2019 WRAP UP, 2020 STARTUP!

147 days later and I’m back to blogging, wheww chile what a long time, I would apologise for being inactive but I’m not going to because having writer’s block is REAL, I have blogs in my drafts that have been started but not finished hopefully I can get those out to you lot sometime next year, not hopefully I WILL get those completed and put them out next year.

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Bet you’ve been wondering where I’ve been…If you answered no, free you because I know you’re going to continue reading and want to know what’s been happening in my life and if you said yes you’re either nosey or you genuinely want to know where the fuck I’ve been, I’ve wondered too, but somedays I look back at the whole year and it’s certainly been busy, I’m generally a very busy girl, this year has also been hard for me work-wise I had a manager that didn’t believe in my career prospects it made me alter how I saw myself for months, it made me question myself every day, whether I was fit for the position, whether I could actually be a leader, so many things were shuffling around in my mind, however, if you’re sane enough in life you’d know not to mess around with my career because I’ll only come back stronger, I remember I had a meeting with my manager and she thought I was dumb I remembered something she didn’t my ammunition must’ve taken her aback because she was certainly lost for words, anyways long story short she either resigned or got fired I believe she got fired because I definetely reported her ass to management and when I was telling management what was going on LOOOOL she didn’t stand a chance.

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We got a new manager and I thank God for her also my deputy manager and all my colleagues so now I’m training for senior care worker which I’ve always wanted, I’m also doing a Level 3 certificate in web design and development, I’m excited for what 2020 can bring hopefully more career opportunities, twenty-one years on this earth and I’ve learnt so much and I  never want to stop.

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Anyways yardiyardiyaaaa enough about the boring part of my life, I’ve recently just come back from Amsterdam, 10/10 experience apart from DBE cancelling rest up LB though.

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If this part of the blog doesn’t make you want to go Amsterdam, then please go get high and come back to this section, because it’s not me that’s holding you back.

Amsterdam 2019 let’s get into it:

I booked Amsterdam 31st May 2019 with my friend ‘Adz’ well she booked it I just sent my money each month, we booked on ‘Love holidays’ however our holiday was discounted as they always have sales on, the cost should’ve been £903 altogether but we paid £292 each which included flight (Easyjet) + hotel (Ozo Hotel 4*) we paid extra for a private shuttle which was £33 each and two suitcases which were £33 each and this was all for 5 days so final price was £584, we booked all our activities via ‘Get your guide’ app if you haven’t heard of it get to know, we booked about seven activities via the app which was £117 each, if you book without the app I promise you look in your pocket and you’ll discover a burn mark. 

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Spending money, I changed up £358 which gave me €400 I nearly vomited in Tesco’s, this was money for food, weed and transport, my friend took away €150 but also had her debit card with her, we paid for 3 extra activities out there but it wasn’t crazy expensive.

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Small disclaimer

I met Adz (Adonae) the day before we flew out, as she stayed round mine it makes more sense I lived closer to Luton, We became friends through Twitter and have been good friends for roughly 2+ years, crazyyyy right!

The first time meeting wasn’t anything crazy you can learn about someone through text, and also learn a lot more when you meet them too, literally the best person to go with, she’s a lot like me which scared me a lil bit, we liked the same things from food to activities, we gave people the same looks in public when we saw something funny or weird and looked back at each other for reference, I can’t fault her she literally booked the holiday and activities and I praise her because I would’ve preferred for her to do it and me to just fling the money over, I can hear the whinging bastards already “WhEre’S YoUr ReAl fRiEnDs” “wErEn’T YoU ScArEd Of bEiNg RoBbEd”  My gut instinct has been swindled a few times but I’m not stupid I’m picky on who I meet in a real-life if I said I’ll meet you, in reality, hold on to your hats 2020 is coming, however, twitter teaches me every day about madness occurring, I wouldn’t hand over 100s of £££s without being certain, and look I’m in my house now back from dam, no damage is done just memories made.

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Lastly each day I figured out mine and Adz’s morning routine, I found it hilarious, so we’d wake up at some awkward hour like 6am go on our phones for a few minutes then go back to sleep, then we’d wake up again at 11am and go to each other “We’ll get up in half an hour” both agree to continue to watch TV or be on our phones, ask me did that half an hour ever come? During that time we’ll also be snacking, then around midday, we’d get ready for our day, every morning same routine, it’d be funny cause it was the same and we’d just laugh about it.

23rd November:

Adonae arrived around 15:20pm, she met my family who was already at home, but I already had something planned so my brother dropped us both to my work, it was the weekend I planned for my dad to come into my work to do a reggae/soca evening for my residents, they loved it including my colleagues and me, long story short we got home around 7, both ate, watched a few episodes of something on Amazon prime then proceeded to pack at 10pm, Long story short we were overweight but hear this only by 3.1kg we still had pay £12 each extra loooool, Easyjet can honestly fuck off, nothing easy about ‘easy’ jet, why is there an Easyjet plus who’s paying £150+ for extra’s are you tapped in the head? DO YOU KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF WITH SMALL AIRLINES? NO? Well, you’re going to find out, wait for it…Priority boarding, why do Easyjet have priority boarding it makes zero sense, not even just EasyJet small airlines WHY? We’re all going to the same destination are we not? Or is the plane going to stop off in the middle of England and Amsterdam and tell people ‘Please mind the drop between the plane and the clouds’ and it’s always the posh cunts in suits as well, tossers. 

Moving on, we finished packing and once we closed our suitcase there was no way on God’s green earth that it was being opened till we got to the hotel, it was full to the brim, even our hand luggage was full, we went to bed at 2am and was up for 4am, my friend picked us up and off to the airport we went, someone tell me where is Luton Airport, why is the airport still in construction mode? Luton Airport is so ghetto, I’m surprised they even had booking scanners in there, and London claims Luton since it’s London Luton airport if Luton was a place in London it’d be Harlesden, free dem.

24th November:

We boarded our plane on time, left on time but our plane only had to slow down because too many planes were landing at Schipol airport, I’m pretty sure it was an hour thirty-minute flight or something, can I just say England are so behind in technology compared to everywhere else in the world, like so behind it’s a joke! I won’t reveal too much go discover for yourselves.

We got to our hotel around 11ish and got told we couldn’t check in till 2, but we got around it and checked in at 1, our hotel and room were so nice like it actually resembled the photos on the website, it was a 10-minute walk to the metro where are hotel was it resembled part Canary Wharf, part Milton Keynes it was weird but made sense.

We chilled, napped got ready for our first activity the ‘A’ dam lookout’ we went purely for the ‘over the edge swing’ I was excited before I nearly sat down on the swing, quickly glanced up and over the edge and pussied out real quick, as in I grabbed my bag and was on my way, my friend, of course, did it, I wished her luck and everything, it didn’t exactly help my nerves that there was a measly bar to keep me secured over my legs, ARE YOU DUMB? A bar uno am I a dick’ ed? If my chest thrust forward while up there 2 million per cent + my savings I would’ve fallen out, I don’t even have life insurance I couldn’t even afford my funeral if I died, I’m black I didn’t see any other black people up there so I took myself out the equation, y u bEiNg rACiST tEeKs, it’s actually called stereotyping, idiots.

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Soooo I left my friend to go on her own, I was giving support with my feet firmly on the ground, we took pictures after then went to the bar we both don’t drink so we just got normal fruit juice and enjoyed the incredible view. 

Let me tell you guys something about this trip, the A’dam lookout is across the river and I was thinking how am I going to get there cause my name ain’t dynamo I can’t step on water and expect to stay on TOP of water, anyways so we asked around and my girl in the tourist shop said FREE boat to the other side, the way she said FREE so calmly in this England is anything free? Not even the oxygen I breathe is free I’m sure it’s taxed. 

Long story short, we went to a coffee shop but we didn’t stay I just picked up all my essentials, which included two tubs of cookies, two pre-rolled zoots and just some baggies of weed, I smoked a spliff before bed then went back up made a cup of tea and dunked my cookies in which I’m 100% sure the weed disappeared as soon as I dunked as I didn’t feel an ounce bit different, I was even nodding going “Mhmmm yeah this is nice” all this mhmm yeah for me to feel fuck all did I spend €15 on two tubs for a fucking laugh? It was the tea I just know it but honestly, in this life, you’ll never see me digest a biscuit without a hot drink to go with it.

Don’t offer me a biscuit with no hot beverage, you can even offer hot water.

25th November:

So Monday we went to the zoo, the zoo was 10/10, it was actually amazing, I’m going to drop all the videos/pictures down below, wOrDpReSs rUinED ThE QuAliTy.

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These lions were very close to us I’m sure they were tranquilised cause if they wanted to attack us they could’ve, no fence to protect us, just me and oxygen.

I can’t lie I hate entertainment shows that involve animals, but this fat ting didn’t want to jump just wanted food all the time, found it hilarious I know this sea lion must’ve learnt flex & finesse from early!

 

Monday Evening we did a canal cruise, as in it was so beautiful, the history behind Amsterdam is amazeballs, I just thought ‘weed’ capital this is my kinda city, yeah but no, I love history even though I hated history in school but that is beside the point in school I had a curriculum to follow which I found utterly boring, but I’m grown now I can learn what I want, Amsterdam the city of diamonds, anyways yeah I nearly fell asleep on that cruise, when night time reappears unlike Madeli….anyways when night time appears I’m either buzzing wide awake or I just want to sleep, I wanted to SLEEP so bad.

