2019 WRAP UP, 2020 STARTUP!

147 days later and I’m back to blogging, wheww chile what a long time, I would apologise for being inactive but I’m not going to because having writer’s block is REAL, I have blogs in my drafts that have been started but not finished hopefully I can get those out to you lot sometime next year, not hopefully I WILL get those completed and put them out next year.

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Bet you’ve been wondering where I’ve been…If you answered no, free you because I know you’re going to continue reading and want to know what’s been happening in my life and if you said yes you’re either nosey or you genuinely want to know where the fuck I’ve been, I’ve wondered too, but somedays I look back at the whole year and it’s certainly been busy, I’m generally a very busy girl, this year has also been hard for me work-wise I had a manager that didn’t believe in my career prospects it made me alter how I saw myself for months, it made me question myself every day, whether I was fit for the position, whether I could actually be a leader, so many things were shuffling around in my mind, however, if you’re sane enough in life you’d know not to mess around with my career because I’ll only come back stronger, I remember I had a meeting with my manager and she thought I was dumb I remembered something she didn’t my ammunition must’ve taken her aback because she was certainly lost for words, anyways long story short she either resigned or got fired I believe she got fired because I definetely reported her ass to management and when I was telling management what was going on LOOOOL she didn’t stand a chance.

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We got a new manager and I thank God for her also my deputy manager and all my colleagues so now I’m training for senior care worker which I’ve always wanted, I’m also doing a Level 3 certificate in web design and development, I’m excited for what 2020 can bring hopefully more career opportunities, twenty-one years on this earth and I’ve learnt so much and I  never want to stop.

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Anyways yardiyardiyaaaa enough about the boring part of my life, I’ve recently just come back from Amsterdam, 10/10 experience apart from DBE cancelling rest up LB though.

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If this part of the blog doesn’t make you want to go Amsterdam, then please go get high and come back to this section, because it’s not me that’s holding you back.

Amsterdam 2019 let’s get into it:

I booked Amsterdam 31st May 2019 with my friend ‘Adz’ well she booked it I just sent my money each month, we booked on ‘Love holidays’ however our holiday was discounted as they always have sales on, the cost should’ve been £903 altogether but we paid £292 each which included flight (Easyjet) + hotel (Ozo Hotel 4*) we paid extra for a private shuttle which was £33 each and two suitcases which were £33 each and this was all for 5 days so final price was £584, we booked all our activities via ‘Get your guide’ app if you haven’t heard of it get to know, we booked about seven activities via the app which was £117 each, if you book without the app I promise you look in your pocket and you’ll discover a burn mark. 

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Spending money, I changed up £358 which gave me €400 I nearly vomited in Tesco’s, this was money for food, weed and transport, my friend took away €150 but also had her debit card with her, we paid for 3 extra activities out there but it wasn’t crazy expensive.

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Small disclaimer

I met Adz (Adonae) the day before we flew out, as she stayed round mine it makes more sense I lived closer to Luton, We became friends through Twitter and have been good friends for roughly 2+ years, crazyyyy right!

The first time meeting wasn’t anything crazy you can learn about someone through text, and also learn a lot more when you meet them too, literally the best person to go with, she’s a lot like me which scared me a lil bit, we liked the same things from food to activities, we gave people the same looks in public when we saw something funny or weird and looked back at each other for reference, I can’t fault her she literally booked the holiday and activities and I praise her because I would’ve preferred for her to do it and me to just fling the money over, I can hear the whinging bastards already “WhEre’S YoUr ReAl fRiEnDs” “wErEn’T YoU ScArEd Of bEiNg RoBbEd”  My gut instinct has been swindled a few times but I’m not stupid I’m picky on who I meet in a real-life if I said I’ll meet you, in reality, hold on to your hats 2020 is coming, however, twitter teaches me every day about madness occurring, I wouldn’t hand over 100s of £££s without being certain, and look I’m in my house now back from dam, no damage is done just memories made.

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Lastly each day I figured out mine and Adz’s morning routine, I found it hilarious, so we’d wake up at some awkward hour like 6am go on our phones for a few minutes then go back to sleep, then we’d wake up again at 11am and go to each other “We’ll get up in half an hour” both agree to continue to watch TV or be on our phones, ask me did that half an hour ever come? During that time we’ll also be snacking, then around midday, we’d get ready for our day, every morning same routine, it’d be funny cause it was the same and we’d just laugh about it.

23rd November:

Adonae arrived around 15:20pm, she met my family who was already at home, but I already had something planned so my brother dropped us both to my work, it was the weekend I planned for my dad to come into my work to do a reggae/soca evening for my residents, they loved it including my colleagues and me, long story short we got home around 7, both ate, watched a few episodes of something on Amazon prime then proceeded to pack at 10pm, Long story short we were overweight but hear this only by 3.1kg we still had pay £12 each extra loooool, Easyjet can honestly fuck off, nothing easy about ‘easy’ jet, why is there an Easyjet plus who’s paying £150+ for extra’s are you tapped in the head? DO YOU KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF WITH SMALL AIRLINES? NO? Well, you’re going to find out, wait for it…Priority boarding, why do Easyjet have priority boarding it makes zero sense, not even just EasyJet small airlines WHY? We’re all going to the same destination are we not? Or is the plane going to stop off in the middle of England and Amsterdam and tell people ‘Please mind the drop between the plane and the clouds’ and it’s always the posh cunts in suits as well, tossers. 

Moving on, we finished packing and once we closed our suitcase there was no way on God’s green earth that it was being opened till we got to the hotel, it was full to the brim, even our hand luggage was full, we went to bed at 2am and was up for 4am, my friend picked us up and off to the airport we went, someone tell me where is Luton Airport, why is the airport still in construction mode? Luton Airport is so ghetto, I’m surprised they even had booking scanners in there, and London claims Luton since it’s London Luton airport if Luton was a place in London it’d be Harlesden, free dem.

24th November:

We boarded our plane on time, left on time but our plane only had to slow down because too many planes were landing at Schipol airport, I’m pretty sure it was an hour thirty-minute flight or something, can I just say England are so behind in technology compared to everywhere else in the world, like so behind it’s a joke! I won’t reveal too much go discover for yourselves.

We got to our hotel around 11ish and got told we couldn’t check in till 2, but we got around it and checked in at 1, our hotel and room were so nice like it actually resembled the photos on the website, it was a 10-minute walk to the metro where are hotel was it resembled part Canary Wharf, part Milton Keynes it was weird but made sense.

We chilled, napped got ready for our first activity the ‘A’ dam lookout’ we went purely for the ‘over the edge swing’ I was excited before I nearly sat down on the swing, quickly glanced up and over the edge and pussied out real quick, as in I grabbed my bag and was on my way, my friend, of course, did it, I wished her luck and everything, it didn’t exactly help my nerves that there was a measly bar to keep me secured over my legs, ARE YOU DUMB? A bar uno am I a dick’ ed? If my chest thrust forward while up there 2 million per cent + my savings I would’ve fallen out, I don’t even have life insurance I couldn’t even afford my funeral if I died, I’m black I didn’t see any other black people up there so I took myself out the equation, y u bEiNg rACiST tEeKs, it’s actually called stereotyping, idiots.

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Soooo I left my friend to go on her own, I was giving support with my feet firmly on the ground, we took pictures after then went to the bar we both don’t drink so we just got normal fruit juice and enjoyed the incredible view. 

Let me tell you guys something about this trip, the A’dam lookout is across the river and I was thinking how am I going to get there cause my name ain’t dynamo I can’t step on water and expect to stay on TOP of water, anyways so we asked around and my girl in the tourist shop said FREE boat to the other side, the way she said FREE so calmly in this England is anything free? Not even the oxygen I breathe is free I’m sure it’s taxed. 

Long story short, we went to a coffee shop but we didn’t stay I just picked up all my essentials, which included two tubs of cookies, two pre-rolled zoots and just some baggies of weed, I smoked a spliff before bed then went back up made a cup of tea and dunked my cookies in which I’m 100% sure the weed disappeared as soon as I dunked as I didn’t feel an ounce bit different, I was even nodding going “Mhmmm yeah this is nice” all this mhmm yeah for me to feel fuck all did I spend €15 on two tubs for a fucking laugh? It was the tea I just know it but honestly, in this life, you’ll never see me digest a biscuit without a hot drink to go with it.

Don’t offer me a biscuit with no hot beverage, you can even offer hot water.

25th November:

So Monday we went to the zoo, the zoo was 10/10, it was actually amazing, I’m going to drop all the videos/pictures down below, wOrDpReSs rUinED ThE QuAliTy.

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These lions were very close to us I’m sure they were tranquilised cause if they wanted to attack us they could’ve, no fence to protect us, just me and oxygen.

I can’t lie I hate entertainment shows that involve animals, but this fat ting didn’t want to jump just wanted food all the time, found it hilarious I know this sea lion must’ve learnt flex & finesse from early!

 

Monday Evening we did a canal cruise, as in it was so beautiful, the history behind Amsterdam is amazeballs, I just thought ‘weed’ capital this is my kinda city, yeah but no, I love history even though I hated history in school but that is beside the point in school I had a curriculum to follow which I found utterly boring, but I’m grown now I can learn what I want, Amsterdam the city of diamonds, anyways yeah I nearly fell asleep on that cruise, when night time reappears unlike Madeli….anyways when night time appears I’m either buzzing wide awake or I just want to sleep, I wanted to SLEEP so bad.

26th November:

TUESDAY NOW, WE ON TUESDAY, BEST DAY OF MY TRIP, you idiots thought I was going to say of my life yeah? Well no, but the activities for this day listen 10/10!

 ‘Glow in the dark mini golf”

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I lost

The walk getting there was a trek, it was about a 15-minute walk in the cold and it was spitting, we got to one traffic light to cross and my friend saw a flash from across the road, a bunch of tourists put deh bludclart flash on and was taking photos of us saying “yoU’rE So PrEtTy” I was thinking I’m not an artefact man, now random people are going to have me on their camera roll, bare weird.

Anyways the mini-golf was so sick, I think there were 12 holes, one of them was bare unnecessary which was the last hole and the ball just wouldn’t go in, I’ve never had that problem before man:(

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Second Activity was the Anne Frank (Jewish museum) as I said I love history, I didn’t love the holocaust of course not but the story behind how everything erupted and became what it was is just incredible.

After those two activities, we went back to our hotel, we chilled, snacked and napped all to prepare for our big night out, we went to the red light district always wanted to go here and we were finally doing it, my fit was drip, oooo fake drip spotter couldn’t catch me cause I wasn’t wearing any designer, catch my fit down below:

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Ha, you thought I was going to put the image up, did you attend clownery college?

 

 

You:

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We left our hotel around 8 and took a stroll through Canary Wharf and onto the metro, central to the red-light district is not far at all, we had a look in some sex shops and the sex toys bumberclaartttt, oh don’t worry I took photo’s you ain’t meant to take photo’s but fuck the rules, we then had a walk up and down back streets and went to the 5D sex cinema, I’ll upload a short video but we were basically sat in a stimulator basically a rollercoaster chair, and it would move erratically with whatever goes on, on the screen, the man ejaculated and foam came out, I was in stitches, we then went to a peep show it was confusing at first but we paid €4 for 4 minutes of watching time, the first stripper we saw she was so boring, zero energy then a door opened and a new lady walked out she had ENERGY for days, these strippers/prostitutes in the red light district are peng are you dumb?? Lastly, we went to a sex show liveO sex on stage my kinda scene, strippers doing their thing my kinda scene, men in the audience getting picked out to go on stage and join in the act, one man got picked out three times looool on his third time he looked pissed, hilarious. 

We were laughing for a time cause foam squirted out🤣

Oh, and before I forget we went to the museum of prostitution (Red light secrets) nah I loved it the history behind the red light district is dope, as you can read, I’m trying not to give too much away because I want you to go and experience for yourselves.

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I posted a confession  at the museum and they get stuck on a confessions wall

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However wearing what I was wearing I didn’t feel entirely safe because some of the men were disgusting, would catcall you like a dog and when you don’t reply continue to call you all the names under the sun, I ignored and continued because I didn’t want unnecessary hassle plus if I fought someone I didn’t want to fall in the canal that shit was cold and dirty not me boy!

