambulance to Royal London Hospital where he died later that morning, the object of a package the police officer thought he saw in Charles’s mouth was reportedly recovered at the scene.

Alexis Patterson

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Born: April 4th 1995
          Milwaukee, Wisconsin

Seven years old, Alexis resided with her mother (Ayanna) & stepfather (LaRon Bourgeois) in Milwaukee, Wisconsin.

May 3rd 2002, LeRon watched Alexis walk towards the playground then to school, he then turned around and walked back to his residence.

Alexis didn’t attend any lessons that day…students reported seeing her crying in the playground before and after school.

She has never been heard from since.

Ayanna and LeRon were not notified of Alexis’s non-attendance until 3pm that day. They initially believed Alexis didn’t attend classes due to an argument they had over Alexis not completing her homework and that she was not allowed to bring in cupcakes the next day as it was her snack day to bring something in.

Alexis was not known to be a runaway, she had perfect attendance prior to the disappearance.

The surrounding areas were searched immediately after Alexis went missing, investigators canvassed Washington park, divers searched the lagoon, nothing came back.

Investigators announced that Alexis Patterson’s case would go from ‘missing child’ to ‘Criminal investigation’ by May 14th.

Alexis father (Kenya Campbell) was imprisoned in Milwaukee at the time of Alexis’s disappearance, he was released 3 days after and cooperated with authorities as well as Ayanna & LeRon.

LeRon has a criminal history as well, however, the investigators announced that they don’t believe either Kenya or LeRon were involved with the disappearance of Alexis.

Ayanna describe LeRon as abusive and threatening towards her, but the case was dropped, a year after Ayanna went missing, in 2003 LeRon failed a polygraph test & was charged for an unrelated crime, he had a domestic with Ayanna as she was trying to leave him for a while, he was ordered to stay away from her.

In September 2002, investigators announced that there was foul play involved, but as of 2020 Alexis Patterson is still missing, she would be 25 now, someone out there knows something, a scar under her right eye, a bump on her left pinky finger.

Someone out there knows something.

Kenneka Jenkins

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Anyone else remembers seeing this on twitter? But like you saw it on twitter first before any news headline, yeah? Because that was me too.

It’s funny all these stories about the black community that deserve to be on the news yet get dusted numerous amount of times under the carpet like we have to come on social media to find out what else is happening in the world, I’m a full believer in believing the news is controlled, the media definitely show us what they want us to see, but in reality, I want to see every last nitty-gritty detail, but nope I have to go onto Twitter to see who’s been murdered now by the police, who’s case is being classed as a suicide instead of a murder in a communal area with apparently no CCTV? No witnesses? Hung from a tree? A black man? Hung from a tree? Lynched even? I don’t believe it. 

I have to go on Instagram, to find out another person in my community has been choked to death? By seeing a constant viral video but if I turn on channel 4 news, you guessed it, no sign of said story on my local operator. 

A girl climbed into a freezer? And there was no CCTV? 

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Kenneka Jenkins was celebrating with friends at a party that took place at Crowne Plaza room 926 Chicago, the party started at 11:30pm September 8th 2017. 

An acquaintance who arrived at the party noticed Jenkins swaying back & forth as she embraced him in a hug, several witnesses reported Jenkins of drinking cognac but denied her doing any marijuana or any other drugs. Another witness reported that Jenkins wasn’t acting her usual self, she would dance a little then go to sit down and appeared sad. Jenkins was briefly seen walking around the hotel, camera footage showed of Jenkins staggering near the front desk at 3:20am. 

At 4:20 Jenkins friends contacted Teresa Martin who turned up at the hotel at 5:30am, banging on doors from the top floor to bottom, hotel employee rang 911 due to complaints, hotel management, in addition, said they could not provide video footage from the night before until someone reported Jenkins missing to the police, who officially reported her missing to hotel management at 1:15pm Saturday. The first check of camera footage at 10pm, police spotted footage of Jenkins stumbling through the hotel, her whereabouts remained unknown…until they found her in the hotel freezer pronounced dead at 12:48am Sunday. 

Kenneka Jenkins was found lying face down on her side, with one shoe off, no sign of trauma just a small cut on her foot. The temperature inside was 1° approximately 2 hours after the doors had been left open. 

The investigation of this case is very unnerving. 

The freezer was described as a walk-in freezer, it was also on in an unused kitchen, lights were off in both chambers. 

Why was the freezer on? And why was it on in unused kitchen space? 

Motion detecting cameras showed Jenkins staggering through the hotel drunk apparently intoxicated, eventually arriving at the kitchen, but the freezer door had no CCTV footage. 

Jenkins friends story inconsistencies kept on changing, her ‘friends’ left her alone in a hotel to go back and retrieve a phone from one of the hotel rooms, her friends left her, if her friends didn’t leave her it would be at a very high percentage that this ‘accident’ wouldn’t have happened if the camera was above the freezer door and inside the freezer would the investigation still be open? Would there of been more ‘people of interest’ it’s a hotel, you’re telling me no one saw her? Why is their not CCTV in every inch of that hotel? Is someone hiding something? So many avenues to this case, should’ve, could’ve, would’ve but the police closed the case on October 20th 2017, 42 days that’s how brief the case was, a 19-year-old girl goes missing at a hotel, she’s found in a freezer? And that’s how short the case was, the authorities can do more and should do more!

AHMAUD ARBERY

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February 23rd, Ahmaud Arbery an unarmed 25-year-old African American black man fatally shot whilst jogging, Arbery had been pursued and confronted by two white residents Travis McMichael & his father Gregory who was armed and driving a pickup truck, a satila shores resident recorded the murder known as William Bryan. 

Neither the son nor father were arrested or charged with a crime until late May, even though Gregory ADMITTED to the police that Travis was responsible for the crime, the truth was right there and the authorities denied it.

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This story was spoken about internationally

The death and events have sparked debates concerning lack of racial equality, doesn’t this story sound familiar to one from across the pond? 

After an article put out by the New York Times, the release of the video of the February confrontation that was leaked on 5th May & increased attention from lawmakers, celebrities, civil rights activists, Georgia bureau of investigations finally stepped in. 

Arbery can be seen running down the street when he comes across a truck parked in the middle of the street, a white man is standing beside the driver’s door brandishing a firearm, Arbery attempts to go around but struggled, moments later gunshots are fired and Arbery falls to his knees. 

Since the video leaked, national political figures demanded justice for Ahmaud Arbery, the likes of Joe Biden, Lebron James & Ava Duvernay, many compared Arbery’s death to Trayvon Martin, Botham Jean, maybe even Stephen Lawrence. 

On June 24th, they indicted the Mcmichaels & Bryan on nine counts each, including, Felony Murder, Malice Murder, aggregated assault, false imprisonment, and criminal attempt to commit imprisonment, 74 days it took for the Mcmichaels to be arrested and charged. 

BREONA TAYLOR

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Every day that passes by, every week, every month, every year, a black person has been shot and killed by the authorities, remember‘ To protect & Serve’ Breonna Taylor went to sleep one night and didn’t wake up the next day due to police storming her apartment and shooting her 8 times. 

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Breonna Taylor 26-year-old African American emergency medical technician was fatally shot by Louisville police department.

March 13th 2020, plainclothes cops entered Taylor’s apartment with the ‘no-knock search warrant’ Gunfire was exchanged between Kenneth Walker (Breonna’s boyfriend) & the cops, Walker believed that the officers were intruders, over 20 shots fired and Breonna received 8 of them. 

Police stated that they announced themselves before entering the apartment & knocking several times, yet they had a no-knock search warrant? Neighbours and Taylor’s family dispute this 

The police were searching for drugs at the apartment, even though the drug search was unrelated to the Taylors, it was relatable to two offenders down the street. 

The case was never about Breonna Taylor, yet they still raided her apartment? They lied on their statements making it out to the public that they did announce themselves, yet no one else heard this? No neighbours heard anything, yet you forced your way into their apartment gone midnight? 

This case made international news headlines, and is still strong today because we want answers, justice and most of all equality! 