26th November:

TUESDAY NOW, WE ON TUESDAY, BEST DAY OF MY TRIP, you idiots thought I was going to say of my life yeah? Well no, but the activities for this day listen 10/10!

 ‘Glow in the dark mini golf”

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I lost

The walk getting there was a trek, it was about a 15-minute walk in the cold and it was spitting, we got to one traffic light to cross and my friend saw a flash from across the road, a bunch of tourists put deh bludclart flash on and was taking photos of us saying “yoU’rE So PrEtTy” I was thinking I’m not an artefact man, now random people are going to have me on their camera roll, bare weird.

Anyways the mini-golf was so sick, I think there were 12 holes, one of them was bare unnecessary which was the last hole and the ball just wouldn’t go in, I’ve never had that problem before man:(

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Second Activity was the Anne Frank (Jewish museum) as I said I love history, I didn’t love the holocaust of course not but the story behind how everything erupted and became what it was is just incredible.

After those two activities, we went back to our hotel, we chilled, snacked and napped all to prepare for our big night out, we went to the red light district always wanted to go here and we were finally doing it, my fit was drip, oooo fake drip spotter couldn’t catch me cause I wasn’t wearing any designer, catch my fit down below:

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Ha, you thought I was going to put the image up, did you attend clownery college?

 

 

You:

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We left our hotel around 8 and took a stroll through Canary Wharf and onto the metro, central to the red-light district is not far at all, we had a look in some sex shops and the sex toys bumberclaartttt, oh don’t worry I took photo’s you ain’t meant to take photo’s but fuck the rules, we then had a walk up and down back streets and went to the 5D sex cinema, I’ll upload a short video but we were basically sat in a stimulator basically a rollercoaster chair, and it would move erratically with whatever goes on, on the screen, the man ejaculated and foam came out, I was in stitches, we then went to a peep show it was confusing at first but we paid €4 for 4 minutes of watching time, the first stripper we saw she was so boring, zero energy then a door opened and a new lady walked out she had ENERGY for days, these strippers/prostitutes in the red light district are peng are you dumb?? Lastly, we went to a sex show liveO sex on stage my kinda scene, strippers doing their thing my kinda scene, men in the audience getting picked out to go on stage and join in the act, one man got picked out three times looool on his third time he looked pissed, hilarious. 

We were laughing for a time cause foam squirted out🤣

Oh, and before I forget we went to the museum of prostitution (Red light secrets) nah I loved it the history behind the red light district is dope, as you can read, I’m trying not to give too much away because I want you to go and experience for yourselves.

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I posted a confession  at the museum and they get stuck on a confessions wall

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However wearing what I was wearing I didn’t feel entirely safe because some of the men were disgusting, would catcall you like a dog and when you don’t reply continue to call you all the names under the sun, I ignored and continued because I didn’t want unnecessary hassle plus if I fought someone I didn’t want to fall in the canal that shit was cold and dirty not me boy!

However, that was a night to remember, my eyes were my camera and I can’t fully explain my vision so go visit, loool you’d think the Netherlands government are paying me to promote Amsterdam like this😂.

27th November:

Wednesday was pretty chilling we chilled into the late evening and started getting ready around 16:30pm for the…ICE BAR, ice bar was cool but never again, as in never again someone would have to pay me to go back in there, so I’m pretty sure we paid for premium tickets cause we ain’t no simple bitches which included 1 golden token for the bar in the ice bar, and 2 silver tokens for the bar outside the ice bar, read and read well the first part of the ice bar tour I don’t know what was going on, this man did some speech but was bare shouting, there were different groups that went in at different times and I think you could stay in there for 45 minutes, you got handed a measly jacket as thin as one-ply toilet paper and gloves, as soon as I got in there I saw the temperature, some next polar bear climate of -9.7º, my tokens were in my pocket but there was no way in hell I was taking off a glove and getting a token waiting at the bar, drinking a drink within five seconds, do I look mad to you? The man said if you leave your drink for five seconds it’ll turn to ice? Is my name crackhead sally? I couldn’t even hold my phone to unlock it ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LOOK AT IT, I didn’t even have the energy to lift it towards my face, we basically went in said ‘ah yeah this is nice’ asked the photographer to take photos then we left, we went to the bar instead I ordered an ‘Amsterdamnned’ and my friend got ‘Sex on the beach’ we swapped, in the end, both tasted good, we chilled for a bit then decided to go ice-skating, we decided but ice skating cashier broke our hearts, it closed at 9pm we got there at 8:30pm €30 to skate for thirty minutes? You’re shitting on me.

We Left.

Not disappointed though…

We saw a dominoes beforehand and got it on the way home, so slow story quick we spent €60, and that’s £50, FAM THAT CAN FEED A FAMILY OF 5 HERE!

28th November:

Thursday was meant to be my most memorable day of the entire year but was it though? Thursday flopped me harder than my GCSEs don’t piss me off, the first motive was Van Gogh museum we got there at 5pm because on the ‘Get the guide’ app it said it closes at 7pm, the security guard said it closes at 5 and the dutch accent is strong nuh rass, even if he was trying to talk to me nice it came across rude, but we even said the app said 7pm man was trying to argue I went deaf cause it wasn’t me he was going to go back and forth with, so we left we went back to central and straight into a coffee shop whilst I was in the coffee shop I found out D BLOCK EUROPE CANCELLED, as in if someone didn’t tell me I would’ve still went, I’m so glad I got let down in a coffee shop with a spliff in my hand, so the coffee shop story with adz this girl makes me die, so I bought 1G of white widow, blue cheese and OG kush, two pre-rolled cones of sativa mixed with baccy and bought Adz a vanilla cake edible, we sat down and I sparked mine, adz has never smoked before she asked me how to smoke??? Bitch, I don’t know, honestly, I smoke every day so explaining how to someone who has never was difficult, I managed too though but it was evident it wasn’t for her, she had her edible though she was happy, adz was eating I was smoking I remember there was one point where I was vibing to the music I turned my head back around and swear to God the edible was nearly gone, I said “Eyyy you probably want to slow down a bit” as a non-smoker non-edible eater would say “Ahhhh but it’s so nice though” She never knew the decision she made was going to fuck up her whole night, so she finished it and was like “So when is it kicking in” I was like “Ha give it an hour” by that time I finished my zoot I was good, I had a guy tapping me every two seconds for my lighter, bruv who comes coffee shop without a lighter? Tapping me every 2 seconds like I’m an off licence, anyways we left it kicked in as soon as we left for her, I was dragging this girl through Amsterdam central to get our metro it was hilarious my girl just looked dazed, so we get back to the hotel and by this time she was telling me her body has gone numb, she was sat on the bed with her pizza just eating, I was packing, she went to sleep in and out I stayed awake most of the time mostly because I didn’t know how her body was going to react some people have mad reactions, some people are calm but I ain’t trying to explain to someone’s mum wagwarn for their daughter so I was in and out of sleep mostly slapping the shit out of candy crush, I finally snoozed into a light sleep at around 3am.

29th November:

Friday today was home time, Adz woke up around 8am still waved, she kept asking me “when is it wearing off” that was a question I couldn’t answer if you ate the whole thing if it was half I would’ve given you a legitimate answer, but my girl learnt her lesson, so in the morning I left her to pack I packed the night before obviously as I can function it’s literally my everyday setting, I went downstairs to smoke, this is a story I’ll never forget…So I was wearing leggings, a long top and a big fuck off fluffy jacket it was cold outside, so I began smoking as I do, get halfway through and started feeling incredibly hot as in hot like the plane’s doors open and could feel Caribbean heat, I was thinking I can’t finish this spliff but me being me I finish it, by that time I was feeling dizzy, so I managed to get back in the hotel and into the lift, I looked at myself in the lift mirror I was garnnnn, I got back to my hotel room with the grace of God, as soon as I got in I started removing my clothes, I think I know how hot hell is now! I downed a whole can of Fanta, bitch I had a hot flush for a whole goddamn twenty minutes, I was thinking ‘rah is this how my 21 years on this earth is ending? You’ll do a real g like that, ight sn’ Thinking back it was funny but in the moment nah no thanks not again, but the maddest thing was I had that same spliff on the Monday same strain, it was just weird, I felt like Brian Finch (Limitless) when he was getting those side effects from the drug NZT but it ended up being a hoax.

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So the Friday we went to the Van Gogh museum it was so so good, apparently going high is a vibe I wouldn’t know mine wore off, I wasn’t expecting it to be so modern but hey ho move with the times I guess…the building is huge the backdrop is amazing for photos, yeah the art was nice too.

We spent around an hour there then went back to our hotel in time for our transfer back to the airport, our flight was delayed of course Easyjet would be however we arrived back in England around 7pm, I got my weed through without a hitch cause like I said Luton Airport is the absolute ghetto.

We booked our trip via

11 activities in 5 days, wheww chile my kinda scenes.

So this year I went on two holidays one to Zante (read the blog on that, if you haven’t) and obviously Amsterdam, however, Amsterdam was 10/10, maybe minus a few points, because I nearly got run over 50 times a day, my company was literally my opposite, we did activities we both wanted to do, like the only thing I could fault was the weather every day spitting, not even real rain one placebo & DBE cancelling but whatever man. 

Hope you lot have enjoyed reading about Amsterdam as much as I’ve enjoyed typing about it, and hopefully, some of you go and enjoy as much as I did, but my next trip there I’ll be in strictly coffee shops.