However, that was a night to remember, my eyes were my camera and I can’t fully explain my vision so go visit, loool you’d think the Netherlands government are paying me to promote Amsterdam like this😂.

27th November:

Wednesday was pretty chilling we chilled into the late evening and started getting ready around 16:30pm for the…ICE BAR, ice bar was cool but never again, as in never again someone would have to pay me to go back in there, so I’m pretty sure we paid for premium tickets cause we ain’t no simple bitches which included 1 golden token for the bar in the ice bar, and 2 silver tokens for the bar outside the ice bar, read and read well the first part of the ice bar tour I don’t know what was going on, this man did some speech but was bare shouting, there were different groups that went in at different times and I think you could stay in there for 45 minutes, you got handed a measly jacket as thin as one-ply toilet paper and gloves, as soon as I got in there I saw the temperature, some next polar bear climate of -9.7º, my tokens were in my pocket but there was no way in hell I was taking off a glove and getting a token waiting at the bar, drinking a drink within five seconds, do I look mad to you? The man said if you leave your drink for five seconds it’ll turn to ice? Is my name crackhead sally? I couldn’t even hold my phone to unlock it ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LOOK AT IT, I didn’t even have the energy to lift it towards my face, we basically went in said ‘ah yeah this is nice’ asked the photographer to take photos then we left, we went to the bar instead I ordered an ‘Amsterdamnned’ and my friend got ‘Sex on the beach’ we swapped, in the end, both tasted good, we chilled for a bit then decided to go ice-skating, we decided but ice skating cashier broke our hearts, it closed at 9pm we got there at 8:30pm €30 to skate for thirty minutes? You’re shitting on me.

We Left.

Not disappointed though…

We saw a dominoes beforehand and got it on the way home, so slow story quick we spent €60, and that’s £50, FAM THAT CAN FEED A FAMILY OF 5 HERE!

28th November:

Thursday was meant to be my most memorable day of the entire year but was it though? Thursday flopped me harder than my GCSEs don’t piss me off, the first motive was Van Gogh museum we got there at 5pm because on the ‘Get the guide’ app it said it closes at 7pm, the security guard said it closes at 5 and the dutch accent is strong nuh rass, even if he was trying to talk to me nice it came across rude, but we even said the app said 7pm man was trying to argue I went deaf cause it wasn’t me he was going to go back and forth with, so we left we went back to central and straight into a coffee shop whilst I was in the coffee shop I found out D BLOCK EUROPE CANCELLED, as in if someone didn’t tell me I would’ve still went, I’m so glad I got let down in a coffee shop with a spliff in my hand, so the coffee shop story with adz this girl makes me die, so I bought 1G of white widow, blue cheese and OG kush, two pre-rolled cones of sativa mixed with baccy and bought Adz a vanilla cake edible, we sat down and I sparked mine, adz has never smoked before she asked me how to smoke??? Bitch, I don’t know, honestly, I smoke every day so explaining how to someone who has never was difficult, I managed too though but it was evident it wasn’t for her, she had her edible though she was happy, adz was eating I was smoking I remember there was one point where I was vibing to the music I turned my head back around and swear to God the edible was nearly gone, I said “Eyyy you probably want to slow down a bit” as a non-smoker non-edible eater would say “Ahhhh but it’s so nice though” She never knew the decision she made was going to fuck up her whole night, so she finished it and was like “So when is it kicking in” I was like “Ha give it an hour” by that time I finished my zoot I was good, I had a guy tapping me every two seconds for my lighter, bruv who comes coffee shop without a lighter? Tapping me every 2 seconds like I’m an off licence, anyways we left it kicked in as soon as we left for her, I was dragging this girl through Amsterdam central to get our metro it was hilarious my girl just looked dazed, so we get back to the hotel and by this time she was telling me her body has gone numb, she was sat on the bed with her pizza just eating, I was packing, she went to sleep in and out I stayed awake most of the time mostly because I didn’t know how her body was going to react some people have mad reactions, some people are calm but I ain’t trying to explain to someone’s mum wagwarn for their daughter so I was in and out of sleep mostly slapping the shit out of candy crush, I finally snoozed into a light sleep at around 3am.

29th November:

Friday today was home time, Adz woke up around 8am still waved, she kept asking me “when is it wearing off” that was a question I couldn’t answer if you ate the whole thing if it was half I would’ve given you a legitimate answer, but my girl learnt her lesson, so in the morning I left her to pack I packed the night before obviously as I can function it’s literally my everyday setting, I went downstairs to smoke, this is a story I’ll never forget…So I was wearing leggings, a long top and a big fuck off fluffy jacket it was cold outside, so I began smoking as I do, get halfway through and started feeling incredibly hot as in hot like the plane’s doors open and could feel Caribbean heat, I was thinking I can’t finish this spliff but me being me I finish it, by that time I was feeling dizzy, so I managed to get back in the hotel and into the lift, I looked at myself in the lift mirror I was garnnnn, I got back to my hotel room with the grace of God, as soon as I got in I started removing my clothes, I think I know how hot hell is now! I downed a whole can of Fanta, bitch I had a hot flush for a whole goddamn twenty minutes, I was thinking ‘rah is this how my 21 years on this earth is ending? You’ll do a real g like that, ight sn’ Thinking back it was funny but in the moment nah no thanks not again, but the maddest thing was I had that same spliff on the Monday same strain, it was just weird, I felt like Brian Finch (Limitless) when he was getting those side effects from the drug NZT but it ended up being a hoax.

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So the Friday we went to the Van Gogh museum it was so so good, apparently going high is a vibe I wouldn’t know mine wore off, I wasn’t expecting it to be so modern but hey ho move with the times I guess…the building is huge the backdrop is amazing for photos, yeah the art was nice too.

We spent around an hour there then went back to our hotel in time for our transfer back to the airport, our flight was delayed of course Easyjet would be however we arrived back in England around 7pm, I got my weed through without a hitch cause like I said Luton Airport is the absolute ghetto.

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11 activities in 5 days, wheww chile my kinda scenes.

So this year I went on two holidays one to Zante (read the blog on that, if you haven’t) and obviously Amsterdam, however, Amsterdam was 10/10, maybe minus a few points, because I nearly got run over 50 times a day, my company was literally my opposite, we did activities we both wanted to do, like the only thing I could fault was the weather every day spitting, not even real rain one placebo & DBE cancelling but whatever man. 

Hope you lot have enjoyed reading about Amsterdam as much as I’ve enjoyed typing about it, and hopefully, some of you go and enjoy as much as I did, but my next trip there I’ll be in strictly coffee shops.

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This year I finally started a podcast called ‘Live & Relevant’ with @brands0311 & @_Jmensah it’s taken at least 10 months to come off the ground due to a few problems we had at the very beginning, but we’ve done it, the first episode is coming out very soon and will be available on Soundcloud & iTunes then, later on, we’ll roll out towards Spotify. We all met on the very first day of filming together but we all spoke on a regular so it was hardly awkward and besides I’m not an awkward person at all, during the whole session I was mildly waved as in I smoked 4 and I was still fine? As in?? 

However, as a team, we’d all appreciate if you could follow our podcast page on Twitter and us individually, any topics that you would like us to speak on please shoot your shot in our DMS we’re all open books and would like our voices heard, whether you agree or disagree with our opinions that is your own. 

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Lastly, the biggest shoutout to @NK1STUDIO one of the main struggles we had was looking for a studio to record in, the prices I was seeing boy oh boy mi nuh tink suh, but I was scrolling through Twitter one day 3 months ago and they came up, affordable, reachable for all of us, boom shack a lacka slapped it in the group chat, everyone agreed on a date, payment succeeded, it was like planning a Thorpe park link-up but with us, everything went to plan.

Oh, also a 5-minute walk from Star Lane (DLR) & they literally have a pizza restaurant next door, like recording sessions + pizza+ 5-minute walk to the station= Heaven

AND the two people running it all are amazing, wish them all the success for 2020!

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Moving on…

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Since I started blogging I’ve been kind of nervous grabbing opportunities regarding blogging, most obvious reason my turn around time is slow not because of laziness but the thought process of how I’m going to piece everything together is very draining but it’s lowkey fun as well, but as 2020 is coming to a start in 5 days, I’ve grabbed two opportunities I’ll be writing a review for @Ts.cupcakes (T’s Cupcakes) it’ll be coming in January so keep an eye out.

I’ve also joined @RealTalkBlog18 as a guest writer so next year I’m looking to put out a lot more content on this platform as well as my own, I wanna do reviews also, I know my strengths and this year was not it, I know I can reach a bigger audience which I’m going to do, reach out to me if you want a blog written about any sort of business minus gossip I am not the sun newspaper nor am I UK TL TEA

I’m finally bringing this blog to an end, this year has been something a lot of learning curves that I need to incorporate into next year, I need to drop bad habits, maybe those will get dropped in 2021 who knows, I now know my strengths and I know I can go far if I continue to push myself, fuck other people no cap but no one can push where you want to go as hard as yourself, born alone and die alone if your friends jumped off a cliff would you? Might seem common to say no but there’s a lot of sheep around, some people can’t think for themselves let alone do anything without a backup dancer to help their already failed process, I started all my journeys on my own, no second opinions, I’ve had a lot of people in my past that think they know what’s best for me, but in true reality, I just turn off, I don’t want to hear what you have to say, anything I’ve got I’ve worked for it no shortcuts just a straight grind, 2020 is really another year, yeah a new decade faxx no printer bitch, but next year a bitch is going to be trying and succeeding, work in silence let success be your NOISE, I’m coming for everything, Health & Social Care NVQ level 2? I’m getting that next year, NVQ Level 3? Yes! Level 3 web & development? Hell yeah, 30k+ views on the podcast? Easy 30k+ views on my blog by 31st December 2020? Hard but not impossible, I have so many goals which for my own sanity I will not post all over socials, but when I hit them you will all know!

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I’ve had a lot of favourite times this year but my ultimate times have been under the needle, not the surgery one please the tattoo one, I love my tattoo’s and the ones I’ve got this year, being in the tattoo studio I’ve been able to catch up on sleep, slap-up people on candy crush and enjoy the 0 tolerance of pain

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I’m so thankful for people who have walked into my life this year and made it even more fun than I was already having, having friends from all over is lit because I can move up and down this country without a care in the world, so grateful for the people that have left my life and that’s people that called themselves friends but true colours really showed when I was least expecting it but it’s cool, true colours were shown when people thought I was schleep I was alive and kicking during all of it, but like if you want to leave just pick up and go, don’t do this bitching shit because I promise you I don’t give a fuck, I’ll smoke a zoot and get over it in seconds, might find this moist me typing this, but some people think they’re so significant in your life when that ain’t even the truth

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Thank you to everyone who still continues to read my blogs and gives feedback as and where possible, I’ve ghosted long enough and I can only come back harder no one can blog like Teek’s, and small shout out to my mum even though she’ll never read this which is good cause that Amsterdam trip red light district needs to stay under wraps, but sometimes my mum helps me with blog topics where I struggle she always says to give her credit so there is her crumb of credit. 

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If you have any topics that you’d want me to talk on and give my own take then hit me the fuck up, my DMS are open!

Chase Lizzy until she chases you.

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2020 is everyone’s year, you want something you get it, believe in yourself, promote yourself and most importantly network & I promise you, you’ll see the results! 

Last thing, a big FUCK YOU if you voted conservatives, and a big THANK YOU to those that voted labour, you’ll be granted a place in heaven and that’s on a G ting!

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See y’all soon!

Teeks X

THE CREATOR BEHIND THE CONTENT

No one knows me like myself, and I think it’s the right time to give my readers an insight into my life!

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Some of you have been here since my very first blog post Men are trash?‘    and some of you are just starting this journey with me and Y’all I have TOPICS for 2019 so just make sure you stick around.

Before I get into anything can I repeat for the 1000th time I wasn’t born in London, I was born in Aylesbury, My mother and two brothers are all from west London ACTUALLY the whole of my mums side of the family is from West London, little ole me I’m Aylesbury born I’ve just grown up in between country life and city life and my mothers side is Grenadian.