You shoot someone 8 times and doesn’t think her family want justice, or her community wants justice? Never mistake the black community as any lesser than white counterparts because we can put up a fight and we will get justice for Breonna Taylor 

This year Breonna celebrated her birthday in heaven when she should’ve been on earth living her moment, starting a new age, enjoying with family and just living and being free, but instead, the justice system never gives our community the easy road to justice, we are fighting, showing emotion, protesting all in the right to be equal, why can cops kill us but when it’s time for us to stand up and fight back we are doing too much? SWAT teams come out, rubber bullets flying into crowds of people, tear gas being thrown at such close proximity? Police cars being ploughed through 100s of peaceful protesters? 

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All lives don’t matter until black lives matter 

“I’m not a racist but” 

“My kid’s dad is black, and my child is mixed so I can’t be racist”

“I have black friends so I can’t be a racist” 

There’s no counterproductive argument to racism, racism isn’t an opinion it’s just facts.

There’s no ‘but’ 

Because it’ll always be BUT your racist

Racism is taught, racism is engrained into toxic minds who only see one fit of race and it isn’t black and it certainly isn’t an ethnic minority. 

You can ask a racist why they’re racist and the response is very much down to class, where they compare yourselves to them, they don’t see us as equal. 

In 2019 there were only 27 days of 2019 where police in the USA did not kill someone, yet people are against defunding the police? 

Police have killed 576 people in the USA in 2020 regarding I’m typing this (27th June 22:03) this figure could change by the time you’ll read this. 

Black people are 3 times more likely to be killed by the police than their white counterparts. 

99% of police killings by police between 2013 to 2019 have not resulted in officers being charged in the crime. 

Let me repeat myself in a chart format so everyone understands in reading format and seeing format, there is no accountability and that is one problem within many: 

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GEORGE FLOYD

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May 25th 2020, George Floyd a black African American, 46 years old was restrained & arrested in the streets of Minneapolis, Minnesota over suspicions of using a counterfeit $20 bill. Derek Chauvin a white police officer knelt on Floyd’s neck for 8 minutes, whilst Floyd was handcuffed and lying face down repeatedly saying ‘ I can’t breathe’ Officers J. Alexander Kueng & Thomas Lane further restrained Floyd whilst another officer Tou Thao prevented bystanders from intervening. 

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During the final 3 minutes, Floyd was motionless & had no pulse, Chauvin didn’t remove his knee until medics instructed him too even though onlookers pleaded with him he ignored and continued. 

Every single black live murdered, lynched, shot, they all had a life before death, death took away, each and every person mentioned here all have families, aspirations, goals, but the sheer hatred of white counterparts don’t let some of us see so far ahead in life. 

George Floyds daughter will have to grow up without a dad, a mother can’t teach their child everything, a mother can’t have the same bond a father can with their child, a bond is now shattered over a counterfeit bill, does that mean his life was not valued at all or it was valued to a $20 bill? 

Whilst George Floyd’s death is extremely sad, we must thank a brave onlooker who recorded the whole incident, Darnella Frazier 17 years old, she received online hate as trolls said why didn’t she step in to help

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Minneapolis cop charged in George Floyd death – The Bay Observer

8 whole minutes.

(16/06/2020)

Police in the USA killed 120 people since George Floyd.

20 days, 120 lives

Every day I am reminded that the ‘UK isn’t racist’ but every time I hear those very words it’s always from someone that isn’t of my complexion let alone part of my community, I always wonder how backwards you must be to say a country isn’t racist when it’s displayed every day, I hear white people call other white people ‘niggers’ ?? it doesn’t even make sense, some white people know they’re racist though because they’ll be around a black person and be stuttering to say nigga but earlier on in the day when you were around your own people I’m sure it would be rolling off of their tongue easily.

The Media shows racism every day

Football games shows racism every match

The government show racism every second that they can

  • Boris Johnson has called gay men ‘Bum boys’ & compared Muslim woman to letterboxes
  • Boris Johnson labelled black Africans ‘piccaninnies’ with ‘Watermelon smiles’
  • Boris Johson also suggested that Malaysian women only go to university ‘to find men to marry’
  • Boris Johnson has recently suggested that he understood the anger black people felt in the UK’s history
  • In 2002 a column was written Boris said “The problem is not that we were once in charge, the problem is that we aren’t anymore

Must I go on?

And this is some people’s favourite prime minster?

Racist, Homophobic?

I have the source if anyone would like to come forward and tell me the UK isn’t racist, I have time.

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How many more of us have to be murdered before they realise we matter as well?

Do they even see us as people or just a number to the system?

Between 2013-2019, police in the United States have killed 7,666 black people.

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This country & USA and the citizens take everything as a joke

Breathing is such a privilege that our white counterparts think it’s clearly a joke.

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If racism doesn’t exist, then what’s the difference between these 3 images?

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If racism doesn’t exist, then I wouldn’t need to fight for justice every day for these people, if racism didn’t exist then I wouldn’t need to attend protests if racism doesn’t exist then all these people would still be existing and living, but the colour of our skin gives us our own life expectancy and it’s a short-haul for some of us.

Apologies if my blog is everywhere, but this is one of the hardest blogs I’ve ever had to write, there are so many names to say, so many stories about each person, the stories make them different, but the bottom line is everyone mentioned in this blog victim wise is black, and the instigators, interrogators and murderers are white.

I have mentioned as much as I can here but feel free to read my other blogs that are related to this one:

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Colourism, Racism & Discrimination

Since George Floyd died and even before there were so many police brutalities mainly in America compared to the UK, this happens in the UK as well everyone likes to think because the UK hasn’t legalised guns that we are any different, America is 40 times the size of the UK that is the difference, but the UK has a fair share of police brutalities, I’m also annoyed at how the government truly believe that the UK isn’t racist, Go on any post regarding black people good/bad, you will see the racists alive and kicking at 7am, we have the EDL led by Tommy Robinson a far-right Islamophobic, he hates Muslims, he hates anyone that doesn’t agree with his terms and conditions about them, people in the EDL group have even called the group racist yet apparently the UK isn’t racist? Some people love to see racism as a competition, like ‘America is more racist than the UK’ ?? Since when did racism become a competition? It doesn’t matter where or which country is more racist the bottom line is RACISM has no place in society, I haven’t included everything I could possibly want in this blog, however, I added what I thought stood a good chance, I’m not google the rest of what I’ve missed is on the internet free of charge. 

I’ve gone past the stage of angry, I’ve gone past the stage of hurting because I’ve seen everything I never thought I’d encounter, I just want JUSTICE, EQUALITY & FREEDOM. 

I want justice and peace for everyone but most importantly my community first, the injustices that we have endured from 1619 all the way up until 2020, the injustices our ancestors were facing during slavery, being raped by the white man, being caned by the white man, being whipped whilst out picking cotton, Black Friday? Buying slaves for cheaper to assist other slaver traders in aid during the winter months? Now we’ve adopted Black Friday into our society where shopping is cheaper, we are buying into a now holiday tradition but it originally dates back to slavery. We can’t forget the white women that gave their children to slaves so their babies could eat and having no breast milk left for their own, the wickedness kissing my teeth as I typed that.

We are now in 2020, slavery still exists it might of been abolished but it’s still there in the shadows, we still face racism, discrimination, colourism but instead of slavery we get shot, we get kneeled on, we get choked, stop and searched, treated like animals, we just face accusations from Karen’s, it’s always the Karen ladies that find an acting degree within 2 seconds, so over reactive, everyday ‘get out my country’ but my country says England so where should I go? Always hear ‘but the uk ain’t that racist to America’ Racism is racism, no matter which way you put it, racism ain’t a competition of which country gets more, the bottom line is racism is wrong. 

I’m judged by the colour of my skin isn’t that just weird? If I could change my colour I wouldn’t, I face injustices because of my skin.

I’ve stopped discussing  racism with people who don’t understand, or people who don’t see colour or people who tell me ‘I’m not racist but’ it’s not me you’ll try and justify racism too,  don’t classify me as ‘blacks’ or say ‘half casts’ to me because what is that? You can’t call me a nigga and justify that, you can’t kill a member of my family by restraint and justify that, you can’t shoot someone 8 times and justify that, you can’t shoot someone 40 times and justify that, why is someone receiving 8 shots to the chest, you don’t think they’re dead after the 2nd? I’ve stopped discussing topics with people who believe every wrong action is justifiable.