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This year I finally started a podcast called ‘Live & Relevant’ with @brands0311 & @_Jmensah it’s taken at least 10 months to come off the ground due to a few problems we had at the very beginning, but we’ve done it, the first episode is coming out very soon and will be available on Soundcloud & iTunes then, later on, we’ll roll out towards Spotify. We all met on the very first day of filming together but we all spoke on a regular so it was hardly awkward and besides I’m not an awkward person at all, during the whole session I was mildly waved as in I smoked 4 and I was still fine? As in?? 

However, as a team, we’d all appreciate if you could follow our podcast page on Twitter and us individually, any topics that you would like us to speak on please shoot your shot in our DMS we’re all open books and would like our voices heard, whether you agree or disagree with our opinions that is your own. 

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Lastly, the biggest shoutout to @NK1STUDIO one of the main struggles we had was looking for a studio to record in, the prices I was seeing boy oh boy mi nuh tink suh, but I was scrolling through Twitter one day 3 months ago and they came up, affordable, reachable for all of us, boom shack a lacka slapped it in the group chat, everyone agreed on a date, payment succeeded, it was like planning a Thorpe park link-up but with us, everything went to plan.

Oh, also a 5-minute walk from Star Lane (DLR) & they literally have a pizza restaurant next door, like recording sessions + pizza+ 5-minute walk to the station= Heaven

AND the two people running it all are amazing, wish them all the success for 2020!

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Moving on…

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Since I started blogging I’ve been kind of nervous grabbing opportunities regarding blogging, most obvious reason my turn around time is slow not because of laziness but the thought process of how I’m going to piece everything together is very draining but it’s lowkey fun as well, but as 2020 is coming to a start in 5 days, I’ve grabbed two opportunities I’ll be writing a review for @Ts.cupcakes (T’s Cupcakes) it’ll be coming in January so keep an eye out.

I’ve also joined @RealTalkBlog18 as a guest writer so next year I’m looking to put out a lot more content on this platform as well as my own, I wanna do reviews also, I know my strengths and this year was not it, I know I can reach a bigger audience which I’m going to do, reach out to me if you want a blog written about any sort of business minus gossip I am not the sun newspaper nor am I UK TL TEA

I’m finally bringing this blog to an end, this year has been something a lot of learning curves that I need to incorporate into next year, I need to drop bad habits, maybe those will get dropped in 2021 who knows, I now know my strengths and I know I can go far if I continue to push myself, fuck other people no cap but no one can push where you want to go as hard as yourself, born alone and die alone if your friends jumped off a cliff would you? Might seem common to say no but there’s a lot of sheep around, some people can’t think for themselves let alone do anything without a backup dancer to help their already failed process, I started all my journeys on my own, no second opinions, I’ve had a lot of people in my past that think they know what’s best for me, but in true reality, I just turn off, I don’t want to hear what you have to say, anything I’ve got I’ve worked for it no shortcuts just a straight grind, 2020 is really another year, yeah a new decade faxx no printer bitch, but next year a bitch is going to be trying and succeeding, work in silence let success be your NOISE, I’m coming for everything, Health & Social Care NVQ level 2? I’m getting that next year, NVQ Level 3? Yes! Level 3 web & development? Hell yeah, 30k+ views on the podcast? Easy 30k+ views on my blog by 31st December 2020? Hard but not impossible, I have so many goals which for my own sanity I will not post all over socials, but when I hit them you will all know!

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I’ve had a lot of favourite times this year but my ultimate times have been under the needle, not the surgery one please the tattoo one, I love my tattoo’s and the ones I’ve got this year, being in the tattoo studio I’ve been able to catch up on sleep, slap-up people on candy crush and enjoy the 0 tolerance of pain

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I’m so thankful for people who have walked into my life this year and made it even more fun than I was already having, having friends from all over is lit because I can move up and down this country without a care in the world, so grateful for the people that have left my life and that’s people that called themselves friends but true colours really showed when I was least expecting it but it’s cool, true colours were shown when people thought I was schleep I was alive and kicking during all of it, but like if you want to leave just pick up and go, don’t do this bitching shit because I promise you I don’t give a fuck, I’ll smoke a zoot and get over it in seconds, might find this moist me typing this, but some people think they’re so significant in your life when that ain’t even the truth

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Thank you to everyone who still continues to read my blogs and gives feedback as and where possible, I’ve ghosted long enough and I can only come back harder no one can blog like Teek’s, and small shout out to my mum even though she’ll never read this which is good cause that Amsterdam trip red light district needs to stay under wraps, but sometimes my mum helps me with blog topics where I struggle she always says to give her credit so there is her crumb of credit. 

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If you have any topics that you’d want me to talk on and give my own take then hit me the fuck up, my DMS are open!

Chase Lizzy until she chases you.

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2020 is everyone’s year, you want something you get it, believe in yourself, promote yourself and most importantly network & I promise you, you’ll see the results! 

Last thing, a big FUCK YOU if you voted conservatives, and a big THANK YOU to those that voted labour, you’ll be granted a place in heaven and that’s on a G ting!

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See y’all soon!

Teeks X

GOODBYE 2018||TWITTER EDITION

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*There are videos/memes in this page I apologise if you don’t see them, but I will post all videos in a thread below this post on Twitter unless you’re using a laptop they’ll 100% show up*

*DISCLAIMER* 

I am not here to draw anyone out, but if worse comes to worst then that’s your personal problem💖

The time has come for the Twitter 2018 breakdown, from what’s happened in January straight through to December and it’s been one hell of a year, personally, I haven’t seen anything like it since 2012/2013 days I was there live in the flesh on Twitter watching shots fly, anyone could get it even the people in your bio that was dead or in prison, ‘SK’s world♥’I was seeing things fly around and you don’t even have to be involved ANYONE can get it, back then you could say anything (no cap) and Twitter HQ would be like ” yeah we’ll let that fly” minus the Twitter Purge, because??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? but now we in 2018 yoooo accounts were getting locked off left, right and centre, it was a tragic few days on the timeline, saw some of my favourite accounts disperse, saw them come back to stay for a few hours and back in twitter jail they went, whewwww chile the ghetto. 

Hope Y’all have popcorn, dabble of wray & nephews, a fat blunt and ready to ride out.

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JANUARY

In January we had an internet sensation pop up on our timeline ‘Nusret Gökçe’ also known as salt bae, who knew to flick your wrist with salt in your hand over a piece of meat could really make you a viral sensation.

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To me, January was a very boring month seeing that same video circulate day in day out, we really do make useless people famous, if someone told me that all I had to do was sprinkle salt over the meat and let the video marinate for a few days and I’ll wake up to 5.6 million views, a better life and Elizabeth doing stupidness in my bank account, I would’ve gone viral years ago (sigh I lied).

SALTBAE WAS 2017, I MUST’VE BEEN HIGH TYPING THIS WHEN I STARTED I APOLOGISE.

But to be honest I only heard about him this year…

 

 

FEBRUARY

On February 9th, Nike released their iconic advert ‘Nothing beats a Londoner’ in my opinion that advert was the best advert to represent London, culture on point, representation has gone clear, credible UK music personalities, sports features, a 3-minute film caught everything.

The campaign supports young unknown sports wannabe’s picked from local sports and clubs and shows us the trails they’re going through to get to where they want to be.

There are a few unknown faces that were shown for example @Boss_Darnz was selected in the advert as Nike noticed his ‘analytics’ around his social media profiles.

Even though his time on screen was limited, he still managed to have his face up in the Nike flagship store on Oxford Street and let me tell you that’s a big achievement, to have your face in the biggest Nike store in the world.

I’m telling y’all now, your Twitter analytics matter, your social presence matters, if you want something bad enough you’ll either get noticed or you’ll go and grab the opportunity yourself.

Celebrity Features: 

Gareth Southgate 

Harry Kane 

Eden Hazard 

Skepta 

Micheal Dapaah 

Rio Ferdinand

Mo Farah

Alex Iwobi

Kurupt FM

Giggs

J-Hus (3 my guy♥)

Jorja Smith

Dave 

AJ Tracey 

+ many more

Can we just deep for a minute that in a 3-minute 9-second advert, there were over 30+ known faces, 14 different locations across London , 258 athletes, a few unknown kids striving for their dream all filmed, edited, music added in such a short space of time, but let’s not forget we got the few odd cry babies that screamed and shouted that the video wasn’t diverse enough, from what I saw a lot of Asians blamed the black community for the lack of diversity as if we were the ones that created the campaign, weird flex but ok. 

“It seems like people are either black or white in London” tweeted by @KalpeshR 

Honestly, who did you want to be added into the advert? Steel Banglez? Jay Sean? 

Whewwwww chile this day you really saw people’s internalised racism jump the fuck out like a clown, once it was out there was really no putting it back, some of you were going back and forth like feral animals, anyways what’s my own.

February 21st (BRIT AWARDS) The only person I rewinded, played and repeated was Stormzy’s performance, fuck the rest of Y’all, STORMZY used his performance for the better, called out Theresa May out over the Grenfell Tower monstrosity, the same pRiMe mInIsTeR promising all these promises on Brexit is the same prime minister that said people in Grenfell will be rehoused before Christmas 2017, when I say Brexit is fucked it’s FUCKED. Stormzy’s exact sentences sent shivers down my spine, the vim in his voice, integrity in his face, yoooo my man said “Yo Theresa May, where’s the money for Grenfell, what? You just thought we forgot about Grenfell’ The support he got from what he said was immense, properly warmed my heart♥

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If you still don’t know about Grenfell, Please click here.