My father now, bmt I’ve heard so many stories I don’t know what to believe anymore, Born in Guyana, moved to Nottingham to live with his father and then moved to London where he has resided for pretty much all of my life, Northwest repping, but my father is a very talented man in the music industry which has had opportunities to play shows around the Caribbean with his band, and has spent months out of the U.K while working and living his best life, my fathers side is Guyanese, Bajan and Jamaican.

When people ask me where I’m from I just say London because it’s easier than saying Aylesbury when I used to say Aylesbury I had to keep explaining where it was ” 45 minutes out of London, one hour tops if you drive slow, near Bicester Village, Milton Keynes” And after saying all of that I’d just be like “Aylesbury prison” Everyone knows that prison, such a shit reputation who wouldn’t honestly?

Being in between two places all the time I became very familiar with West London and Northwest London very quickly, my mother started letting me go London by myself from the age of 13/14, before anyone thinks (iRrESponSIble MoTHer) first of all NO, no she wasn’t, I have family in London so it was me more time to visit family, I always had my phone on me at all times, nothing ever went wrong, someone would always be at the other end to collect me, I’ve been using TFL I knew my way around, I wasn’t shy if I got lost I’d ask, and then when I got to around 15 I did whatever the fuck I wanted really, visited friends, family, found myself chilling around east London more and more, I used to be everywhere.

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For my own sanity, I will not be revealing everything.

Let’s get into it…

GROWING UP:

For those of you that are my true supporters, I wrote a blog just over a year ago about ‘broken families  and it pretty much describes my life as a young human going through heartbreak at such a young age, everything in that blog is true, my heart still hurts till this day but I’m GROWN now. 

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I had a ‘Stepdad’ introduced into my life so early, did I like it? No, absolutely not, no matter what my dad has done, he’s still my dad and no one else can replace that or even create a similar bond but that’s me, everyone is different I know some kids that call their stepdads ‘dad’ makes me feel a bit queezy but really what is my own, whenever someone asks ‘Do you have a stepdad?’ I kindly reply no and will replace it as ‘That’s my mum’s husband but not my dad’ I don’t know it makes me feel really ill, but some people don’t know any better for my new friends they’d ask and I nip it in the bud real quick, but for my friends that I’ve had for years they know what it is, they can tell the placebo from the real g, I even look like my dad as much as I hate to admit it I do.

I really grew to dislike to hate my dad real quick and if you read the broken families blog, you will be able to tell why very quickly, lies, fake promises I’ve had it all I’m now 20 now (21 soon come♥) We both don’t have a solid relationship as dad and daughter. I learnt roughly around the age of 10 that it wouldn’t happen, I’ve had siblings find me through facebook and tell me we’re related instead of my own father telling me, I found out around seven years old, I had an older sister and younger brother, I’m still shaking till this day.

On my mothers side of the family, I have 2 older brothers, these are the only siblings I’ve claimed from birth till now, ones 28 and the oldest 30, I can’t lie my brothers made my childhood despite the pain with everything else a blast, we had so much fun, being the youngest sibling and a girl it had its perks♦ We literally did everything together, when my oldest brother passed his driving test, we did trips upon trips, my other brother used to take me to house parties when I was like 8, take me to his basketball games, but please we can argue and sometimes me I LOVE a good argument, me and my middle brother used to argue all the time, maybe because we were both left-handed and used to sit right next to each other for dinner or maybe both petty, my oldest would never get involved, just turn off really but when my brothers used to argue, me and my mouth we’d be their front and centre ‘SHUTUP BOTH OF YOU’ I just hated unwaranteed noise and their arguements would be pointless. However my mum, my brothers and the rest of that side of the family no matter how much we argue they’re my anchors for real, me personally I would’ve had millions of breakdowns without them but like real g’s they’ve kept me afloat.

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On my father’s side I have….wait for it…. 5 siblings, FIVE SIBLINGS, I knew about 3 of them, the other two the great creator of Facebook made a social site so it could glue people together, till this day the message I received on that site will shake my bones till death…I knew about 3 siblings but the only reason I claimed my brothers on my mum’s side so much is that they lived with me, I saw them day in day out, they were THERE, the others were there but not there, do you get it? Hopefully, Y’all do. There’s so much to this story but it wouldn’t sit easy for me being all over the internet when this isn’t anyone’s fault apart from my fathers, and my other 5 siblings I have love for them I really do, but it’s the way things came about which just startled me a lot, hopefully, one day we can have a bond. 

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Apart from all that, my growing up was good, Y’all I was a girl youngest in charge I pretty much got everything I wanted, I had the bodyguards that protected me and till this day still do, look out for me, I had my mum who’s clothes was my tissues when I wanted to cry, this isn’t a fact but might as well be I think I cried so much when I was younger I have no tears left to cry in my older age, and it’s sad because sometimes I want to bawl out in tears but all I get is one tear drop…pftt…pathetic. 

EDUCATION:

Let me tell you, I was a good as gold in school, it was when I reached secondary school and college everything and I mean EVERYTHING went downhill, like in junior school I was a boffin like I remember one day I was riding to school and I got out of my street and my tire went FLAT, fam the way I was crying in the middle of the road because I was going to be late for school loooooool, I chucked the bike back in the shed like it wasn’t brand new, how can transport that I relied on to make me late, but secondary school was my prime time, so in my secondary school in each year there were 8 form classes one was called disc and the other shit side was called over, put the words together you’ll get discover, whewww clever. 

I was in S the best form ever so obviously in year 7 it’d be 7s, year 11 it’d be 11s and just to put it out there to any of my past school aquaintances disc was the best side of the year, you ‘over’ lot kiss my teeth, you lot didn’t know about trouble if it was spelt out. Personally, I loved school, I made some good 5-year friendships, and I said what I said some of you were just five-year friendships. My first day of year 7 was just uneasy I was in ‘over’ for two seconds before I transferred to disc I figured I didn’t want to learn French, didn’t want to learn Spanish either but it is what it is, I settled with Spanish, learnt about 6 words in two years was quite proud because I’m pretty sure I saw my Spanish supply teacher more in two years than my actual teacher, the poverty. 

Anyways my first school day was uneasy, those school kids that used to scowl at me like we went to school at the zoo, long story short I got bullied for like four weeks till my brothers found out, these man said they were going to the school, I was really calculating in my mind thinking you can’t actually do that, but the big mouth I had it stayed close my mind was shouting at me like ‘LET THEM DO THE TING’ Honestly I don’t even know how it stopped, but me and those man came friends and that’s when our form turned upside down, because we were all trouble, first day of year 7 I got slapped with anger management classes, did I go though? No, no I did not, it was in my time and not theirs and that can’t run.

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Another thing that just made school uneasy was my form tutor, I had a dislike for teachers but my dislike for him, he was top of my list, you know those teachers that come to you about punctuality, this man could never in his wildest dreams come to me about lateness or anything, school is 5 days a week, how can you be late 5/5 days a week, not once but FIVE, EVERY FUCKINNNN DAY, it was very jarring on those winter mornings when all I wanted to do was put my bag down and go to assembly, do you know how awkward it’d look when other forms will come out of their classrooms going to assembly but my form were the ones still outside, and being in year 9 upwards being late for assembly would actually be a pisstake, would you get a seat in assembly or would you be stood up for twenty minutes while teachers just talk the most crap??? Some days our form tutor wouldn’t even come in, but we got ownage of the keys to our classroom, so pretty much every day we’d invite other forms in, my classroom looked like one tip after, I remember one guy jumped on the table and it snapped in half, we threw stuff up at the ceiling and the ceiling tiles would move, it’d just be bare gappy, like I mean sometimes he was their mostly he wasn’t, we’d just be dashed supply teachers, and then most of the girls in my form would be foaming at the mouths because apparently, our form teacher was ‘good looking’ I was the one who went Specsavers all the time and spent my pension in there yet I couldn’t establish what they were gawping at…

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There were so many fights at school it felt like I went to Waterloo road 

“Meet me at the bus lanes, 3pm don’t be late”

This was one iconic sentence that went around, having your school outside bus lanes was superb, the worst place to have a fight but the best thing to say.

I think in my school everyone got away with so much by the regular shmegular teachers, but the heads of years, head teachers, heads of departments were not there to play, even the supply teachers thought they had a role, nah mate..stay in your lane

  • Teachers selling cigarettes to students
  • Teachers affairs revealed
  • Teachers having relationships with students
  • A teacher had an online sex journal, got discovered by a student
  • Test tubes going up vagina’s 
  • Teachers minding their business while a students face gets rearranged and looks like they need plastic surgery after
  • Teachers paying students to leave them alone

Where was I while this was going on? Oh me, I was doing what the teachers did during fights but me I was the student they…they were the teachers, the ones that have a duty of care over us.

Sigh I got into a lot of trouble over the years, my mother probably went to two of my parent evenings, my first one in year 7 and my last one in year 11, those letters were nowhere to be found, grab it, shred it, get rid of the evidence, but my mum was used to the trouble because my brothers went to the same school and caused more ruckus than me, most I did was push people down the stairs, trip them up and act like it wasn’t me, got people smacked up, just the usual, Facebook got me into the most trouble back in the day, I saw sirens at school because of Facebook, I had an assembly about me because of Facebook and a couple ratty snitches, but me the same mouth on socials is the same in a real life, no cap.

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College was another ball game, I went to a college 1hr out of my area because I told the people in my area that five years was enough with them I don’t want to see them for another 2/3 years, I studied computer studies deep this I only had to go in for 2.5 days a week I went in for either 2 days a week or half a day, nothing more nothing less, I forgot that the tutors had my mum’s number and email address, Long story short they had my email after and number, no longer had my house number, mum’s number or email, sometimes the system wants to get rid of you before you even have a chance. I had my chance(s) but that’s not the point  (Mum if you’re reading this I’m sorry but whatever beatings you have after I’ve finished typing this, I’ll call childline) I didn’t like any of my tutors, I only liked 5 people in my class, but long story short I got a double distinction in my course and got kicked out of college on the last day, make it make sense.

CAREER(S)

Whewwww long story short I’m on my 7th job, I’ve been working since I turned 16 at one point I was working 3 jobs at once, I didn’t have a life, I’m very much money orientated everything I own I’ve bought myself, gadgets, electronics, clothes, shoes all me, I don’t rely on anyone well I try not too, independent living while still living at home, Issa thing.

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When I turned 17 I decided to work in the care industry, back then I was so dumbfounded I thought it was good money, Y’all was I wrong its shit money for an industry that works incredibly hard, I was young I wanted money but most importantly I wanted the experience, five years down the line I’m still in care and I love it, no day is the same, but every day it’s new stress. 

In care work, there are different sectors to work in, I’ve worked in Learning disability, mental health, elderly and supported living, none are the same all different.

I’m still deeping this year September will be five years, I haven’t achieved what I’ve wanted out of this industry yet, but all I’m saying is I’m very close to the goal and when I get there I will honestly cry the happiest of tears. 

It’s an incredibly hard job or even career to some people, the laws you need to know, training, some cases common sense but common sense ain’t that common anymore, you can’t just work in care, you need a heart, an understanding of what you come to work to do every day, patience, I make it look easy because to me it is, been there, done that, but you never stop training or learning, no day is the same sometimes I wish but then I’d get bored.

In the new job I’m in now I work 37.5 hours a week, well that’s my contracted hours the most I’ve worked a week is 60 hours, let me tell you I was very much dead at the end of it, I either do dead on my hours or way over, no in between. 

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I genuinely love making other people’s lives better and that’s why I do what I do, it really is the little things that make my clients happy, going out on their 1:1s, sitting down and talking with them, even the simple things in my job description, I’ve spent two Christmases at my jobs not because I don’t want to spend time with my family but not everyone has family, I know when I go home I’ll see my mum or I can ring a family member, not all my residents can do that, taking a few hours out of my day to make someone else’s holiday celebration special will always sit right with me.

If any of my readers decide they want to go into healthcare, one thing I’ll tell you now is look after your back, you might not understand this advice now but in the long run, you will. Look after your health because most employers do not care about you, they just care about you completing the task and moving onto the next one, I injured my back and was in the accident and emergency also took one week of off work because I was in excruciating pain, that was a few months ago and now again I’m back in the same position, you only get one back.

I’m leaving the care industry hopefully by next year and going into computing, been a true computer wizard since a kid, I’ve got my distinction I ain’t letting it go to waste, and there’s a lot of money to be made.