Someone said to me ‘The horses that got attacked at the London riots by those people is disgusting, how can people attack animals?’ HOW CAN PEOPLE HATE SOMEONE FOR THE COLOUR OF THEIR SKIN? When the grand nationals are on television every year, I don’t hear no complaints about the horses that are injured and die there but apparently if it’s black people fighting for justice it’s wrong, the police brought a horse with prosthetic legs to the protest, you don’t think the animal has suffered enough? Who brings horses to protests, it was a protest not a riot by the way,

Who brings horses to protests, horses have been attacked before so why are the police not learning their lessons? A horse was let loose in London during the riots and injured a young black woman, don’t bring an animal to a protest if you can’t control them, including dogs police officers know exactly how to rile a dog to make it further attack you.

Racism isn’t a point of view, racism is taught from early, it’s engrained.

I don’t have time to unteach racism, why should I stress myself out on teaching you why racism is wrong?

You cannot educate someone who doesn’t have the willingness to learn.

‘Black on black’ crime is a clever concept purely used to weaponise & demonise one race, all other races are free to commit because white on white crime doesn’t exist clearly, black on black crime does not exist it was construed to highlight the black communities wrong doings

“I don’t see colour but black on black crime exists”

Funny how these people don’t see colour then next thing you know they’ve picked up an eye prescription and can all of a sudden see black on black crime.

Isn’t it funny how they’ve called each and everyone on these lynchings ‘suicide’ the authorities are quick to class it as something else to just close the case, so you’re telling me no one saw these people commit suicide from a tree in a communal area at night? No CCTV footage? Or footage not available to the public? I always question the answers.

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Kendrick Johnson found rolled up in a gym mat decapitated with his organs missing, the police ruled that as suicide? Do you know how dense you have to be to believe that was suicide?

Justice for Kendrick Johnson

Peppered spray to death? Is that justifiable behaviour? 

Justice for Jamal Edwards

Killed by police in front of his 4 year daughter and girlfriend, whilst reaching for his ID, is that justifiable?

Justice for Philandro Castillo

Protesting peacefully in downtown Omaha and murdered by white supremacists?

Justice for James Scurlocks

It’s not just the police killing us, it’s white doctors ignoring are cries of pain and telling us to go home and focus on something else, it’s white judges issuing out life sentences, it’s white citizens being able to freely kill us on the street.

America have a gun/accountability problem

England have an accountability problem

The exact same happens in the UK, we just don’t have a gun problem.

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Brandon Webber
Christoper Kassa

If you can’t stand a few days of protests, you’d hate 400+ years of systemic discrimination and oppression.

I’m black I don’t have privilege, I don’t get equal opportunities, I don’t get the same life expectancy on this earth opposed to my white counterparts, I always got told “you’ll have to work 10x harder” Doctors treat my body as like it’s a game of operation, they don’t believe I’m sick, they don’t believe my pain.

I don’t believe all white people are racist but it’s the minority that outshines the majority that isn’t.

It’s white people who have made my life harder and made my communities life unbearable to live, we just want equality, justice and freedom.

Until we get that ‘NO JUSTICE NO PEACE’

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JUSTICE FOR SHUKRI ABDI 

JUSTICE FOR BELLY MUJINGA 

JUSTICE FOR MARK DUGGAN

JUSTICE FOR BREONNA TAYLOR

JUSTICE FOR GEORGE FLOYD

JUSTICE FOR TAMIR RICE 

JUSTICE FOR ELIJAH McCLAIN

JUSTICE FOR SIMEON FRANCIS 

JUSTICE FOR JANET WILSON

JUSTICE FOR OLUWATOYIN SALAU

JUSTICE FOR DAMIOLA TAYLOR

JUSTICE FOR ERROL GRAHAM

JUSTICE FOR TAMLA HORSFORD

JUSTICE FOR AIYANA JONES

JUSTICE FOR KALIEF BROWDER

JUSTICE FOR EVERYONE NOT MENTIONED.

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Suicide Prevention Awareness Day.

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Suicide suicide, deep in my lungs

Suicide suicide, deep in my veins

Suicide suicide, on my mind, while I pray

Suicide suicide, deep in my brain

Suicide suicide, while I’m cutting away

Suicide suicide, I’m so done with you

Suicide suicide, where’s the way out?

I’m alone in a corner, all I know is lights out, 

No such thing as light at the end of the tunnel, 

It’s a never-ending darkness, I feel alone, scared even, 

Nothing in life is fair, I don’t even fear death I fear life. 

I leapt and sometimes I wish someone caught me

You joked I laughed hiding my cries in my voice

I fell apart and piece by piece you put me back together like a puzzle,

I whispered ‘tick-tock slow motion’ as I counted down 5,4,3,2,1 

My eyes flickered open I bellowed ‘I’VE HAD ENOUGH’

Why am I feeling hopeless, lifeless, like no one can help me?

I wish I could see clearly now the rain has gone, 

I have no tears left to cry,

I’ll probably self-destruct if I lose but I never do,

No one 079’s me, people say they know me from somewhere, but they never pick up their line to 079 me,

I got fake people showing fake love to me, straight up to my face,

Everyone tells me I’m self- centred, but they ain’t got a fucking clue.

Did you see what I did? Remixed bars with normal lines to come up with something quick! I was a distraught lifeless person then stepped up and became a better one, this death thing it isn’t for me nor you, our souls, our smiles, it’s irreplaceable.

You see this life, it’s what you make it, you only get one chance, it’s not easy but you have so much to live for, you don’t have anything to die for, your life will finish when it’s ready, speeding it up for what? For who? 

You! Yeah, I’m talking to you! Don’t let anyone think you’re less than a person, God gave you breath, he gave you a family, you wouldn’t be on this very earth if he didn’t want you to enjoy it and explore, I know you must be thinking ‘no one cares about me’ but believe me there are a lot of people out there who care about you, if you resist the urge to not end your life a day will come where you’ll think ‘I’m so glad I’m not dead and still here.

I’m 21 next year, if I committed suicide I wouldn’t have even reached 20. 

It happened to me and I’m glad I didn’t end it all when I had the chance, so many things have cropped up for me from that day forward, sometimes I still do have bad days, but I remember why I’m on this earth and it’s to live it my way how I want, I’m not here to impress anyone but myself.  

Help is within your control, if you want it you’ll take steps to get it. 

I’m not trying to say battling mental health is easy, because it’s the opposite of that, it’s extremely fucking hard, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but everyone has a chance of rebuilding the life they want, with help if they want it, I found most of my help within, I wanted it, I didn’t want to feel always depressed all the time, hiding indoors, it’ll end when you make steps. 

To the people who say “ I’m going to start checking on my friends today” what about all the other days, why today? 365 days in a year, 52 weeks in a year and today is the day you’ll want to check up on them, speaking to your friends or family isn’t a hard task, what if you are a day late from checking up on them? Who’s going to feel guilty? 

To check on someone takes a mere five minutes, you can save someone by just taking a few minutes out to see how they are, trust me. 

This is a very quick blog from me, hopefully, you can read in between the lines, no one deserves to die by suicide, mental health is a killer but we can stop this in due time.

You’re worth it, think before you act! 

Teeks x 

 

Mental Health Awareness Week

Mental Health Awareness Week!

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Mental health is something that affects me and a large majority of people around me as well.

Stigma is defined as a sign of disgrace or discredits, which sets a person apart from others.

Recently within the last 5 months (28th December 2017 – 6th May 2018), my life has spiralled out of control with problems that snuck up on me without my control.

My physical health has got so bad that my mental health has begun to get worse over time, I’ve had knee problems for nearly 3 years now, they didn’t hurt as much before but within the last 2 years they’ve got extremely bad, bad to a point where I had to quit my recent job over it as my managers didn’t believe me yet I provided evidence from physiotherapists, doctors letters, medication etc…it was a fight and a journey that really I began to realise you are only a number within these companies, these people didn’t care about me, I used to work 40-50 hour weeks always on my feet, breaks honestly I didn’t know what they was at all, I broke my back for people with no sympathy back.