This is where everything gets extra juicy…

MARCH 

Leicester, Leicester…LEICESTER

Well well well, March the best month of the year because it’s my birthday month, but this year it was literally the shittest, thank you poobae wherever you are, THANKS! Shitting on someone’s doorstep is beyond me, but actually pushing your trousers down to show your bum, squat and then shit on someone’s doorstep, that’s just all a bit of a sickness within itself, and it didn’t even look like normal shit, some of you university students eat normally, cooked food all the time, and then we get those slobs that go to the half-price man for pizza every day, the poo actually looked like vomit.

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The year really starts here for the TL, because Y’all really started this off, all I wanna know is, who is POOBAE? Deep it! That is someone’s friend, maybe even someone’s misses, someone’s daughter, niece even and that is what you’re doing in the jungle of Leicester, the city where someone’s friends, friend knows someone that knows YOU! Whewww how embarrassing not that embarrassing cause apparently no one knows the culprit, bet someone who’s reading this does though.

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Poobae literally had zero shame, like in a lit up corridor, like…like? How were you not scared that anyone would’ve walked past? How did you not know that my guy’s house doorstep you shitted on that he wasn’t going to come out all within those 2 minutes? Why didn’t you think in your useless mind that their might be cameras about? Why didn’t you think that this could make you viral without you actually going viral because clearly, no one knows who this girl is, sigh one day the truth will come out. 

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And Leicester again, every time I hear about Leicester (Jungle) it’s never anything good, a video always comes out, a fight is always happening, a lot of the motives get locked off and then I see the same continuous people tweet it’s going to be ‘LoCk3d off.

LISTEN TO YOUR MATES BECAUSE SOME OF YOU DON’T KNOW HOW TO BEHAVE AT EVENTS

Whoever knows the person, when your ready let us US as in everyone, who that was, cause wheww Leicester stinks but 10X more now, that there’s shit down the corridors.

Also just because you live in ‘eXPenSiVE’ accommodation doesn’t mean this can’t happen to you (oooo is that shade) IMO 

For those that have seen the video, shall we have catchup to the feral animal that strolls around campus…

For those that haven’t seen the video here you go: 

 

How can you continue living happily, knowing you pooed on my man’s doorstep, what a terrible life..like some girls are mad, but this just topped everything! Man do you lot not know CCTV exists or? This girl has gone into hiding just like Madeline Mccann and I want them both to come out now, man I’m tired.

Please if you’ve never heard of Madeline Mccann, then bmt idk for you, but divert your energy here, if you’d like to know if not continue to scroll big man.

The fact that #poobae became a hashtag will forever make me laugh, I’m taking this one to the grave with me.

APRIL

The way I wish this month in 2018 never existed, not even this month just this person, of course, the whole TL must’ve seen Biskit whine upon his mother, his mumzy, his Marj, the woman that gave birth to him, sigh I wanted to rinse my eyes out with goose fat and make myself blinder than I am. Fammmm I could NOT believe my eyes, his mum must’ve been topic of WhatsApp group chat for weeks on end, never my yout, please. Omds let’s even watch the video again, please no one bring any more stupidness like this because brudda this isn’t it.

 

Please I’ll never forget the fraud he did, even shit fraud, I know him and Micheal (Fake Jamaican) Modern are related, both nigga’s got caught, absolute tomfoolery.

One got caught in his tracks to Paris, the man was queuing up to get checked in, what an L

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And the other one got caught out on Linkedin, sigh 

Anyways…

April really fucked up the drinks market in the UK, SUGAR TAX ON DRINK? I absolutely knew the UK was fucked as soon as my head came out the womb, but it’s gone way past that, dealing with Brexit, there’s even a playlist for Brexit on Spotify called ‘NOW! That’s what I call Brexit’ that’s just how you know no one in England is serious because even I have the playlist, it’s good to cry too when you don’t know what outcome your country is going to, Y’all cry over men and women, I cry because fredo’s went from 5p to 30p just by me blinking, also crying because Fredo probably stacked up enough 30p’s to use Harrods as a corner shop. 

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My corner shop is Sainsbury’s, soon level up to Waitrose though, God has got me.

I must also remind you that Jamie Oliver and his MP mates implemented sugar tax and Jamie Oliver and his fat self really fass up his self and created ‘jERk rICe’ I’m Caribbean and I’ve never in my life heard of Jerk rice in my entire life, been to the islands plenty of times never seen it on one menu, it’s not my culture he’s appropriating, stick to your bangers and mash, better yet drag your restaurants out of debt, small man like Jamie trying to be a big fish in a small pond, relocate.

MAY

I was shleep in this month.

JUNE

June really was THE month, World Cup and Love island all on for over a month, the switch over was timeless, from both aspects the TL moved with the times, love island brought together black twitter and fiat 500 twitter, probably the only time in the year the two got along, personally me I didn’t watch island heavily this year I watched the first two episodes and I really thought everyone was boring, if it was the 2017 love island lot on the 2018 episode it would’ve made more sense, but sigh instead of Kem and Chris we got josh, jack and dem man deya, they didn’t bring many thrills but you didn’t even need to watch to know what was going on, the tweets made it pretty clear I was tweeting like I was fully watching it, nah please I watched a few of the World Cup matches, I even tweeted about the World Cup like I watch football religiously I stopped watching football when I was like 13, since my team hasn’t won anything what’s the fucking point honestly. 

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2022 we go again. 

June even brought the heatwave, the heatwave that nearly killed us all, the heatwave that made you bitches so damn unappreciative, you lot were really saying ‘cAn’T wAiT tiLl wIntEr’ and look now winter is here you’re reversing it and saying ‘sUmMeR 2019 I’M rEadY’ Carnival 2018 was still lit but it made me want to cry because rain for fuck sake FOR FUCK SAKE I wear glasses uno I couldn’t see for most of the day, central line I almost died, central line is the worst line, next year I’m getting a hotel because I’ve had enough. 

Carnival yeah I got so high on Monday I walked from Nottinghill to Kilburn, WALKED.

I only realised because I noticed some places and I was thinking Nah man I actually didn’t walk that far, Y’ALL I checked my map I was in Kilburn, I was really burning. 

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47 MINUTES? YO 2019 carnival let me just stay sober on all accounts.

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WEST TO NORTHWEST, A WHOLE ME THAT IS AN UBER MERCHANT WALKED THAT FAR

Imagine if I drank alcohol on that day too, I would’ve flown there. 

‘BaLi i$ bA!T’ bmt idk how the TL got to this stage but apparently Bali is a bait location, you’re telling me a 20hr trip is bait, some of you think you’re so well known, you’re not, you probably saw a couple man/girls you follow and now calling it a bait location, you know what locations are bait, London, Birmingham, Leicester these trips are a few hours for some of us, but somewhere across the flipping map is bAiT, weirdos. 

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There are bigger issues to worry about like 14th June 2018, one year on from Grenfell, I’m not even going to talk too much on this situation because it’s way too close to my heart, click here if you don’t know about Grenfell yet, but remember what Theresa May said, that everyone would be rehoused by Christmas in 2017, we’re now at the end of 2018 and that promise still hasn’t been granted, it actually makes me sick, all the people that claimed they lived in Grenfell and didn’t, they frauded the whole system out of so much money, I hope they go to hell. 

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JULY

I don’t know what happened in this month uno, I was shleepin

AUGUST

August = A-level results day, my number one favourite month of the year, because honestly, I love seeing people doing well! 

I played my own trick on the TL as well, and some of you that shouldn’t have believed it did, which made me laugh harder than I already was, for those of you that don’t know I pretended for about two years that I went to DMU Leicester, it wasn’t just something I thought of a lot of people used to tell me they saw me on campus which was never true because I’ve never been Leicester in my life, so I decided to go along with it as well so I did the usual of putting LDN🔀DMU in my bio and told everyone I lived in a certain accommodation, I didn’t even tweet much about Leicester, let me drop what I did on the TL below & don’t forget to zoom in. 

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Anyways besides from that, the A-Level results I was seeing was ridiculous and then of course in true TL style Brompton Manor one of the top 6 academies in the country came and shelled down the TL, these lot are ridiculously talented and so so smart, sometimes I wish I was that academically talented but it is what it is, these lot truly deserve it. 

Hmmm what else happened in August of course carnival I mentioned it in the previous month, the usual Caribbean vs Africans, the usual cuss of soca, the usual ‘wHy cAn’t aFrObEaTS bE pLaYed’ the usual Caribbean people have no culture, yet it’s our street party you want to attend, Issa bit of a sticky one still, the usual bottom barrel men that can’t understand a whine is just a whine, we don’t want anything else, the usual you girls wear barely any clothes to carnival so you’ll get touched anyhow, yuck, the usual ‘cArnivAl iS geTtIng lOcked OfF’ every fucking year you lot come out with the same line, shut up man, anyways the usual…I think you lot get it now. 

August what a month. 

SEPTEMBER

Santoriniiiiiii bludclaaaat every day of September why were we seeing the same white walls, day in day out, white walls and calling Santorini bAiT aswell, honestly can you lot not just travel without saying ‘ I don’t want to go there because bare man have been’ anddd? Stay in miserable England then.