RELATIONSHIPS:

Y’all

you thought.

Just know I’m very happy over here♥

FRIENDSHIPS:

I would say my friendship groups are all mix-up, I don’t chill with just one group, not one, not two but THOUSANDS.

Not literally thousands but I know a lot of people so I ain’t stuck for choice.

Sometimes I chill with just the mandem, sometimes just the girls or even a mixture, I don’t know I find I make friends really easily, I regret some friendships and five of them ended last year some long term some short term, I ain’t saying they were the problem, it was me too (more them) I’m glad I got rid when I did, because I really tried to help one of them and I’ve never felt so disrespected in my life, but karma hit them so quickly, the other four-man I don’t know, good riddance.

I can’t even say I’m not a nasty person because when I want to be I can be bitter, but when I want to be nice I can be super nice, but you really can’t tek mi fi ediaat…Impossible.

I’ve told people things I regret, I’ve said things, seen things about me as well, must admit that was quite interesting, you know when people talk about you, and you never knew that fact about yourself, it was a madness

Telling me you don’t care but want to do tappity tap on your keyboard about me…cute, nice to know you think about me.

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Ask my friends about me, they’ll tell you I’m a top cunt, top fucker, I’ll tell you I’m coming somewhere then don’t go so unpredictable, but I give top notch advice because I don’t give a single fuck and have 0 filter (That’s what gets me in trouble), but Y’all I can be nice.

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Whoever wants to get to know me cool, make up your own assumption about me, don’t let someone else’s opinion cloud your judgement, because then I’ll call you dumb by association.

SOCIAL MEDIA/REBRANDING:

Well, well…well, the only way you could’ve got here is through one of my social media accounts or if you’re a real g, you would’ve received an email because you’re subscribed.

The only social media platform I use religiously is Twitter, then snapchat, and then Instagram, I only use facebook to see what’s happening around my area or speak to my family and see what’s going on.

I’ve had my Twitter account for 8 years, I haven’t always been called ‘Baddest Teeks’ I had names like ‘simpletylife’ or ‘teeksxi’ I recently changed it to ‘Baddest Teeks’ three years or so ago, if you knew what I tweeted back in the day all those madness all those gifs Y’all know why it was ‘baddest’ at the start ‘Teeks’ just a nickname, my name holds weight I don’t care what anyone says, I was there back in the day.

I have an online mouth and real mouth, but buck me inna real life and touch me I’ll show you what I’ll be using your taxes on. 

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I was thinking of rebranding but then I was thinking who am I doing this for, for me or Y’all, I remembered I don’t give one fuck about anyone on the internet that I don’t know, BLOCK, MUTE & UNFOLLOW BUTTON IS ACTIVE USE IT! 

TEEKS THE BLOGGER & BADDEST TEEKS IS THE SAME PERSON, NO CAP.

OVERVIEW:

This was meant to be really short yet here I am approaching nearly 4000 words, this is only a small insight into my life, but if you read this thinking it’s my whole life, you’re a dickhead for sure.

If I could start my life all over again would I? 100% I would not, I pray every night and I know God has a plan for me, I’m not in a rush to get there, God’s timing is everything and I respect it.

If my life was to start over, I probably wouldn’t be here blogging, I probably wouldn’t have met the people that I did, been in the career I’m in, be alive and breathing because who really knows, I’m forever grateful and thankful I wake up every day.

Probably started my online presence wrong, but I sweaterrrrr gawddd man I don’t care, it gets me where I want to be for now, and who knows it could get me further one day.

I’ve got so many goals that I need to reach before 2019 ends, I’m completing every single one, nothings getting left behind. 

Also, may I add WEED IS MY BEST FRIEND

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Anyways 2019 I’m really living my best fuckinnnnn life, turning 21 (March 10th), flying out to Zante for ten days in June, Getting my 4th tattoo on my back, 9 days before my 21st (Pray for me bmt) Getting my 5th tattoo under my collarbone in April (Pray again x2), going to take lots of small trips around Europe, I’m just overly excited about everything.

2019 we move.

Teeks X

SICKLE CELL AWARENESS

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ABOUT ME:

Sickle cell is a disease I haven’t been very aware of or even merely interested about till about two years ago, it sounds very ignorant of me I agree but my mentality a few years ago was “why am I worrying about something that doesn’t affect me in the slightest” I’m really eating my words now because last year my mother literally forced me to go to a doctors appointment,all the consistent nagging was really aggravating me so I booked a blood test as my mother thought I had sickle cell anaemia as I used to nap about 5/6 times a day, excessive amounts I know! First things first I had my blood test and got told I got the sickle cell trait, when my doctor was explaining to  me about it I wasn’t even awake barely to listen so I went home to research, I found out a fair bit of information from online, I really wanted to know about my sleeping and why it was awfully bad one of the side effects was fatigue so it was explained. The sickle cell disease or even trait can come from one parent or both, I did some digging and as far as my mother was concerned it didn’t come from her side, I asked my father it was a straight up NO!

When I gave birth I had O recess negative ‘rare blood’ group and antibody D injection so the blood wouldn’t clot, doctors would’ve said at birth if I had the trait or disease” – My mother

“I believe that the greatest gift you can give your family & the world is a healthy you”

What is sickle cell?

SICKLE CELL: Sickle cell is a disorder of the haemoglobin in the red blood cells.

                     Normal blood cell  (A)         Sickle Cell blood cell (B)

 

The difference between the two is clearly the shape, however, people with SCD have abnormal haemoglobin called haemoglobin S or sickle haemoglobin in their red blood cells.

Haemoglobin: A red protein responsible for carrying oxygen in the blood vertebrates. 
Haemoglobin S: An abnormal type of haemoglobin that can be inherited from your parents, haemoglobin S causes red blood cells to become very stiff and oddly shaped, instead of having normal circular blood cells like exhibit (A) the red blood cells become sickle cell shaped in an exhibit (B)

People with SICKLE CELL CONDITION are born with the condition, it’s not contagious. Sickle cell genes come in pairs, you inherit one set from your father and the other from your mother, a child has to inherit a faulty gene from each parent.

However, a person who receives one sickle cell gene from one parent and a normal gene from the other has a condition called the SICKLE CELL TRAIT.

Sickle cell is a serious inherited condition affecting the blood and a various amount of organs in the body, it affects the red blood cells which cause sickling which produces episodes of pain and other symptoms, in-between episodes of sickling, people with sickle cell disease are normally well, however, long-term complications can occur, finding out if you have sickle cell from early can help with treatment process.

These painful episodes are referred to as the sickle cell crisis, it’s treated with strong painkillers such as morphine.

The main symptoms of the sickle cell disease are anaemia.

Whats sickle cell anaemia? 

Sickle cell anaemia is the name of a specific form of sickle cell disease which is a form of two sickle cell genes.

Blood loss is the most common cause of anaemia, especially iron deficiency. Heavy menstrual periods or bleeding in the digestive or urinary tract can cause a serious amount of blood loss.

Can you die from anaemia?

When you’re anaemic your heart must pump more blood around to compensate for the lack of oxygen in the blood cells, this can lead to an enlarged heart, however, inherited anaemia like sickle cell anaemia can cause life-threatening complications.

Can you cure anaemia?

Anaemia can be cured by a blood transfusion or if you change your diet will allow the body to naturally build red blood cells back up.

Blood Transfusion: A blood transfusion is when you’re given blood from a donor, very safe procedure and can save lives. A blood transfusion can replace the blood you’ve lost or just replace the liquid or cells found in blood.

SYMPTOMS OF SICKLE CELL/ANAEMIA

  •                                                            Fatigue
  •                                                            Pain Crisis
  •                                                            Dactylitis 
  •                                                            Arthritis 
  •                                                            Splenic sequestration 
  •                                                            Bacterial infections 
  •                                                            Liver Congestion 
  •                                                            Lung Injury 
  •                                                            Leg Ulcers 
  •                                                           Eye Damage
  •                                                           Aseptic Necrosis

Meanings:

Fatigue: When tiredness is overwhelming and isn’t relieved by sleep or rest.
Sickle cell crisis: Sickle cell crisis can cause pain as blood vessels can become blocked or the defective blood cells can damage organs in the body.
Dactylitis: Inflammation of your digits (Finger or toe) The word (Dactyl) comes from the Greek word “Daktylos” meaning finger in Greek but can refer to both.
Arthritis: A common condition that causes pain and inflammation in a joint, in the UK around 10 million people have this condition.
Splenic sequestration: A problem with the spleen that can occur a lot in people who have sickle cell, when a lot of red blood cells gets trapped, the spleen can get damaged and not work how it should. 

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Liver congestion:  Represents the increase of blood in a territory, due to dilatation of small vessels.
 Lung Injury: Acute respiratory distress syndrome (ARDS) is a life-threatening condition where the lungs can’t provide the body’s vital organs with enough oxygen.
Leg Ulcers:  leg ulcer is a long-lasting (chronic) sore that takes more than four to six weeks to heal.

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Eye Damage: The most common type of eye complications due to the sickle cell is “Sea fan-shaped frond” of new retinal blood vessel growth.
Aseptic Necrosis: A bone condition that results from poor blood supply to an area of bone, causing localized bone death. This is a serious condition because the dead areas of bone do not function normally, are weakened, and can collapse.
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Hopefully, this diagram can you give a better understanding of how the sickle cell works.

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The only possible cure for sickle cell is bone marrow transplant as known as a stem cell, but this transplant is only possible for the limited amount of affected individuals who have the suitable blood donor.

Bone Marrow Transplant: A bone marrow transplant replaces damaged blood cells with healthy ones.
Stem cell transplants are complicated procedures with significant risks involved.

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Did you know?

Sickle cell is the most hereditary hematologic disorder in the world. It primarily affects Black Africans and Americans, as well as some persons of Mediterranean, East Indian or Latin American heritage. About 8% of the African-American population carries the sickle cell trait.

SCD is inherited from both parents, sickle cell trait is inherited by one parent.

SCD can affect anyone, but mainly people from African & Caribbean backgrounds.

1 in 76 babies born in the UK carries the sickle cell trait.

Approximately 15,000 people in the UK have sickle cell disorder.

Approximately 350 babies with sickle cell disorder are born in the UK every year.

A simple blood test can show whether you have sickle cell disorder or the trait.

Children with SCD are at an increased risk for strokes, the risk is highest between the ages of 2 and 16.

Episodes of pain may occur in sickle cell disorder and are referred to as a sickle crisis.

Twenty-five years ago, a person with sickle cell disease was not expected to live to adulthood, and the average lifespan was 21 years.  Today, the outlook is much more optimistic, and many people are living beyond age 50.

Sickle cell disease is thought to have developed in areas of the world where malaria is present because sickle cell trait provides some protection from malaria.

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Summary:

This blog is short, sweet and hopefully full of enough information, health is important to me and it should be important to you too.

No one has got you like you have yourself, no one will care about your health as much as you either, to find out if you have sickle cell or even the trait is the quickest procedure a five minute blood test can determine whether you have the trait or disease, finding out could benefit you, you could have treatments put in place to help yourself deal with it, or if you have unexplainable sickness this could be part of the problem.

Think about it five years maybe even ten years, you want a family, would you rather find out now? Or later? That you have a trait or disease that you can limit, or find out later with very little options, the only thing keeping us alive is our health, if you can’t sustain that, then death can be a very quick process.

Any illness whether small or big can kill you, not everything has a cure, but you can carry out procedures that can limit it. 

Before I started writing this I hardly knew anything about sickle cell or anaemia, if it wasn’t for my mum constantly pushing to get my blood test done, I would’ve never known anything about this I wouldn’t have written this blog, but I’m really thankful that she pushed me to get out of bed and go to the doctors, I’ve been ill with symptoms that lead back to the sickle trait, and they’ve also been confirmed by my doctor as I don’t want to misdiagnose myself, finding out information on this has been easy but understanding it and literally pushing it through my brain has been hard, when I first found out about sickle cell I literally thought it was an illness for just black and Asians which turned out to be untrue, anyone can get it, but it’s mostly are races that get it, don’t believe everything you hear or see, it can be incorrect (but I’ve done my research nothing here is incorrect) 

I fully believe the cure for every disease known to mankind is out there somewhere, whether it’s being hidden, yet to be discovered or even trapped in someone’s mind, its somewhere.