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After I quit I was in talks with my physiotherapist and it was agreed that I needed rest and to do minimal exercise, I had a gym membership that I could no longer use, I’m still in the process of getting devices being put in my shoes to help me walk properly, I have crutches that I probably used once or twice that I should’ve been using every day but to be fair I hardly left my room, I didn’t open my blinds or curtains day in day out I was sat in darkness, the only light I got was artificial light from my television or phone screen, did I leave my house? Hardly, there was no point at all, if you have me on snapchat it probably looks like a different story to you, but honestly I hardly left my house, probably been to London 2/3 times, I’m normally their all the time, but I had no energy to go back and forth, honestly my mother told me not to leave the house without crutches (London + crutches= error 404) It doesn’t make sense, because honestly who had the time for London Underground and hospital equipment because it certainly wasn’t me!

My sleeping pattern is ridiculous I have sleep insomnia and sleep paralysis the worst combination since avocado on toast.

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Sleeping paralysis is the worst thing I’ve ever encountered, when I tell you I’ve seen things, been spoken to, touched, dragged down my bed, sometimes I fear to go to bed because I never know what will happen in my next episode, I used to get so frightened when it happened the first few times but now not so much, I don’t fight it because it’ll be over before you know it, but the things you encounter and see is just not normal, I believe in hell so much more now.

Before I started my recent new job on the 8th May 2018 I used to sleep at 4,5,6,7am even sometimes way later I’ll literally remove myself from the bed and sit downstairs and just stare into oblivion, then go back to bed try and sleep, no matter how much I slept it was never enough.

You must be thinking why are you talking about physical health when this is meant to be about mental health.

Physical health can deeply affect your mental health, being bed bound for 3 or so months was an extreme sport and ferociously boring, I never thought I’d get bored of my phone but I did, me and my Xbox fell out, I thought having all these gadgets would keep me entertained they absolutely did not, I was bored my friends were at work while I was at home, I lost small small bit of weight, while I lost weight I had a small episode of (I don’t know what) but my sugar levels dropped, I actually went out to get food Lord had me that day, because I was so close to fainting, my sugar levels dropping I thought I had anemia which apparently I do not, yet I wasn’t allowed to give blood and my sugar levels drop regularly also I have the sickle cell anemia trait yet no signs of sickle cell.

Okay, that’s enough about me, let me start talking about other issues with the mental health community!

Before I throw myself straight into it, something occurred on the Twitter timeline the other day, it actually scared me a lot.

 

I was on my timeline around 2/3am scrolling as I do, and I came across a tweet from one of my followers that I couldn’t just scroll past or I would’ve felt extra guilty for, the tweet was something like ‘I can’t do this anymore’ I was thinking hell to the no, so I messaged who it was yet I got zero response so I checked her followers to mine and found the mutuals we normally chat to on the timeline, I was asking around yet I got nothing, until a few people popped up and I managed to find her best friend through it, long story short the person  overdosed on a lot of tablets and thankfully one of her friends found out through Twitter and rushed over to her house and called the ambulance, her best friend was absolutely lovely kept me updated on the situation. The person who it was, was extremely ill for a few days but over time got better, it’s now been less than a month since this happened and the person who it was has flourished so much, bagged an amazing opportunity and I honestly wish them all the best in the future, their not a follower anymore more like a good friend.

This urges me whether you’re on social media or in person, check up on your friends at all costs, if something looks sketchy check in on them, I have much more information in my previous blog ‘Black and Asian Mental Health’ on how to reach out to your friends, family or associates.

Mental health glamorisation

Mental illness is hard to understand by this I mean if you haven’t experienced it yourself. Growing up I began to learn about mental health by seeing it around me, learning about it or even watching documentaries, that’s the only way I would’ve learnt, unfortunately you can experience it for yourself there’s more to mental health than depression, I always see on social media ‘oh I’m so depressed’ ‘I hate being depressed’ I’ve seen certain mental health illnesses trend online and not for the right reasons either, before you say your depressed do you actually know the meaning of what depression is, there are real people in this world who are suffering yet we have people jumping on the bandwagon saying they’re depressed, anxious, get panic attacks, schizophrenia etc.

A time when I saw mental health glamourised/romanticised was on the internet when I was around 12/13 years old, this was when Tumblr was popping back in the day to be fair I had a Tumblr account, still do but I have no idea how to use it at all, but while I had my account and became more affiliated with socials I saw a lot of illnesses spoken about or put in image view preferably in black and white.

Twitter is where I saw glamorisation for mental health grow on a large scale, people are drawn to people’s tragic stories, some people have supportive-friends or partners, viewers start to glorify this image and wish it upon themselves, everyone is extremely different you can’t wish an individuals needs on yourself, if life was so sweet none of this would exist, but unfortunately it does, and some people really need to learn to deal with it properly, don’t look to social media for the answers because more time it’s just opinions on here.

Growing up seeing all of this I certainly wasn’t enticed by anything getting shown, seeing scars admired like it was art, or seeing depression as cool, these illnesses eat away at people, on constant medication, in & out of counselling sessions.

Why was I seeing eating disorders idolised?

An eating disorder is when you have an unhealthy attitude towards food which can make you ill, it can involve eating too much or too little or even becoming too obsessed with your weight and body shape.

Anorexia nervosa: When you try to keep your weight as low as possible by hardly eating food

Bulimia: When you binge eat constantly in a short amount of time and then are deliberately sick to restrict yourself from gaining weight

BED (Binge eating disorder) When you regularly lose control of eating large portions until you feel uncomfortably full and guilty

It’s easy to idolise someone whether it be a celebrity, famous YouTuber, television personality, but you’re literally misinterpreting and fetishising someone’s illness.

I remember being at school in year 7 and being told I had a thigh gap and everyone wanted one, that was just apart of my figure, I never knew what the hype was with a gap within your thighs, I never had an eating disorder, but I always saw thigh gaps being worshipped in mental health videos, when people came up to me saying ‘ I wanna have a figure like you’ ‘ wow you’re so skinny’ ‘ You’re so lucky to be able to eat what you want’ honestly times it felt good but they were admiring something beyond my control, don’t get it wrong I love being skinny sometimes I wish I was a bit fatter (I’ll get there in due time)

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Stuff like this, it ain’t cute

Some of these mental illnesses need to be broken down for some people, depression isn’t a one-time feeling, it’s a constant battle.

Different types of depression:

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SAD ( Seasonal affective disorder)  Depression that usually not always occurs in winter

Dysthymia: Continuous mild depression that lasts more than two years, also called persistent depressive disorder or chronic depression

Prenatal Depression: Occurs during pregnancy

PND (Postnatal depression) occurs in weeks/months after becoming a parent, usually diagnosed in a woman but can affect men too

Depression summarised is a low mood that lasts for a long time and affects your everyday life.

In its mildest form depression can mean feeling low every now and again but it doesn’t stop you from leading a normal life but makes a few things harder to do.

Being sad once or a few times doesn’t necessarily mean your depressed, please for your state of mind get help, don’t self-diagnose yourself, it’s not fair on the people that go through this mental state of mind day in day out.

Other mental health illness meanings

GAD (Generalised anxiety disorder) A long-term condition that causes you to feel anxious about a wide range of situations and issues, rather than one specified issue.

GAD is a common condition estimated to affect 5% of the UK population

Anxiety is common but it comes with a lot of physical/psychological impacts for example

Physical:

Rapid irregular heartbeat

Weakened muscles

Sweating

Dry mouth

Psychological:

Trouble sleeping

Feeling irritable

Loss of self-confidence

Anxiety can be in your genes, how you were brought up, life experiences etc …

Schizophrenia is a severe long-term mental health condition, doctors often describe schizophrenia as a type of psychosis, this means the person may not be able to distinguish their own thoughts from reality.

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Symptoms

Hallucinations: Hearing or seeing things that don’t exist

Delusions: Unusual beliefs not based on reality

Changes in behaviour

*Schizophrenia does not cause split personalities or violent behaviour*
The exact cause of schizophrenia is unknown

Suicide

Suicide is the act of intentionally causing death to one’s life.

Thousands of people end their lives each year by suicide

More than 6,000 suicides are recorded each year in the UK

Suicide is the leading cause of death among young people aged 20-34 years in the UK and is considerably higher in men.