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 The topic of the TL on one certain day of September was just mad ‘Men paying for their girlfriends friends drinks on a night out’ I’m convinced some of your friends are broké, you want your man to buy your friends drinks and then the same you would probably be upset when you find out your man has cheated on you with one of your girls, like does your friends not work??? And you girls that go around clubs table hopping for alcohol are bottom barrel that’s so embarrassing, call me ‘pick me’ all you want, I cannot deal with broke behaviour, if you can’t afford something stay home, that’s what I do, I stay home more time I just don’t want to go, I just found the whole topic sad man, I just couldn’t, leaving your house without money and depending on other people absolutely not, there’s so much money to make and you’re out here damaging other people’s pockets for your benefit, yuck man.

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OCTOBER 

October was the month of just giving people clout for free by doing stupid things, fraudbae, loz and Ferdi all in one month, I low-key cried, everyone, deserves their bag but not this way, the only person that deserved their bag was OSH, my guy kept his energy throughout, loz Jesus you could tell she was getting tired from when she appeared on the radio and all the other daytime tv programmes, her voice, tone, melodies none of it was reciprocated after her Instagram video, like it was a bop like 10 times in a row, Ferdi yeah idk how he got a music video it literally makes 0 sense, but I blame you lot because I definitely didn’t entertain him, and MR fraudbae he milked it, man tried to make us believe he got signed to a record label??? He can’t even sing that was autotuned and self-belief, you lot changed your minds with him so quickly when it all came out you were backing the girl, then the girl got the video taken off of YouTube all of a sudden she was doing too much, LeT tHe mAn liVe ah Y’all really do like your agenda. 

I sharkew on the beat as well

 

MY YE IS DIFFERENT TO YOUR YEE

 

 

I would put a video of Ferdi but that guy doesn’t need anymore clout, I’VE HAD ENOUGH!

Y’all can have a picture though 

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This is the man you gassed up, loooool deekheads.

 

If y’all didn’t hear ‘imjustbait’ got his account locked off, I was screaminnnnnn one guy got his account locked off for copyright, some of you was crying like his bag is yours, some of y’all aka me showed no remorse, man does copyright every day and we’re meant to be okay with that, nah g 

 

NOVEMBER & DECEMBER

Let me be real I  wasn’t really active during these months, no matter what my screen time said, Apple needs to remove that feature because it makes me seem like an addict when that ain’t it.

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Besides that the arguments, I’ve seen from these two months, fuck the rest of the year these LAST TWO MONTHS, oh my God, when I ain’t tweeting I’m watching, I’m watching hard because Ion need to tweet every gaddamn day, and the way you can get involved in crossfire on Twitter, I’ve had my fair share this year, we go again next year!

APPARENTLY, people have been sleeping on floors at parties? 

£30 on food for a month? That’s your own

Y’all bringing the same retired topics to the TL, can girls and guys be just friends? Keep ya dick in ya pants, and keep the flirting at 0 then you can one hunna be friends.

I saw friendships go to shit in a matter of tweets

Y’all have an opinion then put unpopular in front of it, have your opinion and move brudda, the only thing that’s unpopular is you

People bringing their personal issues to the TL then cry when everyone gets involved? Common sense where hoe??

Black Twitter arguing all year ALL YEAR EVERYDAY, then asking each other ‘wHaT ParTY iSlAnd i$ EveRYoNe g0inG T0o’ 

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Screaming support black businesses yet you ask your mates for a discount, where’s the logic? 

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Following people but not liking them or what they tweet?

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I’ve seen a lot of bitterness this year, you want people to be successful but not ‘that’ successful

You flipping weirdo’s keep meeting people at events and want to come to the timeline and be like ‘Twitter do your thing’ why couldn’t you do your thing and secure the number while you were with them? Must we do everything!

Thanking brands when you bought their items with your own money?? Ok

Hating people that do fraud, yet you want half price dominoes, half price Canada goose?

Still wondering what doctor would call you and let you know you’re terminally ill?

Comparing spacnation to Greenleaf and wondering how they haven’t ended up on panorama?

Y’ALL Y’all Y’all, Sunday 23rd December, from midnight straight through till 7am the TL was popping so badly we were trending! Normally on nights like these, I would’ve been asleep but clever me must’ve predicted the future because I was really doing a night shift at work, so my phone was with me 24s! I saw everything from the Instagram lives to snapchat maps to look at Shoreditch back to twitter for the roundups, the tweets from everyone was HE-LARI-OUS, you see how people were saying earlier on in the year ‘yOu mAndEm aIn’T 3vEn fUnny l!kE that’ vice Versa for the girls, EVERYONE was funny, like at one point I was so close to wetting myself but I managed to get to the toilet just in time, Ivorian doll vs Renee, you see me I was on Renee side the whole time, because my girl was on crud, from when I saw my girl tying her shoes on Instagram live at like 2am in the morning, I knew she was ready to ride out, she was in the Uber-like 5 mins later, the whole time I was watching I was like ‘shit den’ she went from wherever she was to Shoreditch, girl offed her wig shouting ‘VANESSA WHERE ARE YEWWW’ I felt the integrity through my screen, my phone was even shaking probably my hands but whatever! I even saw man in the snapchats saying ‘she actually came’ huh? Keep up, it was definitely a dat ting when I saw people driving to Shoreditch just to witness beef, pls if I wasn’t at work I would’ve been onsight tew, Renee actually went out in the winter from what I saw a top on, even offed her wig from then I was like SHIT THIS IS SARIOUSSSSS STUFF, but quick question, where was the culprit once she got to said location???? Obviously now she wasn’t there, so next thing I saw R was in her next Uber to her estate, banging down doors that’s how real opps ride out when I saw she got into the flat LOOOOOOOOL, curtains but was my man there? No, sigh

One thing I don’t get is, Vanessa, put her address on snapchat and wasn’t expecting anyone to go to her, like? Make it make sense, not even your address your parents address, you see those mad antics there could never be me, first of all, I don’t fight, second of all I would’ve cleared out my bank account and gave Renee all my p’s because??? I ain’t trying to look in the mirror every day to see my ears where my mouth is, my mouth where my nose it, listen NO TENK YOU, God made me this way I ain’t trying to go through plastic surgery to correct it all

‘y0u dOn’t KnOw wHeRe I cAme FroM’ now the whole of snap, insta, twitter maybe even the Facebook oldies do too hun, I’d be so pissed spending all that time doing up Uber for you not to be found. 

And you Instagram mongrels we saw you making accounts to join in with us, you ain’t one of us, you’re not one of us, stay on Instagram and laugh 

Video Graphical Evidence my favourite

None of the videos is in order and frankly, I really don’t care.

Renee abeg if you want me to delete this @ me on a friendly ting, cause I’m even shaking typing this.

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This is really the December breakdown, including Ramz who caught a stray bullet I don’t know how, but let my guy secure his bag, one musician that hasn’t bothered anyone and you lot were talking about exposing sex tape if my man is gay, what’s your own? If he’s not that still ain’t our business, you people that create accounts just to draw someone out are dun out ere, it’s a sickness.

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*Small little update, but apparently a few men on the TL like their asses nyamed out and licked like a chicken bone, one little bird told me Omar likes it👀 each to their own to be honest, getting shitfaced in their own time👅*

TWITTER SCANDALS

One certain platform has been dropping me TEA, Y’all it was piping hot!

@UKTLTEA ARE THE FUCKING PLUGS✔

I’m only mentioning the TOP 11

  • POOBAE: Leicester Epidemic 
  • £380
  • Fraud Bae (New Money Records) LOOOOOL
  • Oloni triggered by under 25 Twitter with the Black Twitter edition video
  • Rentbae
  • London to Manny
  • Radar Radio 
  • Nunu vs Esther
  • 72 Hour Twitter argument 
  • Visabae
  • Renee Vs Vanessa

I’m finally at the end of my last blog of 2018, I’m not sure what you lot was expecting a draw out? Nah I’m good luv enjoy! 

*UPDATE*

This was never meant to be a draw out thing, but yooo Y’all wanted a Christmas day throwdown hopefully you’ve got it

2018 has been more negative for me than positive but I’m ready to spin that around and leave it all behind, and hopefully, Y’all can spin your negatives around as well , I’ve seen things about me on Twitter of course I have but more time I really don’t care what you nobodies have to say, I ‘ve seen disgusting comments from my so-called ex-friends and I wish y’all the best with that attitude, people always think they know you, no one knows me other than me and I learn things about me every day, besides you spiteful hoes, I’ve had a lot of mental breakdowns but I haven’t had one for nearly a month I’m kinda weirded out by it but also thankful to the most high up.

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If you follow me, I was going to quit blogging altogether at one stage but it’s one of the only things I’m good at apart from triggering the TL, you see me I’m sticking at it because in January ‘Teekstheblogger’ is three years old, I’m thankful for the hate because it can only make me stronger, the hate I got just because I was writing this was eye-opening got called jobless and all sorts but it was my career that made me late writing this, ok thanks.

I’ve got so many goals to reach next year and I’m reaching them all in Jesus name, after each goal I complete I’ll be poppin borrels, some people like to talk about their goals, me? No thanks, the evil eye is so real and I’ve never seen so much evil eye until this year, but you’ll know when I’ve completed them, just keep an eye out if you’re interested.

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The biggest thanks I have to give is to the people who continue to support me, gives me ideas on what to write, engages with my polls on social media, the constant pushes I get to continue what I do, I’ve reached statistics I never knew a person like me would reach, literally from the bottom of my heart my thanks and love will always be there and I’ll never forget who’s supported me♦

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2019

2019 really smells like money, there’s so much money to be made it’s ridiculous one day I want to be making stupid money but until then I’ll be doing laps for Lizzy until she chases me.