Push yourself because, no one else is going to do it for you”

I don’t expect everyone reading this to go and get a blood test but even if ten people do, I’m helping ten people help themselves, at the end of the day I’m fine I’ve found out what I have, I can do exercise, buy tablets, see doctors etc… but you can’t if you don’t do a test. 

~June 19th Is Sickle Cell Day~

Furthermore I do have an announcement before I fully wrap this up, I won’t be releasing a blog till October, I really want to lift a few projects off of the ground this year that I have been working on, I also fully need to rebrand my blog properly, life has got on top of me and I haven’t had a chance to start it, so I’m taking a few months off and when I come back I’ll be better. 

I want my blog/name to be known in the next two years, I’m getting there slowly but surely! 

Thank you for taking time out to read, hopefully, you’ve learnt something new today.

Teeks X 

UNIVERSITY: OUTSIDERS VIEW IN

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Finally I’ve decided to end the fraudulent university lifestyle that I’ve perceived for nearly a year now but I really started joining the game of it a few months ago, a lot of people I’ve spoken to ready decided within themselves that I went to university honestly I never knew where people came up with that, so random honestly, sometimes I’d get random messages of being in certain locations Leicester came up a lot along with Coventry and Bedfordshire, I’ve been to Coventry once, Leicester never been there and Bedfordshire once also Hull, it really got to a point where I thought ‘fuck it, if that’s what you want to think let me play along as well’ What’s the university I decided to perceive? Of course, it was Leicester I came up with a made up course called ‘Bodycount Management’ along with a real course called ‘Computer Science’ Let me tell you now a lot of you lot believed it, but how? I’ve never posted me going to lectures or me being in a library, it’s the tweets and snapchats that got a lot of people and for a while I’d think I’m actually a student got myself back onto UNIDAYS, but this whole time I’d be working and living in a town and city! Life has been great!

University, the good, bad and damn right stressful…but what do I know I’m just an outsider right?

*Disclaimer*

I did a poll on this blog to receive answers but silly old me didn’t screenshot in time and the replies got lost in my mentions, I tried for a good day to scroll through my mentions but they stopped at a certain point, so I’m going to do this blog in a different way!

If you don’t know me from the TL, every time I do a blog I do a poll to go with it, it’s so I can interact with people and find out their views and opinions, a lot of the views I get are extremely interesting.

I always start of my polls with the first question being ‘where is everyone from?’ And do 4 options for the vote and do ‘Quote tweet others’ so people can pinpoint exactly where they’re from.img_2159

Okay, let’s get into it then!

I stated the 4 universities in a poll, that I generally hear about most and where a lot of the people I know attend & also where most of the fuckery happens NN2 (Northampton) you’re also up there with these 4, I’ll never forget about you lot.

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The one thing I’ve noticed with a majority people living in halls, some of you live like actual tramps, and you bring that same wayward dirty behaviour to when you move into a house with your mates! Do you not have any shame? I’ve been to university accommodation *Brunel University* to be exact and the communal kitchen was filthy like it would be a rodents best friend to live in.

The mindset some of you have to live in your own dirt, yuck!

Even the cheek to invite people to your accommodation looking like a dump site

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ACS should be called ‘AS’ because really no Caribbean people are involved that much, correct me if I’m wrong but it has more Africans, even  ACS is very dumb, that one debate on the twitter TL where a white girl decided to run for ACS president, it was actually the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard, how and why would you want to get involved in something that has nothing to do with your race.

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This one gets to me a lot, for someone that doesn’t go to university this is my pet hate, I know there are fire drills for testing I understand that but some of you wayward people can’t cook and are setting off the alarm for burning common toast, not being funny but how do you burn toast? How can you forget about your pizza in the oven? How can you burn rice? Oh yeah, you’re not a serious weed smoker if you don’t know how to put a sock over your smoke alarm if you can’t do it successfully go and sit next to a window and smoke or better yet, get the hell up and stand outside.img_2188

Personally, I feel 9k for a university is a bit of a stretch, I feel it should be free but with Theresa May in charge and the current state of the UK, I feel we’ll never get that. The fact your university fees cover lectures, where you are practically reading from a powerpoint which is probably 20 years old, used over and over again per year is ridiculous, paying for ‘contact hours’ where you can reach your lecturer is rather bizarre, you’re practically paying for a university library absolute nonsense, deep this you’re paying for student services, the same student services that love to sweep issues under the carpet.

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I really needed to ask this question as when I’m on Twitter mostly I always see complaints on group work, back in school I was one of the people that will let one person do the work while I sit back and relax, but in university, I’m guessing it’s highly frustrating and from the votes it proves a high majority of you don’t like it, you 2% that said yes, you must be lying, you other 30% you are definitely the ones who sit back and do nothing.

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The outcome of this vote left me so surprised, all I hear people rattle on about is Lidl or Aldi, the fact that Tesco came out on top is laughable, the same Tesco that sold horse meat that is where you want to go and fill your baskets. To be fair I shop everywhere but mostly Costco, however, I prefer Aldi & Lidl as they’re so cheap as a student I’m guessing you wouldn’t want to spend £50+ on food as things can go off very quickly as none of what we buy is even natural produce anymore. Fruit and Vegetables are twice their sizes always being injected with some sort of formula so they’re more than likely to go off twice as quick.

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The statistics to this one didn’t really surprise me, I’ve had friends where the family would have input in the course they choose, which I will never understand because at the end of the day they can put all the input they like in, but who is completing the course it will be YOU! You will be studying, dealing with the stress, graduating and of course going into the particular field, why would you let your parents choose a course for you which they will not be participating in? Sorry but I wouldn’t attend let alone apply for the university if my parents would’ve picked a course, for example, if my father picked my course I’d be doing ‘Music Management’ or anything to do with music, my mum, on the other hand, I can’t even give an example, because she certainly wouldn’t tell me, as far as I’m concerned I’d turn off, Imagine going to university between 3-6 years on a decision that isn’t yours, no thanks!

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Wasn’t surprised at this result at all, I don’t even go university but I get stressed by keeping up the persona that I attend, besides from that I couldn’t imagine what you university students must go through, the revision, assignments and most importantly the exams (If you have any) but a lot of you end up doing so well coming out with 2:1 or even better 1st’s.

“Your positive action, combined with positive thinking results in success” 

Shiv Khera

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Surprise Surprise! Honestly, there was no surprise here because the result I wanted to win did, whenever I check snap stories I always see ‘fUcK lEcTuReS’ or ‘fUcK 9ams’ Sometimes I don’t understand lectures that much, you’re literally sat down for hours looking at a powerpoint from 1956 with a tutor doing up voiceover.

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First of all, if you’re between 20/30% how are you still a student because I swear you can get kicked off your course for low attendance? Anyways what’s my own

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Whoever said ‘everyday’ someone has to be lying because I want to know what club is open every day for raves, who even has the time to do up ‘move your waistline’ every day of the week, 1/2 sounds more reasonable.

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The end is near, well from this blog, this topic was meant to be 100 times better than what I’ve just written but sometimes work with the resources and content you have, I received some interesting replies from this and if I ever find them again (Very much doubt it) I shall add them in.

For those of you who attend universityplease continue to prosper and persevere, if you’ve just started the end seems so far away yet once the first year finishes you really don’t have a lot of time left unless you plan to stay there for 4 years +, honestly the saying ‘time flies’ I never believed it till I reached 20. If you’ve made a solid friendship group they’ll always be around, but assignments and exams are vital for you to get where you want, and of course sleep and food use your student finance money wisely, I see they don’t dish out money easily in this England, I believe that everyone that goes to university can and will be successful in life if they focus on what they want!

For those of you who are planning to go university, continue to work hard, work for your grades, nothing in life comes easy and a university will only get harder but the results you’ll see at the end will amaze you, hopefully, this blog can be a small learning curve for you.

I’ve had to add my dry banter into this since I lost everything and I had no energy nor time to do another question thread part 2.

PHYSICAL & MENTAL HEALTH

Over half a million people a year make the transition to student life, for some students, it could be exciting but others it can also be incredibly daunting, universities say they have a lot of student support in place but I think that can and should be strengthened with more mental health services and wellbeing programs installed within the university, half a million people spread out between the UK can you imagine how many people can be affected from previous issues and new ones, I don’t think enough help is given. With higher study costs and career markets getting extremely competitive there is a whole lot of pressure. An annual student report from September 2017 showed that 87% of students struggled with social or academic aspects while at university, other issues that were highlighted was isolation, balancing work, financial difficulties and living independently.

Personally, I think a lot more services should be available on campus, living on campus their should be people to call at any time of the day.

This is where I come in, I’m not student support I’m really just Teeks, but I’m available a fair amount of my day despite me working, but any problems and you feel like you want someone to talk to (text only) I’ll try my best to help (07925672594) 

*Disclaimer* This isn’t my main number, any abuse I will straight block your number

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Okay now let me wrap this up, this university experience has been immense been at work or in my house for the past year and a half, thank you to all the fakes that said they’ve seen me in Luton or Leicester I did not appreciate that at all! Bodycount management is a fantastic course, highly recommend it, it’s only available at DMU (Obviously) This university persona has been fun but I think I’m finished with it now.

Teeks X 

COLOURISM, RACISM & DISCRIMINATION

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You would’ve thought in 2018 the whole ‘Light skinned vs dark skinned’ argument would’ve calmed down not died out just calmed down a tad, but nope it continues with full force every day, Twitter is where I see everything and I’ve seen the same topic upon my TL for a solid two months, being engulfed by black twitter with the same debate/argument every day gets extremely tiring, I was doing Twitter fingers for about a month to get my point across but getting your point across on such a large scale social site is near enough impossible, my thought process is if I can’t get my opinion out why not listen to others so that’s exactly what I did I held two separate polls called ‘Colourism question thread‘ & ‘Colourism question thread part 2‘ The first one I did it didn’t do too well on votes but I realised I was very uninclusive to other races which weren’t fair I really only did questions for the black community when colourism really involves more races than the black community, kindly enough a girl named @yazzwilson kindly messaged me and we were talking on whatsapp for days about colourism and honestly she opened my mind to things I never knew about and she helped me come up with part two of the thread. Part two did so much better than part one but really I involved everyone this time and the number of votes the questions received was crazy! From part one through to part two I received over 400 replies I really tried to reply to everyone but I swear my fingers were literally about to drop off and it’s not like I reply to someone and the conversation is done I had to constantly go to and fro, listen you twitter famous people I don’t know how you do it.

Hearing different opinions and for the person to then further explain themselves is what I need, I don’t really like to take sides too often if my mindset was how it was two years ago I would’ve been having arguments for a month, but I’ve learnt to accept that everyone is different and their thought processes are also different, this world was never meant to be perfect. There were a few views I saw and I was thinking in the back of my mind ‘how the fuck can you be so backwards’ but hey their mind is certainly not mine and vice Versa.

There were a few people I really had to raise my uneven eyebrows at, I had a fair few people in my mentions stating ‘facts’ that were clearly their own opinions, I’m sorry but your opinions are not facts and if that’s what you think then I’m sorry for your mindset because that is just the worst thing ever, I really asked some people for evidence on where is this a fact and they came back with nothing.

I have many subtopics that I want to talk on and shed light on, some are good exposure and some not too good but hey this is a touchy topic and life is not a bed of roses.

But first let me talk about myself and my own personal experiences, how I got shaped for my own life.

My Personal Experiences 

While I was growing up I lived in two separate locations one of them being London and the other one in a town not too far from London probably about 45 mins away, your probably thinking how does that even work? Well both of my parents were born and bred in London, my mum moved out of London before I was born but we also had a family house that was still there, the biggest reason was London is too bloody expensive everytime you breathe money gets deducted out of your account, but we always went back forth between two locations and my dad never moved out of London so I grew up around West London & North West London I know them equally well as each other. I wasn’t born there I was born in the town unfortunately but this has shaped who I am today. 

Town life as a black girl, there is a small minority of black people here, the area I live in is profoundly white, on my street, there is just one other black family, and in my area probably about 5-10 black families, my area I mean my side of the town because believe it or not towns do have different sections. 