One reason that men are more than likely to commit suicide is that they’re less likely to ask for help, unlike women.

The statistics for suicide is still highly stigmatised.

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Fuck that, the stigma within mental health is fucked overall.

Other mental health issues/illnesses/disorders

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Anger

Oppositional Defiant Disorder
A childhood disorder defined by hostile and defiant behaviour directed by adults 
Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD
A group of behavioural symptoms that include inattentiveness, hyperactivity and impulsiveness, mainly diagnosed between the ages of 6-12 years old
Conduct Disorder
A range of antisocial behaviour displayed in children and adults
Psychotic Disorder
Severe mental disorders that cause abnormal thinking and perceptions
Bipolar Disorder
Previously known as manic depression, when your mood elevates then drops significantly
Paranoid & Narcissistic Disorder
Mental Disorder characterized by paranoia and a persuasive long-standing generalization of mistrust

Anxiety/Panic Attacks

Panic Disorder
An anxiety disorder characterized by reoccurring panic attacks
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
An anxiety disorder caused by traumatic and stressful events
Social Phobia
Social anxiety is the everlasting fear of interactions with people
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Common mental health disorder in which a person has obsessive & compulsive thoughts, it can develop at any age and affect all genders

BDD (Body Dysphoric disorder)

A mental disorder which you can't stop thinking about one or more flaw in your appearance

Dissociative Disorders

A condition that involves disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity, or perception.

Drugs (Recreational & Alcohol)

Recreational drugs are substances people take to either feel better, have a pleasurable time, to fit in or see what it feels like

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Psychosis

 Characterized by an impaired relationship with reality.

Traumatic brain injuries, brain tumours, strokes, HIV and some brain diseases such as Parkinson's, Alzheimer's and dementia can sometimes cause psychosis.

Schizoaffective disorder

 A mental disorder diagnosed when symptoms of schizophrenia are present for a significant portion of the time within a one-month period

Tardive dyskinesia

A neurological syndrome characterized by repetitive, involuntary, purposeless movements caused by the long-term use of certain drugs called neuroleptics
* Drugs that can cause TD*
Metoclopramide (treats stomach problem called gastroparesis)Antidepressant drugs such as amitriptyline, fluoxetine, phenelzine, sertraline, trazodone.Antiparkinson drugs such as levodopa.Antiseizure drugs such as phenobarbital and phenytoin.
*Disclaimer*
There are many more illnesses/disorders but I wanted to show that there are many issues within the community that shouldn’t be stamped out.

MEN AND MENTAL HEALTH

I’ve always felt a certain way towards this particular topic with men and their mental health, I feel like it’s very secluded, from what I’ve seen not many men talk about their mental health and it’s quite disturbing.

I recently wrote a very short thread on Twitter in regards to ‘Men’s mental health’ and also received a few answers back thankfully enough, hopefully, this can summarise whatI’ve wanted to say.

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I remember very recently on ITV news 26/03/18 on top of the ITV building they unveiled sculptures of men, when I first saw it I didn’t understand the point until I read into it, they wanted to raise awareness around male suicide. Male suicide is the biggest killer with 75% of men under the age of 45. 

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Every single week in the UK, 84 men take their lives

Each sculpture that was on top of the ITV building, represented a real man that took their own life

12.5% of men in the UK are suffering from one of the common mental health disorders

Men are nearly 3 times more likely than women to become alcohol dependent

Men are less likely to access psychological therapies from a women

73% of adults who ‘go missing’ are men

87% of rough sleepers are men

Men have measurably lower access to the social support of friends, relatives and community

On average, 191,000 men a year report stress, depression or anxiety caused or made worse by work

In 2016 there were 5,668 suicides in Great Britain. Of the total number of suicides, 76% were males and 24% were females.

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When I saw all of these statistics I was quite startled, personally I think women over stereotype men way too much

 

I found a project to help young African Caribbean men between the ages of 15-25 called ‘up my street’ to build resilience or strength and helps them speak to each other and their families, with this project they will come to you whether you’re on the street or a youth centre. ‘Up my street’ has projected that they want young people to get the mental support they deserve and need in a flexible and informal way.

WOMAN AND MENTAL HEALTH

Woman are more likely to be treated for a mental health problem than men

About 25% of people who die by suicide are women.

The traditional roles for women from some ethnic groups living in the UK can increase their exposure to these risks.  

More women than men are the main carer for their children and they may care for other dependent relatives too 

Women are over-represented in low income, low-status jobs

Physical and sexual abuse of girls and women can have a long-term impact on their mental health

Recently I was looking through different organisations for mental health and came across @InsideoutUK_ I was really intrigued by this particular organisation I found it quite comforting that a young black woman named Vanessa Boachie founded and started up a tremendous project, I read one interview and one small sentence struck me ” Now her focus is maintaining the relationship she has with Black women but do more to reach out to black men, who she said do not speak out enough”

THE MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA

I’ve written about mental health in 3 of my previous blogs and never addressed ‘Stigma’ properly, now seems like the right time, as a Blogger I try to blog on as many important topics as I possibly can write and think off, I’ve worked within mental for three years and I partly feel like it’s my responsibility to keep raising awareness and to hopefully break the stigma. 

What do you mean?

It means showing people that having a mental health disorder/illness isn’t weird or erratic, it’s like watching the news or reading a headline where an individual has shot up a school or theatre and straight away labelled as ‘psycho’ or ‘crazy’ without the full situation being dealt with in an appropriate manner, I’m not saying doing any of those things are correct but individuals do not represent or portray everyone, a majority of people or even groups of people are labelled, for example black people are branded as ‘aggressive’ ‘animals’ ‘bitter’ as a young black woman I feel like a lot of people from other racial groups antagonize us and when we respond we are an issue, white Americans are labelled as ‘ill’ ‘mentally unstable’ as soon as they shoot someone, yet if it was a black or Asian individual we’d be locked up in an instant. It’s one rule for one and 60 rules for another until discrimination stops nothing will get better.

I’m still battling my mental health today, I have good days I have bad days, my moods still flip uncontrollably, I’ve agreed to get help on that. If you read my previous blog on ‘Black & Asian mental health’ I mentioned how I’ve tried to continuously overdose, from December to April I was trying a few more times but eventually gave up since the tablets kept on agreeing with me, I took a step back and I really looked at my life I decided to try and turn to God not heavily like going to church because that really isn’t me at all, but I looked at a few scriptures, looked online for prayers, I occassionally started praying for people again I didn’t start feeling better straight away that was just impossible but the clouds started clearing from over my head one step at a time, I started to leave my room and actually utilise my house, I think my mum could sense a difference in behaviour as she’d tell me to go out get fresh air but a few times I declined, normally I’m always out, come home when I want but after a while I started seeing some of my friends again, I’m one of those friends to people that I’ll help with your problems but also tell you a straight answer, I have a lot of time for people no matter who you are, for my friends that live round my area they always know my door is open to any problems, I like helping friends, associates, family etc…but I can never help myself. I’m learning to take a step back from other people and sometimes pick myself, it’s now May 17th and life is looking up, I feel in a much calmer, satisfying place I still have a lot of work to do physically and mentally but I whisper to myself at least 10 times a day “You can fucking do it” and I do I carry on.

I have my platform to share my experiences and so that others can feel comfortable to do so as well…

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I saw what Theresa posted on Twitter about mental health awareness week and it made me extremely angry, I don’t know how she found it in her right mind to speak on this issue when she has literally no right! Talking about end the stigma when the NHS has no money, we expect free healthcare yet we only have 147.7bn going into healthcare, we still have no final headcount from Grenfell, we now have people from that building suffering from all sorts of mental health issues, Grenfell could’ve been avoided. Black & Asian people are still finding discomfort in the system since we have no one that thoroughly understands us.

To be honest, you’re not crazy, don’t let anyone label you like that either, except that you’re different, everyone’s brain works different, growing up/livelihood was a whole different ballgame, I’m a blogger even a mental health advocate, I’ll never let anyone treat me any which way so you shouldn’t either! Nothing is wrong with having a mental health illness/disorder.