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Personally, I think 2019 will be a huge year for us all on here, believe in your dream and work for it.

Culture Shifting

Barrier-Breaking 

Making the impossible possible

We going harder next year!

2019, we move.

Teeks x

 

COLOURISM, RACISM & DISCRIMINATION

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You would’ve thought in 2018 the whole ‘Light skinned vs dark skinned’ argument would’ve calmed down not died out just calmed down a tad, but nope it continues with full force every day, Twitter is where I see everything and I’ve seen the same topic upon my TL for a solid two months, being engulfed by black twitter with the same debate/argument every day gets extremely tiring, I was doing Twitter fingers for about a month to get my point across but getting your point across on such a large scale social site is near enough impossible, my thought process is if I can’t get my opinion out why not listen to others so that’s exactly what I did I held two separate polls called ‘Colourism question thread‘ & ‘Colourism question thread part 2‘ The first one I did it didn’t do too well on votes but I realised I was very uninclusive to other races which weren’t fair I really only did questions for the black community when colourism really involves more races than the black community, kindly enough a girl named @yazzwilson kindly messaged me and we were talking on whatsapp for days about colourism and honestly she opened my mind to things I never knew about and she helped me come up with part two of the thread. Part two did so much better than part one but really I involved everyone this time and the number of votes the questions received was crazy! From part one through to part two I received over 400 replies I really tried to reply to everyone but I swear my fingers were literally about to drop off and it’s not like I reply to someone and the conversation is done I had to constantly go to and fro, listen you twitter famous people I don’t know how you do it.

Hearing different opinions and for the person to then further explain themselves is what I need, I don’t really like to take sides too often if my mindset was how it was two years ago I would’ve been having arguments for a month, but I’ve learnt to accept that everyone is different and their thought processes are also different, this world was never meant to be perfect. There were a few views I saw and I was thinking in the back of my mind ‘how the fuck can you be so backwards’ but hey their mind is certainly not mine and vice Versa.

There were a few people I really had to raise my uneven eyebrows at, I had a fair few people in my mentions stating ‘facts’ that were clearly their own opinions, I’m sorry but your opinions are not facts and if that’s what you think then I’m sorry for your mindset because that is just the worst thing ever, I really asked some people for evidence on where is this a fact and they came back with nothing.

I have many subtopics that I want to talk on and shed light on, some are good exposure and some not too good but hey this is a touchy topic and life is not a bed of roses.

But first let me talk about myself and my own personal experiences, how I got shaped for my own life.

My Personal Experiences 

While I was growing up I lived in two separate locations one of them being London and the other one in a town not too far from London probably about 45 mins away, your probably thinking how does that even work? Well both of my parents were born and bred in London, my mum moved out of London before I was born but we also had a family house that was still there, the biggest reason was London is too bloody expensive everytime you breathe money gets deducted out of your account, but we always went back forth between two locations and my dad never moved out of London so I grew up around West London & North West London I know them equally well as each other. I wasn’t born there I was born in the town unfortunately but this has shaped who I am today. 

Town life as a black girl, there is a small minority of black people here, the area I live in is profoundly white, on my street, there is just one other black family, and in my area probably about 5-10 black families, my area I mean my side of the town because believe it or not towns do have different sections. 

It’s only when I go on nights out in town which is hardly ever, is that I see more black people, but it’s only from the past few years I’ve seen more blacks since they built a university campus here.

All my friends from around here are white, in my school, I had a few black friends but switching to city life all my friends are black. Weird right?

But I have been teased a lot by black people because I have friends who are white or any other skin tone, and it’s really weird like I never grew up with that mindset, no one can ever hinder my thought process of who I choose to spend my time with, like their my friends, some of these people I’ve grown up with, but it bothered me that my own race people who shout about diversity all day every day and they spun around and laughed at me.

I have white family, mixed raced cousins, like I shall never understand the mindset that people possess of having different skin tone friends. I’ve generally posted on my snapchat of my older mixed cousins and clearly stating their my cousins and people will still come back and ask ‘who are they, are they your family‘ like I don’t know if some people are generally dumb, but its big 2018 diversity is coming into families it’s been in families for a very long time.

Interracial Relationships

“They are here to stay”

Let’s get one thing straight, interracial doesn’t mean just black and white, it can be anything, it seems to centre on just two races, please there are more races than just those two. 

It doesn’t just centre on sex, there are some people that literally get with dark-skinned men or women to get ‘mixed raced’ children, which I find sick and it has to be a mental illness for you wanting to breed someone for the outcome of mixed children. 

Are Asian girls more submissive? Are black girls freakier? Who has the bigger penis latina men or black men? All these perpetuate stereotypes and turn all of these ideas into experiments. We aren’t bloody science experiments, we are human love who you want for who they are, not for anything else.

There’s a fine line between admiration and fetishization, being seen as a fetish other than a person is disgusting like interracial doesn’t mean a better life. Admire other races as they have a lot to offer.

For the love of God just because someone dates outside of their race it doesn’t mean they hate the people, like allow people to have a preference, have your preference and keep it moving don’t have a preference then knock the people in your own race down.

I saw a horrendous tweet on just this on the 22nd February 2018, honestly, I was horrified, dishearted and angry.

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The beauty to come from interracial relationships and all relationships is that you learn you become open-minded to learn about the other person, their beliefs, mindset, goals, background and a whole different perspective for you. 

I never really deeped the fact that people have been racist let alone a colourist towards me until I did both of those threads, when the threads were done and I was scrolling back through the replies I kept on saying to myself ‘that’s happened to me before’ or ‘ I never knew that was happening on my own doorstep’ As I was growing up in school from year 7 straight through to year 11 I never even knew what I was experiencing maybe because I got into so much trouble in them years everything must’ve gone up and over my head.

I watched one movie called Holes while I was in year 9/10/11 I have no idea, I don’t even know when I finished school. 

Besides that I loved this film so much I even begged my mum to buy me the book, I got it if you’ve never seen the movie I suggest you watch it. 

There was one scene that really captured me which was about interracial relationships, in the book Holes Sam a black man falls in love with Kate a white woman, in that time it was still unheard of, long story short Sam got killed.

 

There were times in school where I would get picked on as a student by teachers and me being a bad child in school had nothing to do with it, there was one time I was in my school main playground minding my business chatting with my friends and I literally turned around to go to the canteen to grab food I was on my way there and a teacher told me to come to her so me being me I rolled my eyes and went over, she started hassling me over my skirt being to ‘short’ I can’t lie it was short but that’s how I felt comfortable and this skirt wasn’t one of those that it would look good being long, in school you follow the fashion ok, so anyways next thing you know I was being ushered off to her office and when I got there all I was hearing was “don’t you feel uncomfortable like that” but my argument back was there was plenty of other girls that had their skirts way shorter than mine to the point if they bent over you would see their vaginas I’m not kidding, I basically got sent home to change, but the point is there were white/mixed girls walking past us while I was out getting lectured about my skirt, honestly I was so mad I went home got changed stayed home for like 2 hours and came back half way into the last lesson.

There was another thing I hated about school was when people touched my hair, I HATE when my hair gets touched and white people especially would say “ew whys your hair so greasy/creamy” um maybe just maybe so it stays moisturised as a black girl having our type of hair is a pain finding a hairstyle, no one in my school had wigs it was either natural, weave or braids. After my hair kept on getting touched by disgusting bacterial invested hands I had to get braids to reduce all the consistent touching. I’m pretty sure my school went through a phase about haircuts and hairstyles like no wacky colours or haircuts, I really had to have regular shmegular black hair while white/light skinned were allowed any hair colour or haircut possible, it was literally ridiculous.

I’ll have to say personally I don’t think I went to one of those schools where there that much more whites than blacks it certainly wasn’t even, all the races that attended pretty much balanced out the equation, if it was teachers compared on skin tone there was certainly way more whites than blacks actually there was like 5 black teachers, but in opinion it didn’t bother me at all who educated me, it was just the way they’d deal with certain situations.

There were many times where I should’ve been kicked out but having the right people on your side helped me a whole lot more, I was one of those kids where if anyone did anything wrong I’d automatically reply “is it because I’m black?” That one sentence will have people flustered because there is no comeback.

But I’m grown now and still growing, and I still have a lot more to learn.

Recently (I lied) about two years ago I went to Spain on my first holiday alone no parents just three of my friends, when I tell you I’m laid back I’m so laid back, one of my friends who shan’t be named kept on noticing stuff that would fly over my head, one time we were walking to the beach and I kid you not there was a swatchsticka on the floor fully spray painted, and then on the way back it was gone, can’t lie I didn’t even see it I was too busy enjoying myself, we also took a few days to go to the town and my friend was like these people are racist I fully didn’t know what she was talking about but when we got back she was like “People were staring at us” I didn’t know how to take it I was really not bothered at all like I fully don’t know what’s wrong me like I’m the most unbothered person ever.

I would just like to say that’s the end of my personal stories but I’ll probably be doing up Esther (BkchatLDN) and relating back to any and everything while I’m talking on subtopics.

Black skin vs Light skin, the number of tweets I saw on this one topic please I can’t some of you lot are bitter.