It’s only when I go on nights out in town which is hardly ever, is that I see more black people, but it’s only from the past few years I’ve seen more blacks since they built a university campus here.

All my friends from around here are white, in my school, I had a few black friends but switching to city life all my friends are black. Weird right?

But I have been teased a lot by black people because I have friends who are white or any other skin tone, and it’s really weird like I never grew up with that mindset, no one can ever hinder my thought process of who I choose to spend my time with, like their my friends, some of these people I’ve grown up with, but it bothered me that my own race people who shout about diversity all day every day and they spun around and laughed at me.

I have white family, mixed raced cousins, like I shall never understand the mindset that people possess of having different skin tone friends. I’ve generally posted on my snapchat of my older mixed cousins and clearly stating their my cousins and people will still come back and ask ‘who are they, are they your family‘ like I don’t know if some people are generally dumb, but its big 2018 diversity is coming into families it’s been in families for a very long time.

Interracial Relationships

“They are here to stay”

Let’s get one thing straight, interracial doesn’t mean just black and white, it can be anything, it seems to centre on just two races, please there are more races than just those two. 

It doesn’t just centre on sex, there are some people that literally get with dark-skinned men or women to get ‘mixed raced’ children, which I find sick and it has to be a mental illness for you wanting to breed someone for the outcome of mixed children. 

Are Asian girls more submissive? Are black girls freakier? Who has the bigger penis latina men or black men? All these perpetuate stereotypes and turn all of these ideas into experiments. We aren’t bloody science experiments, we are human love who you want for who they are, not for anything else.

There’s a fine line between admiration and fetishization, being seen as a fetish other than a person is disgusting like interracial doesn’t mean a better life. Admire other races as they have a lot to offer.

For the love of God just because someone dates outside of their race it doesn’t mean they hate the people, like allow people to have a preference, have your preference and keep it moving don’t have a preference then knock the people in your own race down.

I saw a horrendous tweet on just this on the 22nd February 2018, honestly, I was horrified, dishearted and angry.

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The beauty to come from interracial relationships and all relationships is that you learn you become open-minded to learn about the other person, their beliefs, mindset, goals, background and a whole different perspective for you. 

I never really deeped the fact that people have been racist let alone a colourist towards me until I did both of those threads, when the threads were done and I was scrolling back through the replies I kept on saying to myself ‘that’s happened to me before’ or ‘ I never knew that was happening on my own doorstep’ As I was growing up in school from year 7 straight through to year 11 I never even knew what I was experiencing maybe because I got into so much trouble in them years everything must’ve gone up and over my head.

I watched one movie called Holes while I was in year 9/10/11 I have no idea, I don’t even know when I finished school. 

Besides that I loved this film so much I even begged my mum to buy me the book, I got it if you’ve never seen the movie I suggest you watch it. 

There was one scene that really captured me which was about interracial relationships, in the book Holes Sam a black man falls in love with Kate a white woman, in that time it was still unheard of, long story short Sam got killed.

 

There were times in school where I would get picked on as a student by teachers and me being a bad child in school had nothing to do with it, there was one time I was in my school main playground minding my business chatting with my friends and I literally turned around to go to the canteen to grab food I was on my way there and a teacher told me to come to her so me being me I rolled my eyes and went over, she started hassling me over my skirt being to ‘short’ I can’t lie it was short but that’s how I felt comfortable and this skirt wasn’t one of those that it would look good being long, in school you follow the fashion ok, so anyways next thing you know I was being ushered off to her office and when I got there all I was hearing was “don’t you feel uncomfortable like that” but my argument back was there was plenty of other girls that had their skirts way shorter than mine to the point if they bent over you would see their vaginas I’m not kidding, I basically got sent home to change, but the point is there were white/mixed girls walking past us while I was out getting lectured about my skirt, honestly I was so mad I went home got changed stayed home for like 2 hours and came back half way into the last lesson.

There was another thing I hated about school was when people touched my hair, I HATE when my hair gets touched and white people especially would say “ew whys your hair so greasy/creamy” um maybe just maybe so it stays moisturised as a black girl having our type of hair is a pain finding a hairstyle, no one in my school had wigs it was either natural, weave or braids. After my hair kept on getting touched by disgusting bacterial invested hands I had to get braids to reduce all the consistent touching. I’m pretty sure my school went through a phase about haircuts and hairstyles like no wacky colours or haircuts, I really had to have regular shmegular black hair while white/light skinned were allowed any hair colour or haircut possible, it was literally ridiculous.

I’ll have to say personally I don’t think I went to one of those schools where there that much more whites than blacks it certainly wasn’t even, all the races that attended pretty much balanced out the equation, if it was teachers compared on skin tone there was certainly way more whites than blacks actually there was like 5 black teachers, but in opinion it didn’t bother me at all who educated me, it was just the way they’d deal with certain situations.

There were many times where I should’ve been kicked out but having the right people on your side helped me a whole lot more, I was one of those kids where if anyone did anything wrong I’d automatically reply “is it because I’m black?” That one sentence will have people flustered because there is no comeback.

But I’m grown now and still growing, and I still have a lot more to learn.

Recently (I lied) about two years ago I went to Spain on my first holiday alone no parents just three of my friends, when I tell you I’m laid back I’m so laid back, one of my friends who shan’t be named kept on noticing stuff that would fly over my head, one time we were walking to the beach and I kid you not there was a swatchsticka on the floor fully spray painted, and then on the way back it was gone, can’t lie I didn’t even see it I was too busy enjoying myself, we also took a few days to go to the town and my friend was like these people are racist I fully didn’t know what she was talking about but when we got back she was like “People were staring at us” I didn’t know how to take it I was really not bothered at all like I fully don’t know what’s wrong me like I’m the most unbothered person ever.

I would just like to say that’s the end of my personal stories but I’ll probably be doing up Esther (BkchatLDN) and relating back to any and everything while I’m talking on subtopics.

Black skin vs Light skin, the number of tweets I saw on this one topic please I can’t some of you lot are bitter.

But one thing I can’t seem to get my head around is “You’re attractive as a black girl” what does this mean I’ve heard it too many times where someone has said it to me and honestly I was spinning. I’ve been reciting the same line in my head for months and I just can’t figure it out I’ve heard that for no other race, personally I think when people say that, they must think us black girls are bottom of the barrel within the human race because if we go back to slavery days our ancestors got treated like shit on the bottom of these slave masters shoes, I will never seem to understand actually I don’t think there is a possible explanation of why there is so much hate on the black/darker skin tones, it’s really a skin tone people act like we chose, like colour selection is a thing. Every day I’m disheartened but more importantly, I end up getting desensitised because where is the end for all of this?

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We all know what got the Twitter timeline going a few weeks ago and that was the tweet that got retweeted by somebody on the TL which brought a tweet back from 2013 and into 2018.

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At first, I was thinking “this bitch”, but I thought about it and compared it to one of the questions in my thread, some of you who voted probably are dark skinned so what Stefflon Don said isn’t entirely false.

“I just want to be lighter” I’m convinced at least a few dark skinned girls must’ve voted this option because what other skin tones would want to go lighter???

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This doesn’t mean I agree with what Stefflon Don did at all because it was a serious low blow she and her PR team should’ve been smarter and removed this tweet years ago but tweets can also resurface.

She didn’t handle this situation correctly at all telling people to suck their mums, what sort of role model?

But Stefflon Don, what were you doing at 21?

Hair

Our pride and joy

My hair is honestly my pride and joy I’m either natural or has braids, personally, I don’t like weave or wig at all I’ve tried them both once and honestly never again.

But for you other girls that wear weave or wig you continue to slay but also please let your natural hair rest.

I’m sure I can speak for a majority of black girls that we do not like getting our hair touched at all, the blood, sweat and tears that go into looking after it, finding certified hair vendors, hairdressers, products, tying it up every night.

Hairdressers for me, I don’t let anyone do my hair I only go to two women and they really do God’s work.

Hair products honestly rip holes through my bank account like it’s so expensive, I can’t shop in regular shmegular boot’s or Superdrug for hair products, I have to go to Black/Asian owned businesses, they’re the only shops that will sell the products I need.

Experimenting with black hair it can really go two ways very well or extremely bad, a few years back I tried to relax my hair God forbid the outcome the hairdresser made my hair drop out, it actually took a good 3 years for parts of my hair to grow back, the growth is what kills me it takes such a long time, that’s why I hate my hair being touched.

We’re always fighting our hair edges, sometimes I want a slick ponytail or even a cute bun, but the hairs along my hairline do not allow that to happen at all, it’s a constant battle.

Wash Day, this is actually war three hours to comb out my hair, wash, condition & shampoo about 1/2 times, add in leave in conditioner let the conditioner soak into my hair for a good hour, separate my hair into four sections to then comb it out again! ( I hardly blow dry my hair) once its all combed through I proceed to straighten it either with a straightening brush as these aren’t particularly hot and heat damage is a killer or actual straighteners (once in a blue moon).

My point is I’ve received aggro in particular from white girls saying how their hair is difficult to deal with, honestly, it’s nothing compared to what us black or even mixed girls have to deal with.

The modelling industry (I wrote about this briefly in my last blog) but the model world we’d open magazines, watch adverts on televisions/billboards, see highlights from fashion weeks and still see a high number of lighter skinned people fulfilling these jobs when we also have darker skinned models that wanted the same dream to break out within the industry as well.

As a black girl, I know what colours work well with my skin tone and last year orange and yellow was popping on my skin tone, on lighter tones no offence but it defiantly didn’t do there skin any justice. The fashion world want to keep up with trends but are unexclusive on who they involve, first we were dealing with how you have to look a certain way, weight issues but we’ve always been dealing with skin tone and it’s just blatant racism, black people hardly ever feature on front covers of major magazine covers. Black model Jourdan Dunn told The Guardian back in 2013 that ” people in the industry say if you have a black face on the cover of a magazine it won’t sell.”

Recently I literally just learnt how bad the colourism problems were in Asia and the people that were quote tweeting saying how Asia was the worst place to come across anything to do with the colour I was like”Yeah whatever” but little did I know you lot was actually right. From what I’ve heard I now understand I know black people that have gone to China and they’d constantly get stared at and prodded by Chinese people, what’s that about? But you know what doesn’t surprise me as China are quite limited as they’re a communist country.

But first, let me talk about Vogue India and why they cast Kendall Jenner instead of an actual Indian model, it actually made no sense it was nonsense, it spun me even more that Vogue India did that, not Vogue New York, can’t lie but that sounds like self-hate, how can you not cast someone from your own country and as a 10 year anniversary to your magazine that’s what you wanted to do, completely flabbergasted. Kendall Jenner, I respected her but she really accepted this job, she ACCEPTED THE JOB, her manager let her accept the job as in Kris Jenner you let her accept it, Kendall is 100% American nothing else, how can you go so wrong with something so simple. Vogue really thought they were not going to receive heavy backlash, Kendall thought, bitch you thought

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Update: 04/03/18

Someone, please tell me why I’m seeing this family again with Vogue India, it’s like the backlash last time was not enough, Kim Kardashian is American with Armenian heritage, did anyone see me mention anything to do with Indian heritage? No neither did I, I can’t figure out why they keep taking jobs because they damn well know they’ll get done for cultural appropriation, and better yet Vogue India switched off their comments on all of Kim’s photo’s because they know as well what they’re doing, these people make me so enraged. 

Kim Kardashian looks stunning in all these photo’s but girl this is not your culture at all, you’re American Armenian, there’s no Vogue in Armenia go create it there and model for them, you celebrities cry when you get backlash as if you didn’t create it yourself.

Vogue India you lot are dumb and disgustingly stupid, your whole magazine doesn’t even represent India, it represents everywhere but India, you hire stylists that will happily play dress up with American models and dress them up, you have a whole country of models to pick from yet you play pick n mix with the rest of the world. Get a grip.

The women and men still striding down the runways are all still profoundly white, diversity isn’t a trend it’s certainly here to stay forever. Many models have been rejected because of skin colour or apparently “we have too many black girls”. Every race has different features, why on earth would you not want new unique features instead everyone is still looking at the same blonde haired blue eyes or brunettes.

Change it up

Models

Duckie Thot is Sudanese-Australian and was a runner-up on Australia’s next top model and is now making her way to be an international model. Duckie Thot revealed that she struggled to get her coins down under and decided to relocate to New York City, she was also worried about being in a country that didn’t promote black models.