Some days I’ll be super happy, the mood I love to be in, and sometimes my mood will hit an all-time low, but I’ll remember I am who I am and no one can tell me any different

There are experts in the world, and they honestly do try their absolute hardest to get us diagnosed, a lot of them don’t get paid enough yet they still help, some diagnoses some of them completely miss the signs but you can always swap and change, and you never know the next one can find the problem and you can go to the next step

When I was younger I felt a lot of resentment, my parent’s divorce really hurt me but as I grew up and knew it was for the best, it took me a long time to move on from it, some things today still upset me, for a while I thought it was my fault but me being so young I knew damn well it wasn’t my issue.

When I got to year 7 I got bullied once by two people, it didn’t last long at all, I have two older brothers who are very protective of me, the whole bullying situation got shut down in minutes, but from year 7 to year 11 my behaviour spiralled out of control always getting in trouble, normal teenagers would pattern up by year 10, nope not with me I went on till year 11, my grades were still okay but if I focused when I was meant to instead of getting into arguments I would’ve got much further in life, but we live and we learn.

I didn’t get help for a very long time, more time I just thought those feelings would pass, I tried cutting myself once but it never went deep enough and I’m thankful it didn’t, I really love my skin and body and I just didn’t want it to look dismantled.

Now I continue to fight and debate most days, I want to educate, be involved in one way or another, one day I want to create my own educational platform, I’m living to help myself and others, I don’t want to leave this world not being remembered, If I can leave this world as a mental health educator or a mental health panellist I’d be extremely happy, it may seem like such small goals but when I say I love talking about mental health and raising awareness I mean it.

Believe in God and he will guide you

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I posted this on Twitter as I thought it would be a good place where people can tell their stories anonymously without being judged, thankfully I got 30 submissions all stories are different as everyone is a unique individual 

 

 

 

 

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I understand this is a lot to read, but you’re never alone with suffering, so many amazing stories of what people are going through and how they’re prospering, I understand not everyone who has written in has recovered but I have a few solutions on how I can help you and how you can help yourself.

ANXIETY UK: 03444 775 774

MIND (Promotes the views and needs of people with mental health issues): 0300 123 3393

NO PANIC (OCD & Panic Attacks): 0844 967 4848

OCD ACTION(Includes information on treatment): 0845 390 6232 

PAPYRUS (Young suicide prevention): 0800 068 4141

SAMARITANS: 116 123

SANE (Emotional Support): 0300 304 7000

RAPE CRISIS: 0808 802 9999

VICTIM SUPPORT: 0808 168 9111

EATING DISORDERS: (Adults):0808 801 0677 (Under 18’s):  0808 801 0711

MY 2ND NUMBER: 07710184765 (Text Messages Only)

*Disclaimer*
This is not my main number, but I’m always active on my phone if you want to send me a message and I’ll try my best to help you, in whatever situation you are in, however, if I receive any abuse I will block your number, I’m here to help only.

I’ve now come to the end of my mental health blog, in the near future I will be bringing out a platform solely based on mental health, I’ve had it as an idea for a while and I would love to bring it to life.

Always remember you are worth it, you are on this earth for a reason! Serve your purpose, you may think no one cares about you but you’ll be surprised who is looking out for you on a low.

One thing I’ve seen that sounded very true:

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Black & Asian Mental Health

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I’ve decided I’ll write about mental health as it’s something I suffer with and so do so many other people, I feel mental health is brushed under the carpet just because it’s not physical, your health is your health and it’s so important. I was meant to start writing this blog just over a week ago but I’ve been in a dark place myself, and I kept on blowing it off and kept saying I’ll write it another day, well 2 weeks before release date here I am twiddling my thumbs on how I should come about this topic as it is very sensitive subject to talk on.

I’ve been in a dark place for weeks probably months even and I can’t even figure out the reason why, I’ve been to the doctors countless amount of times on my physical health and haven’t even got simple health, on my mental health I can’t bring myself to do it, the fact that I could get sectioned or giving medication to make me feel ‘better’ I really don’t have time for that, I have times where my mood flips uncontrollably and it’s so hard to control it, I have times where I can’t go to sleep past 6 am, I have days where I get sleep paralysis the first few times I was really freaking out, then it continued to happen regularly and I got used to it, there were times it would get so bad I would get dragged down my bed, no bullshit people would say go read the bible?? What’s that going to do? Sleep paralysis is not a fun situation to be in at all, the only thing in your body that will move is your eyes, it’s a real damn struggle to move everything else, I’ve been depressed but not overly depressed it didn’t last very long but now I’m anti I don’t really talk to people anymore, people pop up all the time and say ” you haven’t been active lately” or ” you’re not normally like this” this really does play on my mind I’ve deeped people I normally talk to I can’t find the energy to talk to them anymore or if they talk to me, I really can’t be fucked to reply anytime asks me “how are you” everyone will get the same reply “I’m calm” it rarely changes I really copy and paste the same answer to everyone, you’re probably thinking that’s cold, I agree it is, but when you have no energy to conversate that’s how it’ll be, a couple people called me reserved so I asked the person who knows me the best which is my mum, and she agreed but the thing is with me I let people know what I want them to know, if we’re having a conversation and the topic becomes a little too personal 9 times out of 10 I’ll cut the call and go sleep or go about my business,everything depends on my mood I don’t mean for my mood to flip I even get called crazy like what the fuck it’s not really my fault, I’ve tried to top myself by taking excessive amount of tablets it really didn’t work at all the pills must of liked my immune system because nothing happened. I’m one of them people that would rather help someone else through their problems I’ve heard people talk about how they’ll commit their own suicide on the phone to me, I’ve seen people try to top themselves ending up in accident and emergency all I think is I could’ve done more, but there’s only so much I can do, if you want to die then do it, there’s only so much help I can give. A few weeks ago I decided to give blood as I saw that only a small percentage of black people do, so I went along and like I said I ‘tried’ and failed I have the sickle cell anaemia trait and iron deficiency which makes me sleep for heavy periods at a time or my energy is low, sometimes I am in a good mood and my energy is out of this world but other times no I’m just Teeks, I sit in my room all day hardly leave I’ll decline times to go out and just sit there get restless, sleep, eat and then repeat all within my own space, my worst times were through my childhood just dealing with the divorce of my parents hurt and it’ll stick with me forever…but be moving on as time goes on so do I and what goes on will always have a reason.

Recently I’ve been on Twitter scrolling up and down the TL like a mad woman and started to come across tweets that are talking about mental health, I’ll scroll further and see the suicide help line number tweeted in both the United Kingdom and America, but the main communities I want to focus on are the black and Asian as I know these are the forgotten communities we have something wrong with us we get called crazy by the national health service or given medication that should somehow make us feel better or we just get abused by the police trust me it happens, or in some cases rituals are made. Mental health is an important issue in the black and Asian community and as a black young woman I’ve been more informed about this, over the recent weeks on Twitter I’ve seen more mental health tweets, my own followers tweeting about committing suicide, saying they have no one to talk to, no where to turn, mental health within these two communities are swept under the carpet as if they don’t exist, growing up I got told to be a ‘strong independent black woman’ but really I was crippling on the inside, social construct is so backwards we’re told to be this, do that or act like we are completely normal, what is normal? I fail to understand.

If you’ve read my blogs before you know that if I’m writing such strong topics I’ll have facts to support my evidence, with this one topic it took me time to find facts but once I got into it I came across a lot, I was actually flabbergasted at what I found.

I’ve found that in the black and Asian communities:
– More likely to be diagnosed with mental health problems
– More likely to experience a poor outcome and treatment
– More likely to disengage from mainstream services like social services leading to social exclusion and further deterioration in health
– Likely that mental health is overly diagnosed in people whose first language isn’t English

Have you ever thought about why mental health and mental illness impacts people in the black & Asian community more than any other?

Personally, I think it’s down to the factors that are plastered on us as a whole
– Poverty
– Racism
– Background
– Bad housing
– Unemployment
– Stress
– Abuse
– Neglect

All these factors play a huge role in the support which we should get equally but we don’t, we’re judged then ‘treated’ I hardly call it treatment I’ve seen a number of people descend on how they’re and it’s sad to see, what I seem to not understand is how can colour separate us, how can black people be diagnosed with severe mental disorders, we go to doctors for help, a psychiatrist for our problems to be listened to, God for guidance, our parents to see if they see it from our point of view, as a community you think we have a options but do we really?