But one thing I can’t seem to get my head around is “You’re attractive as a black girl” what does this mean I’ve heard it too many times where someone has said it to me and honestly I was spinning. I’ve been reciting the same line in my head for months and I just can’t figure it out I’ve heard that for no other race, personally I think when people say that, they must think us black girls are bottom of the barrel within the human race because if we go back to slavery days our ancestors got treated like shit on the bottom of these slave masters shoes, I will never seem to understand actually I don’t think there is a possible explanation of why there is so much hate on the black/darker skin tones, it’s really a skin tone people act like we chose, like colour selection is a thing. Every day I’m disheartened but more importantly, I end up getting desensitised because where is the end for all of this?

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We all know what got the Twitter timeline going a few weeks ago and that was the tweet that got retweeted by somebody on the TL which brought a tweet back from 2013 and into 2018.

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At first, I was thinking “this bitch”, but I thought about it and compared it to one of the questions in my thread, some of you who voted probably are dark skinned so what Stefflon Don said isn’t entirely false.

“I just want to be lighter” I’m convinced at least a few dark skinned girls must’ve voted this option because what other skin tones would want to go lighter???

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This doesn’t mean I agree with what Stefflon Don did at all because it was a serious low blow she and her PR team should’ve been smarter and removed this tweet years ago but tweets can also resurface.

She didn’t handle this situation correctly at all telling people to suck their mums, what sort of role model?

But Stefflon Don, what were you doing at 21?

Hair

Our pride and joy

My hair is honestly my pride and joy I’m either natural or has braids, personally, I don’t like weave or wig at all I’ve tried them both once and honestly never again.

But for you other girls that wear weave or wig you continue to slay but also please let your natural hair rest.

I’m sure I can speak for a majority of black girls that we do not like getting our hair touched at all, the blood, sweat and tears that go into looking after it, finding certified hair vendors, hairdressers, products, tying it up every night.

Hairdressers for me, I don’t let anyone do my hair I only go to two women and they really do God’s work.

Hair products honestly rip holes through my bank account like it’s so expensive, I can’t shop in regular shmegular boot’s or Superdrug for hair products, I have to go to Black/Asian owned businesses, they’re the only shops that will sell the products I need.

Experimenting with black hair it can really go two ways very well or extremely bad, a few years back I tried to relax my hair God forbid the outcome the hairdresser made my hair drop out, it actually took a good 3 years for parts of my hair to grow back, the growth is what kills me it takes such a long time, that’s why I hate my hair being touched.

We’re always fighting our hair edges, sometimes I want a slick ponytail or even a cute bun, but the hairs along my hairline do not allow that to happen at all, it’s a constant battle.

Wash Day, this is actually war three hours to comb out my hair, wash, condition & shampoo about 1/2 times, add in leave in conditioner let the conditioner soak into my hair for a good hour, separate my hair into four sections to then comb it out again! ( I hardly blow dry my hair) once its all combed through I proceed to straighten it either with a straightening brush as these aren’t particularly hot and heat damage is a killer or actual straighteners (once in a blue moon).

My point is I’ve received aggro in particular from white girls saying how their hair is difficult to deal with, honestly, it’s nothing compared to what us black or even mixed girls have to deal with.

The modelling industry (I wrote about this briefly in my last blog) but the model world we’d open magazines, watch adverts on televisions/billboards, see highlights from fashion weeks and still see a high number of lighter skinned people fulfilling these jobs when we also have darker skinned models that wanted the same dream to break out within the industry as well.

As a black girl, I know what colours work well with my skin tone and last year orange and yellow was popping on my skin tone, on lighter tones no offence but it defiantly didn’t do there skin any justice. The fashion world want to keep up with trends but are unexclusive on who they involve, first we were dealing with how you have to look a certain way, weight issues but we’ve always been dealing with skin tone and it’s just blatant racism, black people hardly ever feature on front covers of major magazine covers. Black model Jourdan Dunn told The Guardian back in 2013 that ” people in the industry say if you have a black face on the cover of a magazine it won’t sell.”

Recently I literally just learnt how bad the colourism problems were in Asia and the people that were quote tweeting saying how Asia was the worst place to come across anything to do with the colour I was like”Yeah whatever” but little did I know you lot was actually right. From what I’ve heard I now understand I know black people that have gone to China and they’d constantly get stared at and prodded by Chinese people, what’s that about? But you know what doesn’t surprise me as China are quite limited as they’re a communist country.

But first, let me talk about Vogue India and why they cast Kendall Jenner instead of an actual Indian model, it actually made no sense it was nonsense, it spun me even more that Vogue India did that, not Vogue New York, can’t lie but that sounds like self-hate, how can you not cast someone from your own country and as a 10 year anniversary to your magazine that’s what you wanted to do, completely flabbergasted. Kendall Jenner, I respected her but she really accepted this job, she ACCEPTED THE JOB, her manager let her accept the job as in Kris Jenner you let her accept it, Kendall is 100% American nothing else, how can you go so wrong with something so simple. Vogue really thought they were not going to receive heavy backlash, Kendall thought, bitch you thought

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Update: 04/03/18

Someone, please tell me why I’m seeing this family again with Vogue India, it’s like the backlash last time was not enough, Kim Kardashian is American with Armenian heritage, did anyone see me mention anything to do with Indian heritage? No neither did I, I can’t figure out why they keep taking jobs because they damn well know they’ll get done for cultural appropriation, and better yet Vogue India switched off their comments on all of Kim’s photo’s because they know as well what they’re doing, these people make me so enraged. 

Kim Kardashian looks stunning in all these photo’s but girl this is not your culture at all, you’re American Armenian, there’s no Vogue in Armenia go create it there and model for them, you celebrities cry when you get backlash as if you didn’t create it yourself.

Vogue India you lot are dumb and disgustingly stupid, your whole magazine doesn’t even represent India, it represents everywhere but India, you hire stylists that will happily play dress up with American models and dress them up, you have a whole country of models to pick from yet you play pick n mix with the rest of the world. Get a grip.

The women and men still striding down the runways are all still profoundly white, diversity isn’t a trend it’s certainly here to stay forever. Many models have been rejected because of skin colour or apparently “we have too many black girls”. Every race has different features, why on earth would you not want new unique features instead everyone is still looking at the same blonde haired blue eyes or brunettes.

Change it up

Models

Duckie Thot is Sudanese-Australian and was a runner-up on Australia’s next top model and is now making her way to be an international model. Duckie Thot revealed that she struggled to get her coins down under and decided to relocate to New York City, she was also worried about being in a country that didn’t promote black models.

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Shaun Ross is of African-American descent and was born in the Bronx, as Ross was growing up he received a lot of discrimination as he was albino, he was bullied for years and called names such as ‘powder’ ‘white-out’ and ‘Casper’. Ross was discovered on YouTube and switched over to the fashion Industry when he was just 16 years old. Before modelling Ross was a dancer and appeared in music videos like ‘Pretty Hurts’ ‘Party’ by Beyoncé and a few more.

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

Joel Mignott is a 19-year-old model &  an aspiring DJ originally from Leeds. Signed to AMCK, Joel has travelled the world with his job & modelled for names such as Viviene Westwood, Adidas and Diesel. Joel has experienced setbacks within his career as people always wonders what race he is, Joel finds the issues of where to fall in.

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Destiny Owusu is Virginia born and of Ghanian descent, Owusu first started her modelling career at 22 years old. Owusu has experienced many setbacks being a black model, she stated “We have to work 10 times harder, because with agencies as long as they have that one token black girl, that’s all they want.” Owusu also said that if she could change one thing in the industry it would be diversity. Owusu’s African beauty & melanin movement has inspired many others to feel comfortable in the skin they’re in, she created the hashtag #isyourmelaninonfleek she has paved the way to becoming influential with no representation. 

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Khoudia Diop is Senegalese, Diop was teased as a child because of her dark skin but after moving to Paris at age 15, she was approached consistently with the suggestion she’d be a supermodel. In 2016 Diop moved to New York as was featured in the ‘Coloured girls project’ this led to Diop becoming Instagram famous and appeared in advertising for French cosmetics brand ‘Makeup forever’.

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Ashely Chew is 25 and the brain behind the movement #blackmodelsmatter, Chew is a model, activist and fashion & arts passionate, who fights every day for her rights. Chew was asked if she had ever been rejected from a casting her simple reply was “I’m lighter toned with green eyes” Chew has also struggled with modelling as her hair isn’t what is expected, they’ll ask her to straighten her hair or say they already have a girl that looks like her, Chew also stated “It’s almost like being too light for the black castings and being too dark for regular casting.”

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Winnie Harlow is a Canadian fashion model, spokesperson & activist. Winnie gained prominence as a contestant on ‘America’s next top model’ while having the skin condition vitiligo, while she was growing up Winnie was victimised and continuously got called names such as ‘cow’ or ‘zebra’ etc, she is of Jamaican ancestry. Winnie was diagnosed with Chronic skin condition characterized by depigmentation of portions of the skin. All the abuse she received Winnie considered Suicide.

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Personally, if people accepted that people of different skin tones and ethnic backgrounds were different and learned we all possess different qualities and look different a lot of problems from this century wouldn’t arise, a colour should no way determine what you can and can’t have, there’s space for everyone on this scene people just need to learn how to use all these features to their advantage. 

Update: 01/03/2018

I only saw these photo’s on this day, but 2018 black people being on the cover of major magazine’s we are certainly getting somewhere as a race.

Update: 07/03/18

I told Y’all.