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Shaun Ross is of African-American descent and was born in the Bronx, as Ross was growing up he received a lot of discrimination as he was albino, he was bullied for years and called names such as ‘powder’ ‘white-out’ and ‘Casper’. Ross was discovered on YouTube and switched over to the fashion Industry when he was just 16 years old. Before modelling Ross was a dancer and appeared in music videos like ‘Pretty Hurts’ ‘Party’ by Beyoncé and a few more.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

Joel Mignott is a 19-year-old model &  an aspiring DJ originally from Leeds. Signed to AMCK, Joel has travelled the world with his job & modelled for names such as Viviene Westwood, Adidas and Diesel. Joel has experienced setbacks within his career as people always wonders what race he is, Joel finds the issues of where to fall in.

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Destiny Owusu is Virginia born and of Ghanian descent, Owusu first started her modelling career at 22 years old. Owusu has experienced many setbacks being a black model, she stated “We have to work 10 times harder, because with agencies as long as they have that one token black girl, that’s all they want.” Owusu also said that if she could change one thing in the industry it would be diversity. Owusu’s African beauty & melanin movement has inspired many others to feel comfortable in the skin they’re in, she created the hashtag #isyourmelaninonfleek she has paved the way to becoming influential with no representation. 

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Khoudia Diop is Senegalese, Diop was teased as a child because of her dark skin but after moving to Paris at age 15, she was approached consistently with the suggestion she’d be a supermodel. In 2016 Diop moved to New York as was featured in the ‘Coloured girls project’ this led to Diop becoming Instagram famous and appeared in advertising for French cosmetics brand ‘Makeup forever’.

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Ashely Chew is 25 and the brain behind the movement #blackmodelsmatter, Chew is a model, activist and fashion & arts passionate, who fights every day for her rights. Chew was asked if she had ever been rejected from a casting her simple reply was “I’m lighter toned with green eyes” Chew has also struggled with modelling as her hair isn’t what is expected, they’ll ask her to straighten her hair or say they already have a girl that looks like her, Chew also stated “It’s almost like being too light for the black castings and being too dark for regular casting.”

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Winnie Harlow is a Canadian fashion model, spokesperson & activist. Winnie gained prominence as a contestant on ‘America’s next top model’ while having the skin condition vitiligo, while she was growing up Winnie was victimised and continuously got called names such as ‘cow’ or ‘zebra’ etc, she is of Jamaican ancestry. Winnie was diagnosed with Chronic skin condition characterized by depigmentation of portions of the skin. All the abuse she received Winnie considered Suicide.

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Personally, if people accepted that people of different skin tones and ethnic backgrounds were different and learned we all possess different qualities and look different a lot of problems from this century wouldn’t arise, a colour should no way determine what you can and can’t have, there’s space for everyone on this scene people just need to learn how to use all these features to their advantage. 

Update: 01/03/2018

I only saw these photo’s on this day, but 2018 black people being on the cover of major magazine’s we are certainly getting somewhere as a race.

Update: 07/03/18

I told Y’all.

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Bleaching  

Skin lightening/bleaching is a procedure to make dark areas of your skin lighter or to achieve a naturally lighter skin tone. Melanin is the pigment that gives skin it’s colour and protects it from the sun.

Bleaching never have and never will understand why you would want to go lighter like it’s so normalised now there are whole procedures to go lighter, the results aren’t even certain and the side effects you can get, do you people not fear God.

If you consider going lighter then please read and educate yourselves on what you’re doing to your skin.

Possible side effects
  • Skin Irritation/Inflammation
  • Burning sensation
  • Itchy & Flaky skin
What else could go wrong?
  • Skin turning to light/dark
  • Thinning of the skin
  • Visible blood vessels on the skin
  • Scarring
  • Kidney/liver damage
  • Abnormalities in a newborn baby

Honestly, the side effects sound normal to me, all those unknown ingredients you would happily put on your skin it’s slightly worrying.

But when I read the ‘what else could go wrong’ I’m shocked! People will generally go lighter with the risk of their health.

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“Health before wealth”

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Update: 07/03/18

Look what I found, these celebrities think you lot are weird, period.

50 shades of melanin

Yet only a few makeup companies can actually get it right with the foundations and concealers, there’s really 50 shades of melanin yet most makeup brands give a pick n mix of about 10! 

Personally, I don’t wear a lot of makeup at all, it’s effort to put on and take off! But that doesn’t mean I don’t see whats going on within, as an outsider looking in the makeup industry has messed up big time. 

I fully don’t know whats wrong with the people in this industry, some of them have their head screwed on others are just bloody PR stunters.

Now I’m going to educate you about the unexclusive and inclusive makeup brands.

Inclusive

  • Fenty Beauty 
  • Bobbi Brown
  • MAC
  • Maybelline
  • Nars

Robyn Rhianna Fenty, she really has done that! After seeing a void in the makeup market Rhianna really experimented with the best of the best in beauty. 40 shades of foundation and still plans to bring out more, not only is it inclusive it’s affordable.

Those two factors definitely lured me in, normally I would never leave my house for a launch but as soon as Fenty Beauty landed in the UK I know I had to try it, so I gave it three weeks before I went to Harvey Nichols, I really thought bitch I thought that there would be no queues, me and my friend were sadly mistaken. We turn up I kid you not the queue was three hours long so yeah I joined I certainly was not turning around like an idiot and going home! Fast forward now I get close to the front and finally let in, so of course, I bought the Foundation and KILLAWATT highlighter and they were my best purchases of 2017.

Bobbi Brown is No.1 leading makeup brands in the world for the past two decades Brown has worked on creating products to suit all skin tones. It’s the newest foundation called ‘Skin long wear weightless foundation’ contains 30 diverse colour options. The brand is available in over 60 countries and at 17 exclusive stores including Harrods, Macy’s, Selfridges etc and 75 freestanding stores. In SoHo London, Bobbi Brown recently opened a store it looks like a normal store upstairs but downstairs they hold masterclasses.

MAC is a leading professional makeup brand, co-founded by Frank Toskan. Toskan realised the lack of suitable colours and textures needed to maximize performance, Mac celebrates diversity and states on their ‘who are we’ page on their website that ‘We are for ALL ages, ALL races, ALL genders’.

Maybelline the company was created by a 19-year-old entrepreneur named Thomas Lyle Williams in 1915. Williams noticed his older sister ‘Mabel‘ applying vaseline and coal to her eyebrows to give them a darker fuller look. Williams adapted it with a chemistry set and produced a product sold locally called ‘Lash brow-Ine’ Fast forward now in addition to its expanding range Maybelline added on the ‘Fit me’ range which includes 40 shades.

Nars is a French Cosmetics and skincare company founded by makeup artist and photographer Francois Nars in 1994. In 2017 Nars announced that despite being against animal testing, it was a requirement for them to sell in China. Nars continues to grow it’s shade collection the brand’s new ‘natural radiant longwear foundation’ is available in 33 shades with a various amount of medium to deep tones to choose from.

Unexclusive

  • Kylie Jenner Cosmetics 
  • KKW Beauty
  • Lancome 
  • Physicians Formula
  • Benefit

Let me be straight I love the Kardashians/Jenners but they’ve pulled some horrendous stunts lately.

Kylie Jenner Cosmetics, none of her products bring the wow factor, her whole range has no originality for example ‘Kylighter’ all she did was add in her first two letters of her name to try and give it authenticity. Kylie recently bought out a makeup brush set costing $360 and had the audacity AUDACITY to compare her brand to high-end luxury brands such as Kevyn Aucoin, MAC etc, she received a substantial amount of backlash towards her twitter post announcing this, I wasn’t surprised they looked like paint brushes and lord they fray, no one wants to put makeup on with a brush that frays. 

Scam Brushes

 

KKW Beauty, ah with Kim Kardashians makeup line I really I just can’t, just look and tell me is that not clay?

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The other three please just look at the shade range and ask yourself “In big 2018 where is the diversity?”

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PR stunts: A planned event to attract the public attention to the event organisers or event

PR stunts are what gets everyone talking, H&M, Dove if you really believe they didn’t know what they were doing then I’m not sorry but you’re deluded.

These companies know what they’re doing, they love our arguments, the more we talk and type about their brand, the more money they’re receiving.

The H&M ad was genius apart from the smashing up of the stores in America, the creative team knew what they were doing, whoever passed that and allowed it to be drawn up and distributed those people are honestly laughing at us, even though they had to pull it from the stores in the end, the more we spoke, the more we typed and included them in our tweets or on any social media they were receiving money, and frankly that is all they care about. People were still going to shop their regardless of colour, they did an 80% off sale in some countries. The mother of the child she was going to get paid regardless so of course she allowed it and told everyone to ‘shut up’ in the process, imagine if she declined that opportunity…

The Dove advert when they showed a black woman turn into a white woman after using Dove body lotion, Dove responded with “We missed the mark” they didn’t miss the mark they knew exactly what they were doing.

When I first saw both of these adverts I thought it was a bluff but it was real, honestly, if I had a company that was known worldwide I’d be dropping stunts every other week, because when you lot speak and type they just earned money! Social media is where the money is, the sooner some of you realise that the more woke you’ll be.

The Nike Advert, that is one advert I can’t fault Nike really did that, included the London music scene and sports all in one advert! The only people that faulted this ad was really the Asians, like really who did you guys want Nike to include in the ad??? And the worst thing is you guys were screaming at black people like we were the ones that created, directed and published the advert it isn’t our fault, you lot had so much energy, redirect that to Nike headquarters.

London really used everything that makes ‘London Culture’

  • Barbershops
  • Corner shops
  • Santander Bikes
  • Chicken shops
  • DJ 
  • Black Cabs 
  • The Underground
  • Bipolar Weather

They used our slang they interpreted everything that is us and what makes a Londoner.

Music Industry & Music video ideologies

Matthew Knowles said “The music industry must stop ignoring singers with darker skin”

The music industry is doing so well in the UK with light/white men/girls and even dark-skinned men, but what about the dark skinned girls? Is the issue darker than colourism, could it be sexism within the race? To me, it just doesn’t make any logical sense how can the men of the same skin tone be doing so well but the ladies are literally fighting and scrambling to the top.

The Music videos are a different ball game, why are there so many light/white skinned females in music videos now and hardly any dark-skinned females, the UK music scene will not be diverse until it rectifies this problem.

Blitter

Ah Blitter the time where the Twitter purge began and everyone transferred to Blitter known as (Black Twitter)

Honestly, Blitter went downhill so swiftly and quickly, the app had no originality used the exact same features from Twitter, the interface didn’t change at all except there’s was 100 times shitter than Twitter. The owner of the social media application was absolutely crazy at the start I thought yeah he’s alright because really Twitter headquarters don’t interact with us all they want to do is suspend accounts all day but Pat the guy that created the app interacted with his supporters, sounds like a swell app right?

Oh, and by the way the app is racist and I have clear evidence to show this.

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Deep the photographic evidence this guy has to be ill.

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Racist/Discriminative Brands 

Amazon 

Wycon

Shea Moisture

Versace

Tommy Hilfiger

Marc Jacobs

American Eagle

Kendall & Kylie 

BooHoo

Straight up facts, these have all been broadcasted on the news and social media.

Amazon recently had to pull a product of off their shelves which a third party user was selling which was products like baby bibs, mugs and T-shirts were all up for grabs, it had a saying printed on it that said: “Slavery gets shit done”. The offensive merchandise got removed and Amazon released a statement saying “It wasn’t me” but really in truth it was them because don’t you have any guidelines on your site or a process that you should go through to get a product posted.

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Wycon an Italian beauty brand got into hot water internationally when they released a nail polish named ‘Thick as a nigga’ what colour was that meant to represent? Oh yeah of course black. After being called out Wycon never actually apologised they just changed all their nail polishes to numbers.

They further released a statement, honestly, you’re going to laugh about what they said queue the laughter ” We’re sorry this post triggered these types of reactions, every colour from our gel collections is ‘Inspired’ with a ‘Cheerful‘ attitude and a ‘Pinch‘ of naivety.”

Complete and utter bullshit.