An overwhelming amount of people with mental health are living in poor conditions, there are considerably high rates of physical and sexual victimisation, most people with mental disorders are restricted in their ability to access essential health, social care including emergency relief services. Poverty is the worlds most ruthless killer, poverty is a multidimensional phenomenon encompassing the inability to basic needs, lack of control over resources, lack of education and poor health. The measurement on which poverty is based on is income, if you earn less than a certain amount then you will be classified as poor. Poverty is associated with many long term problems, such as poor health and increased mortality, school failure, crime and substance misuse.

People with mental health are one and half times more likely to live in rented accommodation, social housing and in a poor area, they’re twice as unlikely with their housing and four times more likely to say that it makes their mental health worse. Children who have moved around quite a lot tend to have depression and anxiety compared to their peers. Many people have reported that housing costs have caused stress.

– 33% (15 million) say housing costs cause stress and depression
– 25% (12.2 million) are kept awake by stress of paying bills and mortgage
– 25% say housing bills cause arguments between partners and other family members
The number of homeless people diagnosed with mental health is spiralling out of control, it’s almost double the rate of the general population homeless link surveyed 2,500 homeless people and found out 45% of them had a mental health issue compared to the general population only 25% of them was found.

– 32% said they were experiencing suicidal thoughts
– 39%’said they have panic attacks
– 18% hear voices
– 67% feel depressed
– 41% misuse drugs or alcohol

Racism will forever be an ongoing issue I feel like the black community and the Asians are hit the most, not a day goes by where I see a non-black person say the word ‘nigga’ or a non Asian person say ‘paki’ ‘chinky’ etc.. But besides this discrimination against the black and Asian communities is reported across a wide range of everyday activities, a survey was carried out between February and March 2013 where 740 people from these minorities communities carried out a study. 6.9% (69) of people said they did not experience any discrimination which shows that 93.2% (671) of them felt some form of discrimination within finding a job, housing, education, getting into a relationship, why is it other people in other communities get every and anything handed to them on a plate, but because there’s a couple stereotype here and there about others we have to scream for our voices to be heard, rally together to hold protests that clearly get ignored, constantly being stopped on the road for a ‘routine check’ I’m not completely obnoxious but through my eyes this is things I hear or see every day. Imagine being black you receive the lowest treatment rates in England, half of what a white person would receive, being coloured ha such a hard life.

Recently I was scrolling on Twitter and a topic of conversation made the TL overly active everyone well I’m saying everyone I really only saw blacks/Asians started talking about the ‘beatings/licks they received as a child most people didn’t see it as an abuse but I don’t know what minds some of you lot have because by the way some of you lot described it I would’ve called child line, however everyone’s different for me growing up if I did naughty things around my dad he’d instantly say “yuh wan licks child sha” then I’d instantly pause whatever I was doing and go back to being good, with my mum the most I’ve done is kneel on my knees for quite some time, but the ones I saw on Twitter they were something else, I can tell how these implications can affect someone later on in life, beating your child is the first steps of abuse, now I know people will come back and say “My parents beat me because they wanted me to learn how to be respectful” blah blah blah you can be taught in various ways without beating someone with a belt, ginger in your anus, products being thrown at you etc…What I read I could tell these had an effect on the people’s lives and it’s daunting to see or read.  Domestic abuse can have a huge effect on your mental health, it is now well accepted  that abuse both in childhood and adulthood is often the main factor in the development of depression, anxiety and other mental health disorders and may lead to  sleep disturbances, self-harm, suicide and attempted suicide, eating disorders and substance misuse.

We have people drowning in their own thoughts within their households, can’t talk to mum, can’t talk to dad, so where do we go from here, my problem with some parents is they always think they’re right, some believe their child is completely fine, we can look perfect on the outside and be dying on the inside, some say go pray to God, praying does not help everyone, performing a ritual doesn’t cure everyone, doing witch craft doesn’t work for everyone, being a shoulder to cry on helps letting out emotion which is completely natural, supporting your child on what to do next is so important, I’ve seen teenagers, adults, children be here today and gone the next, and the parents always say ‘I blame myself’ stop blaming and start acting upon what is happening in front of your own eyes, under your own roof, I’m completely aware that some people can hide pain scarily well but asking a simple ‘Are you okay’ is fine but never settle for the answer of ‘I’m fine’ ask for them to expand until you’re both satisfied. A study of 2000 adults commissioned by the mental health foundation has found that the average adult will say “I’m fine” 14 times a week although only 19% will mean it so out of 100%, the other 81% won’t mean it, do you see where I’m coming from? That large percentage your family member, friend, could not be ‘fine’ what does fine even mean? What’s normal? 1/3 of the same study = 667 people said they often lie about how they’re feeling to other people, while 1/10 = 400 say they always lie about their emotional state. “I’m fine” is such an effortless answer, this answer is the answer to end all conversations, it has to be a conversation killer but if we don’t know what to reply how are we meant to say.

I personally believe that mental health should be completely equal to physical health, but for me saying that I would expect to see pigs fly first before they rule out this new plan. The media is such a dark place, they ignore us at any given moment or take the original story and twist it, these inequalities are virtually ignored by them, but to be honest, this is nothing new, it’s been the case for decades due to a lack of focus, but for why? Why does the colour of our skin rule out the level of exposure we receive, this is highly incompetent and extremely melancholic. The image it paints is one for misery, loneliness and desperate individuals needing help but each time we are let down for the colour of our skin, a colour that we can’t choose, even if I could change my colour I wouldn’t I’m proud of my race and what we’ve become and what we continue to achieve each day.

The NHS is an amazing amicable service to an extent, they’ll fix your broken arm but won’t fix a broken mind, they’ll give you gas and air but won’t give you air to breathe in real life, drowning in thoughts and no one around, is this what black and Asians should expect for the rest of our existence. People from African & Caribbean communities are more likely than others to be admitted to the hospital, worldwide it seems people who move from country to country have a higher risk of, mental health illness, this is predominantly true for black people who move to mainly white countries and an even higher risk for their children.

I’ve found quite a few statistic from the Asian and black communities on our mental health systems
– African/Caribbean are 3/5 times more likely to be diagnosed and admitted for schizophrenia
– Suicide is low among Asian men but high for Asian women
– African/Caribbean are more likely to enter the mental health services is the police or courts
– Indian men have a high rate of alcohol related problems
– African/Caribbean are more likely to be treated under a section of the mental health act
– Asian people have a quicker recovery rate from schizophrenia due to family support
– African/Caribbean more likely to receive medication rather than be offered a talking session known as psychotherapy.

We’re being failed as two separate communities due to ancestry, the colour of our skin, moving to predominantly ‘white’ countries the first I’ve heard Britain as a ‘white country’ I’m pretty sure we’ve been multi-cultured for 158 years since 1858 since Queen Victoria’s proclamation of India. We’ve been failed as people and institutional racism started this and no matter what people say racism will never end, there has been mounting evidence that institutional racism plays a major role, systematic analysis of what is wrong from sociological, historical and political perspectives really shows how embedded racism is in the practices and how it really does affect mental health services, while at the same time can show us way in which changes could be made. Black and Asian people are significantly over- diagnosed with stigmatising ‘conditions’ such as schizophrenia, depression and bipolar and are under referred for talking therapies but instead given large doses of drugs which cause long term physical problems which will continue to live with them for a long period of time and are over represented among sectioned patients, people served with a community treatments orders and those incarcerated in secure hospitals which are known as dangerous. There have been many attempts in recent years to make mental health become more culturally and sensitive ‘attempts’ these attempts I’ve never seen we all get treated like animals we get drugged up and sent into a room, we’re not listened to at all, whatever we say gets ignored, we’re seen as crazy. We want help, don’t label us. The attempts by our government to bring about racial equality have been very unsuccessful they haven’t even touched the edges in 30 years nothing has changed. One way to counteract them is for private and public services should minimise the use of sectioning get incarceration and the use of forced drug intake, instead of telling us these drugs will make us feel ‘better’ tell us the real effects, tell us that these drugs stop certain feelings from showing through, tell us how to deal with the side effects, tell us what we can do if we’re feeling suicidal etc, give us structural advice instead of giving us pills, focus needs to shift towards collaborating with service users, aiming to support where and when needed with recovery from personal setbacks and social problems.

There are so many mental health problems/illnesses and I think you should all be aware of all.
– bipolar disorder
– Schizophrenia
– Psychosis
– OCD
– Alcoholism
– Eating disorder
– Anxiety disorder
– Post traumatic stress disorder
– Personality disorder
– Fatigue
– Mood disorder
– Borderline personality
– Mixed anxiety
– Major depressive
– Seasonal affective
– Delusion
– Mental distress
– Sleep disorder
– Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder
– Schizoaffective disorder
– Autism
– Emotional & Behavioural disorder
– Autistic spectrum disorder
– Dissociative identity disorder
– Confusion
– Spectrum disorder
– Postpartum psychosis
– Sickle cell disease

I’ve done this long list for you to be more aware of what is a mental health illness, there are things on here I never even thought of like delusion because all I hear is ‘your so deluded’ who would’ve thought delusion would even be apart of it.

The one thing I’d say to be aware of is lucid dreaming it can cause sleep paralysis if it’s not done correctly and having a sleep disorder is not fun at all it’s completely wack. Lucid dreaming is safe but if you don’t know how to do it I suggest you stay well away from doing it, performing a lucid dream you can experience hallucinations, you can fall between consciousness and unconsciousness within a few seconds. Lucid dreams can turn into lucid nightmares extremely quickly and a lot of things don’t scare me but sleep paralysis scares the shit out of me and lucid dreams are weird but lucid nightmares are the worst thing I’ve experienced, but within lucid nightmares it’s something you can control to an extent you can really remind yourself that it’s a dream, you can encounter demons in lucid dreams and sleep paralysis but whether you know how to control it is another thing.

Last year I watched a documentary called ‘Being black, going crazy’ This film is presented by Keith Dube known as (Mrexposed) on Twitter, he’s a young writer and blogger who wrote the blog ‘Mr exposed’ Keith used to suffer from depression and as a result he wanted to spread awareness about mental health within the community. Keith spoke to patients as well as staff at Park Royal mental health centre, they spoke deeply on how they were treated before, how their parents treated them, even how the police treated them. In my opinion, when this aired on BBC 3 it was one of the best documentaries I’ve watched, there were topics within topics discussed and it was alarming how some of these people were treated, I suggest if you haven’t watched it then it will be a good idea that you do.

– Black men are 17 times more likely to be diagnosed with a serious mental health condition and 6 times more likely to be an inpatient in a mental health unit than a white man
– 56% of black in patients have been sectioned more than any other ethnic group
– 67% of black people with mental health issues have been stigmatised and treated unfairly by their own families
All I’ve been writing is black blackity black for god knows how long, and every time I write black in whichever sentence theirs always unfairness that comes along with it.

Moving on a few weeks back when I was on the idea of writing this blog I wanted to write about people that have suffered from mental health and died in the hands of police custody, that wasn’t hard to find at all, I came across someone named Sean Riggs, the name sounded very familiar and as I looked him up I remembered this is the man who suffered from paranoid schizophrenia, unfortunately he died following a cardiac arrest on 21st August 2008 while in the hands of police custody no surprise there. Sean Rigg was a 40-year-old black British musician and producer, the events leading to the death Mr Riggs lived in a hostel that dealt with uncooperative and aggressive behaviour, on the 21st August five 999 calls were made during a 3 hour period by the hotel staff, the police didn’t find Mr Riggs a priority which is extremely odd because being black we’re always a priority for the police no matter what situation, on the fifth call the police finally turned up and restrained him in a ghastly manner, he was handcuffed, face on the floor and officers knelt on him for 8 minutes while he was being transported to Brixton police station, during the journey his mental health deteriorated massively, he was extremely unwell and not fully conscious, when they arrived Rigg was left unattended and unmonitored for 25 minutes one of the officers said he was faking it, a further 10 minutes later his heart had stopped and all signs of life was not there one of the sergeants mislead the doctor by telling them he was faking unconsciousness, which is totally untrue he was dead at the age of 40 because police do not understand how to understand people with a mental issue. If we fast forward a few years the series Orange is the new black has an exact scene like this where Poussey dies as an officer holds her to the ground leans heavily on her back, and she begins to say “I can’t breathe” the exact same words Eric Garner says when cops choke hold him and slam him to the ground if you’ve seen the video you will hear him saying “I can’t breathe’ 1 fictional character dies and 2 non-fictional people die, and of course each one of these had a protest of unfair ruling, even though one was a scene it still shows it goes on and only to one race, I haven’t seen it anywhere else.

Really I think police officers think they’re superior actually correction they do think they’re superior, sad really a uniform gives these people such confidence, the job they’re meant to do they can’t do it without drawing out a baton or gun, what happened to talking and engaging, what happened to simple handcuff on and in the back of the police car, but instead now I’ve seen guns drawn out, people with a condition being tackled to the ground like it’s a game of rugby, their knees should be on the ground not on the offenders stomach/back, I’ve seen so many people die in the hands of police custody not necessarily with a mental health issue but people like Edson Da Costa, Rashan Charles did not in anyway or form deserve that treatment I’m highly disgusted reading the newspapers everyday scrolling through Twitter to find out another black teenager here in the UK or anywhere else has died in the hands of police custody, I actually want to know what the fuck do these police officers do in training, because somewhere along the lines they always end up killing someone. There should be a complete end to physical restraint and training should consist of dealing with people and their mental health problems, beating them up will only lead them to further deteriorating we want people’s health to improve not to further worsen we’re not crazy, we are human and deserve humane treatment. Black, white, brown, purple and blue all just colours. If we turn people inside out we all have the same features a heart, eyes, arms, legs etc we’re no different stop treating us as separate, stop causing a divide and help us.

Helpline UK: 116 123

Helpline USA: 1-800-273-8255

 

Hypothesis:

First, off my apologies for taking so long to write this, this is the first ever topic I’ve been stuck on, but thank you to everyone that helped give me further ideas on what to write on.

Mental health is so hard to write on and if you find anything offensive or incorrect then let me know but I’ve looked for information everywhere, I’ve read books, watched documentaries just to get a further insight into the world of black and Asian mental health, within the Asian mental health I couldn’t even find a lot, but there was so much on the black communities and I’m glad I’ve written this because I’ve found out things I never knew, I would like to say anyone suffering from mental health please speak on it for yourself and for others, raise the awareness we deserve, fight for what you believe in, if you know that someone is suffering help them by listening never ever settle for the answer of “I’m fine” because 9/10 they’re not, dig deeper into the situation don’t grill them on it but ask more open than closed questions, look for signs I’ve seen people in front of me suffer and I never knew till I started asking and they started doing funny things, and you can kinda tell, I’ve had people call me saying they’re going to kill themselves, counting down the days, hours till they top themselves, sometimes I feel like I’m the shoulder to cry on in certain groups of friends but thinking about it I don’t mind, even though I issue out the same advice I’m not that person and only that person can change themselves. If you think there’s something wrong within yourself then go and get help and always get a second opinion, I’d even suggest going private, if your parents are in your life start talking to them, because they certainly are not here forever, parents start talking to your kids in some cases your children are under the same roof as you crumbling with no one to talk to, friends, family there is always someone to talk to including me, my social accounts are all out there, if you feel alone want someone to talk to then honestly I’m here!

Please, can we all remember that yesterday marked the two month anniversary of the Grenfell Tower Inferno, 2 months later still fuck all done, 2 months on and a lot of them have come out with mental health issues, 2 months later and hardly any questions have been answered.

Also, would like to say a huge thank you to everyone that continues to read my blogs, I’m so thankful for how far I’ve come, you lot might count it as showing off, well couldn’t care less. I’ve met my target which was 2k and now on 2.2k if you have me on Twitter remember what I said when I get to 10k I’ll throw a party which I will.

“Each day means a new 24 hours, each day means everything’s possible again.

Not entirely sure if this blog makes sense, but hey I tried, I’ll be writing two more blogs before the year ends, so if you have a topic let me know.

Teeks X