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Shea Moisture in the spring of 2017 black beauty brand makes the greatest stumble of all time (that’s my opinion) in their haircare commercial. A black woman with long stringy hair was compared to two white women who also lamented their hair struggle. 

Some black women including me felt like shea moisture was turning their backs on their real audience to an audience that literally doesn’t know about struggle upon their head tops.

Shea Moisture admitted they ‘Fucked up‘ and also announced that Unilever is acquiring it, wonder what this means for future advertisements.

The one ad that I saw that actually made no common sense.

Versace

‘Versace Versace, Medusa head on me like I’m Illuminati’

In 2016 a former Versace employee vowed to sue the luxury retailer, accusing the company of discrimination for its use of a secret code they use when a black person enters the store which alerts staff and security. The former employee who was hired in the San Francisco store 2016 said the code ‘D410’ alerts when someone of black skin tone enters and is then followed around the store. The code is also the brand’s label for a black t-shirt. According to TMZ, the man was fired after telling his employer he was African American.

Tommy Hilfiger 

“My passion for music has always inspired my designs”

Tommy Hilfiger was accused of being racist when a ‘Chain Letter’ went round of his saying if he knew minorities were going to wear his clothes he would’ve never made them and wishes they would stop wearing them. How lovely.

In 2014, however, Hilfiger did say that while hip-hop’s adoption of his clothing ‘Fueled growth‘ for his label, he’s disappointed at the urban demographic ‘Took us away from our roots‘ So is the word urban black? 

Marc Jacobs 

” I always find beauty in things that are odd & imperfect- they are much more interesting”

During 2016’s NYFW Marc Jacobs felt a wrath of Twitter backlash as he sent predominately white models down the runway in dreadlocks, which many felt was a blatant appropriation of black culture. 

Jacobs response: ” all who cry ‘cultural appropriation’ or whatever nonsense about any race or skin colour wearing their hair in a particular style or manner – funny how you don’t criticize women of colour for straightening their hair” Ouch.

But wait is straightening only for white people? Because I’m pretty sure when I was growing up I used a flat iron comb, but hey you know what if that’s what Jacobs wanted to bring to the table than so be it.

A few days later he issued an apology on his Instagram page.

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American Eagle

“Don’t quack like a duck, soar like an eagle”

In December 2017 people were outraged at American Eagle who was selling bracelets that looked like slave shackle cuffs.

The public started sharing photo’s of the bracelets on December 11th, by December 12th they issued out an apology.

American Eagle pulled the product from the shelves but a few days later the public still found them in stores up and down the USA.

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Kendall + Kylie

“It’s always the people that know the least about you, that want to judge you the most”

2017 Kendall & Kylie Jenner were in hot water with the public again for plastering their faces over popular music icons.

After controversy and heavy backlash, Kendall & Kylie pulled the t-shirts from their site, the shirts were put on their website June 28th, 2017 and removed the very next day, the sisters put their faces over the likes of Biggie, 2pac and The Doors. 

They were even issued with a lawsuit as their faces ruined the trademark of The Doors.

They issued an apology.

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Boohoo/Nasty Gal

Before being sold to BooHoo (If BooHoo minded their business they wouldn’t have been in this predicament) Nasty Gal went under fire for appropriating black culture with a $50 faux leather do-rag.

The discontinued product sparked outrage in 2014 after users on Twitter questioned if Nasty Gal knew the true function of a do-rag, which is to protect and maintain natural hairstyles.

Vegan??

 

Blackface

“Blackface is a form of theatrical makeup used predominantly by non-black performers to represent a black person” 

Blackface was either a layer of burnt cork, a layer of cocoa butter or black grease paint, in the early years they painted on red lips to resemble a clown, costumes were either swallowtail coats, striped hats and top hats. 

Minstrel shows entertainment imitated black music, dance and imitated ‘plantation talk’. The shows featured some of the most ‘ugliest‘ African Americans from 1840- 1890, minstrel shows were the most popular form of entertainment in America.

The Golliwog is a black fictional character that resembles the exact same features as blackface.

It is the 21st Century 2018 and blackface and golliwogs still exist to this day, Blackface started in the 18th century over 200 years ago and us black people are getting resembled a doll and we still get taken for idiots by fellow white people. We are not clowns, we are not your entertainment at all.

Careers/Work Paths

“Ever felt like you haven’t been accepted because of your skin colour? Yeah same”

Some workplaces just aren’t diverse enough, to be honest, I’ve never let this stop me from getting to where I want to be, but I’ve had a good few arguments along the way because I’m always adding my signature somewhere to guidelines like ‘We accept everyone no matter what background or race your from‘ And most of the time it ends up complete and utter bullshit. I’ve been discriminated at work so many times, I’ve had managers all up in my space talking down to me like I’m a child and stupid, I’m far from that, did I ever report any of these incidents? No I did not my mindset back then and kind of still now is that the white man won’t listen and in my case it’s true, I’d report something and it will get shoved in the bin, a white person will report the exact same thing and of course it becomes a priority! Am I an idiot? 50/50 really. I wanted to quit some of these jobs so bad but no one will ever get in the way of my money and qualifications absolutely impossible.

There was one job I absolutely adored, but I started to hate it once we got new management, there was one event I had to work at over 1000 + people attended this event, my manager treated me like a slave like I actually felt like a slave, it was a 15 hour shift from the last minute planning to sort out big preparations, I value my job description and honestly the things he made me do, certainly werent in my job description, and oh yes I’m one of those people if it isn’t in my job description then piss off I ain’t doing it, I did as I was told for about 12 hours the last three hours my anger was boiling and honestly my anger is not something to play with because once I flip it’s game over. I’m 100% sure he was doing it on purpose long story short I flipped and got so angry I cried and traded some very nasty words towards my manager, I told my mum and she went ballistic because I never cry I also quit my job.

It was the fact I was the only black person doing the dirty work everyone was chilling, watching the boxing event, I was going back and forth like a flipping circus animal.

Update: 08/03/18

Honestly, I’m extremely upset & extremely infuriated about what I witnessed on Twitter 07/03/18 “Fuck the blacks” I felt extremely sorry for the girl that had to put up with this as she was the only black person on that floor, it is a hate crime! I know racism still goes on till this day, but it’s not even on a sly it was full on and I’m highly disgusted by Nottingham Trent Uni, they responded far too late for my liking, if this was dealt with earlier it probably wouldn’t of reached the likes of social media but I’m glad it did!

Now have a look at some more evidence and opinions:

 

Nottingham Trent University, look what you have done, you’ve ruined the reputation of your own university for not responding in the correct time frame.

How can this be reported on Monday and you want to come and issue a response 3 days later, the young woman had to bring the situation to social media’s attention just so it could receive an uproar so you lot could respond! You would’ve dusted this under the carpet like other issues, which I have further evidence on.

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All these universities claim they have ‘support’ but you don’t, a situation similar to this happened at De Montfort University in Leicester (DMU). DMU I definitely didn’t forget about you lot.

You universities love ruining your reputation, either accommodate every single race or close them down. 

Oh and the Daily Mail, I see how you were very quick to swoop down and collect the news and write your article.

Listen to me, you lot are not slick in the slightest.

Daily Mail keep the same energy! You hate us one week and the next week you want to write a supporting article. 

Sorry but I don’t like you at all.

If this was my situation, I can’t lie I wouldn’t hold back at all the same attitude you people think black people have ‘The angry black woman’ I’d unleash it 100% paint me with that brush, wouldn’t care less don’t be racist and not expect a backlash!

If a group of black boys were to walk past, those white men would’ve ducked their heads, a young black girl on her own in her accommodation had to experience this.

I could never imagine getting through all the stages of getting to university and then a situation like this occurs.

I understand steps have now been taken as arrests have been made & suspensions have been enforced, but that is not enough! Their courses need to be terminated, named and shamed, faces need to be shown, in the real world things like this cannot run at all.

A few of my opinions:

If you follow me you should know, that I was literally going for anyone with a silly opinion.

@RufaroChisango_  I stand by you, and so do a majority of Twitter.

Interesting Questions

Why is it acceptable for black women to openly prefer dark skin men over light skin men, but black men can’t openly prefer light skin women over dark skin women?
Do you pick friends based on skin tone?

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Does dark-skinned privilege exist?

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Jorja Smith

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All races answer…Do you like your skin tone? If no why not?
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If you could would you change your skin tone?

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Do you think people use colourism as a scapegoat for the fact their ugly?
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Why is it always the ugly girls feel a type of way, when it comes to colourism why do people relate to men’s preferences and not a social construct?

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Now to all the tweets where I just couldn’t figure out where to add them in but all equally important as each other.

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To everyone that enjoyed my thread and took time out to say, I certainly didn’t miss you out and I’m ever so grateful.

My Personal Hypothetical

Personally, to me, it all boils down to racism, colourism and discrimination.

If those three things didn’t exist this world wouldn’t be so twisted, looking at slavery it’s so immorally incorrect and I will never understand how you can punish someone on the colour of skin, if I had the option to change the skin tone I 100% wouldn’t if I have to take all the abuse that comes with it, then so be it. I’m black and I’m so proud some of the history associated with the colour black is disheartening, but our ancestors fought for our freedom! 

Civil rights activist Rosa Parks 1913-2005, refused to surrender her seat to a white passenger on a segregated Montgomery bus which spurred on the 381-day boycott. This helped launch nationwide efforts to end segregation of public facilities. The city of Montgomery had no other choice but to lift the law requiring segregation on public buses. Rosa Parks did that.

Social Activist and Baptist minister, Martin Luther King Jr led the civil right’s movement from the mid-1950’s until his death by assassination in 1968. 

 King received the Nobel peace prize in 1964 along with several other honours, assassinated in 1968 he still lives on to be one of the most influential African American leaders in history.

“I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the colour of their skin but by the content of their character.”  — Martin Luther King, Jr. / “I Have A Dream” speech, August 28, 1963

South African Activist and former president Nelson Mandela 1918-2013 helped bring an end to apartheid and has been a global advocate for human rights. A member of the African National Congress party beginning in the 1940s, he was a leader of both peaceful protests and armed resistance against the white minority’s oppressive regime in a racially divided South Africa. This manoeuvre landed Mandela in jail for nearly three decades, but he was the face of the apartheid movement. Mandela was released from jail in 1990 and participated in the eradication of apartheid and became the first black president of South Africa.

Antiapartheid: The anti-apartheid movement, originally known as the boycott movement, was a British Organisation that was at the centre of the international movement opposing South Africa’s system of supporting South Africa’s non-whites.

Honestly, we have so many more people but these were honestly the greatest people in my opinion! They lived and died by the movement and they will always live on!

I wrote something a few months ago and hopefully, it can sum up my conclusion because I am absolutely lost for words.

All colour, ethnicity & race is beautiful. 

Black is beautiful.

Mixed Raced is beautiful.

Brown is beautiful.

White is beautiful.

We all slay every day, don’t we?

Don’t get it twisted we’re all ugly in someone’s eyes, but we’re all beautiful in someone else’s right? 

We as humans weren’t made for everyone, we don’t get accepted by everyone but that’s okay because that’s life isn’t it? Or wait am I wrong is that just my conception of my life lessons, or is it the god damn truth that everyone should bloody well listen too?

Oh, I don’t know what is life, what is beautiful, what the hell is ugly, who created these words, was it YOU, did you give us your unwanted opinions? 

My own words 

This one is very short as I just didn’t know what I was writing, but in this day and age I see a lot of slander  on race, colour, ethnicity the whole bloody lot, this hatred for other people will never stop, no race is better than one, no ethnicity is more powerful than the other and no colour is more superior, God created every single one of us differently so no one has the right to say anyone is ugly or disgusting. But I honestly do believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and that not everyone will find us all beautiful but that’s okay, God created us all with different features so we can all individually stand out and be unique. 

I’m pretty sure no one would like to be the exact same as someone else, everyone’s personality is completely different, we all get angry differently, for example, I get angry in the speed of sound while others can just keep their cool and act as if everything is a walk in the park. But don’t be scared of being different, act out, go crazy, experiment with things, do you! 

Regarding my cover photo, I wanted to outline all the different features everyone possesses whether your black, white, pink, orange or purple, everyone is different in their own way, shape and form.
Hope everyone has seen my vision and liked it. 

Teeks X