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Bleaching  

Skin lightening/bleaching is a procedure to make dark areas of your skin lighter or to achieve a naturally lighter skin tone. Melanin is the pigment that gives skin it’s colour and protects it from the sun.

Bleaching never have and never will understand why you would want to go lighter like it’s so normalised now there are whole procedures to go lighter, the results aren’t even certain and the side effects you can get, do you people not fear God.

If you consider going lighter then please read and educate yourselves on what you’re doing to your skin.

Possible side effects
  • Skin Irritation/Inflammation
  • Burning sensation
  • Itchy & Flaky skin
What else could go wrong?
  • Skin turning to light/dark
  • Thinning of the skin
  • Visible blood vessels on the skin
  • Scarring
  • Kidney/liver damage
  • Abnormalities in a newborn baby

Honestly, the side effects sound normal to me, all those unknown ingredients you would happily put on your skin it’s slightly worrying.

But when I read the ‘what else could go wrong’ I’m shocked! People will generally go lighter with the risk of their health.

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“Health before wealth”

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Update: 07/03/18

Look what I found, these celebrities think you lot are weird, period.

50 shades of melanin

Yet only a few makeup companies can actually get it right with the foundations and concealers, there’s really 50 shades of melanin yet most makeup brands give a pick n mix of about 10! 

Personally, I don’t wear a lot of makeup at all, it’s effort to put on and take off! But that doesn’t mean I don’t see whats going on within, as an outsider looking in the makeup industry has messed up big time. 

I fully don’t know whats wrong with the people in this industry, some of them have their head screwed on others are just bloody PR stunters.

Now I’m going to educate you about the unexclusive and inclusive makeup brands.

Inclusive

  • Fenty Beauty 
  • Bobbi Brown
  • MAC
  • Maybelline
  • Nars

Robyn Rhianna Fenty, she really has done that! After seeing a void in the makeup market Rhianna really experimented with the best of the best in beauty. 40 shades of foundation and still plans to bring out more, not only is it inclusive it’s affordable.

Those two factors definitely lured me in, normally I would never leave my house for a launch but as soon as Fenty Beauty landed in the UK I know I had to try it, so I gave it three weeks before I went to Harvey Nichols, I really thought bitch I thought that there would be no queues, me and my friend were sadly mistaken. We turn up I kid you not the queue was three hours long so yeah I joined I certainly was not turning around like an idiot and going home! Fast forward now I get close to the front and finally let in, so of course, I bought the Foundation and KILLAWATT highlighter and they were my best purchases of 2017.

Bobbi Brown is No.1 leading makeup brands in the world for the past two decades Brown has worked on creating products to suit all skin tones. It’s the newest foundation called ‘Skin long wear weightless foundation’ contains 30 diverse colour options. The brand is available in over 60 countries and at 17 exclusive stores including Harrods, Macy’s, Selfridges etc and 75 freestanding stores. In SoHo London, Bobbi Brown recently opened a store it looks like a normal store upstairs but downstairs they hold masterclasses.

MAC is a leading professional makeup brand, co-founded by Frank Toskan. Toskan realised the lack of suitable colours and textures needed to maximize performance, Mac celebrates diversity and states on their ‘who are we’ page on their website that ‘We are for ALL ages, ALL races, ALL genders’.

Maybelline the company was created by a 19-year-old entrepreneur named Thomas Lyle Williams in 1915. Williams noticed his older sister ‘Mabel‘ applying vaseline and coal to her eyebrows to give them a darker fuller look. Williams adapted it with a chemistry set and produced a product sold locally called ‘Lash brow-Ine’ Fast forward now in addition to its expanding range Maybelline added on the ‘Fit me’ range which includes 40 shades.

Nars is a French Cosmetics and skincare company founded by makeup artist and photographer Francois Nars in 1994. In 2017 Nars announced that despite being against animal testing, it was a requirement for them to sell in China. Nars continues to grow it’s shade collection the brand’s new ‘natural radiant longwear foundation’ is available in 33 shades with a various amount of medium to deep tones to choose from.

Unexclusive

  • Kylie Jenner Cosmetics 
  • KKW Beauty
  • Lancome 
  • Physicians Formula
  • Benefit

Let me be straight I love the Kardashians/Jenners but they’ve pulled some horrendous stunts lately.

Kylie Jenner Cosmetics, none of her products bring the wow factor, her whole range has no originality for example ‘Kylighter’ all she did was add in her first two letters of her name to try and give it authenticity. Kylie recently bought out a makeup brush set costing $360 and had the audacity AUDACITY to compare her brand to high-end luxury brands such as Kevyn Aucoin, MAC etc, she received a substantial amount of backlash towards her twitter post announcing this, I wasn’t surprised they looked like paint brushes and lord they fray, no one wants to put makeup on with a brush that frays. 

Scam Brushes

 

KKW Beauty, ah with Kim Kardashians makeup line I really I just can’t, just look and tell me is that not clay?

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The other three please just look at the shade range and ask yourself “In big 2018 where is the diversity?”

Advertisement 

PR stunts: A planned event to attract the public attention to the event organisers or event

PR stunts are what gets everyone talking, H&M, Dove if you really believe they didn’t know what they were doing then I’m not sorry but you’re deluded.

These companies know what they’re doing, they love our arguments, the more we talk and type about their brand, the more money they’re receiving.

The H&M ad was genius apart from the smashing up of the stores in America, the creative team knew what they were doing, whoever passed that and allowed it to be drawn up and distributed those people are honestly laughing at us, even though they had to pull it from the stores in the end, the more we spoke, the more we typed and included them in our tweets or on any social media they were receiving money, and frankly that is all they care about. People were still going to shop their regardless of colour, they did an 80% off sale in some countries. The mother of the child she was going to get paid regardless so of course she allowed it and told everyone to ‘shut up’ in the process, imagine if she declined that opportunity…

The Dove advert when they showed a black woman turn into a white woman after using Dove body lotion, Dove responded with “We missed the mark” they didn’t miss the mark they knew exactly what they were doing.

When I first saw both of these adverts I thought it was a bluff but it was real, honestly, if I had a company that was known worldwide I’d be dropping stunts every other week, because when you lot speak and type they just earned money! Social media is where the money is, the sooner some of you realise that the more woke you’ll be.

The Nike Advert, that is one advert I can’t fault Nike really did that, included the London music scene and sports all in one advert! The only people that faulted this ad was really the Asians, like really who did you guys want Nike to include in the ad??? And the worst thing is you guys were screaming at black people like we were the ones that created, directed and published the advert it isn’t our fault, you lot had so much energy, redirect that to Nike headquarters.

London really used everything that makes ‘London Culture’

  • Barbershops
  • Corner shops
  • Santander Bikes
  • Chicken shops
  • DJ 
  • Black Cabs 
  • The Underground
  • Bipolar Weather

They used our slang they interpreted everything that is us and what makes a Londoner.

Music Industry & Music video ideologies

Matthew Knowles said “The music industry must stop ignoring singers with darker skin”

The music industry is doing so well in the UK with light/white men/girls and even dark-skinned men, but what about the dark skinned girls? Is the issue darker than colourism, could it be sexism within the race? To me, it just doesn’t make any logical sense how can the men of the same skin tone be doing so well but the ladies are literally fighting and scrambling to the top.

The Music videos are a different ball game, why are there so many light/white skinned females in music videos now and hardly any dark-skinned females, the UK music scene will not be diverse until it rectifies this problem.

Blitter

Ah Blitter the time where the Twitter purge began and everyone transferred to Blitter known as (Black Twitter)

Honestly, Blitter went downhill so swiftly and quickly, the app had no originality used the exact same features from Twitter, the interface didn’t change at all except there’s was 100 times shitter than Twitter. The owner of the social media application was absolutely crazy at the start I thought yeah he’s alright because really Twitter headquarters don’t interact with us all they want to do is suspend accounts all day but Pat the guy that created the app interacted with his supporters, sounds like a swell app right?

Oh, and by the way the app is racist and I have clear evidence to show this.

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Deep the photographic evidence this guy has to be ill.

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Racist/Discriminative Brands 

Amazon 

Wycon

Shea Moisture

Versace

Tommy Hilfiger

Marc Jacobs

American Eagle

Kendall & Kylie 

BooHoo

Straight up facts, these have all been broadcasted on the news and social media.

Amazon recently had to pull a product of off their shelves which a third party user was selling which was products like baby bibs, mugs and T-shirts were all up for grabs, it had a saying printed on it that said: “Slavery gets shit done”. The offensive merchandise got removed and Amazon released a statement saying “It wasn’t me” but really in truth it was them because don’t you have any guidelines on your site or a process that you should go through to get a product posted.

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Wycon an Italian beauty brand got into hot water internationally when they released a nail polish named ‘Thick as a nigga’ what colour was that meant to represent? Oh yeah of course black. After being called out Wycon never actually apologised they just changed all their nail polishes to numbers.

They further released a statement, honestly, you’re going to laugh about what they said queue the laughter ” We’re sorry this post triggered these types of reactions, every colour from our gel collections is ‘Inspired’ with a ‘Cheerful‘ attitude and a ‘Pinch‘ of naivety.”

Complete and utter bullshit.

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Shea Moisture in the spring of 2017 black beauty brand makes the greatest stumble of all time (that’s my opinion) in their haircare commercial. A black woman with long stringy hair was compared to two white women who also lamented their hair struggle. 

Some black women including me felt like shea moisture was turning their backs on their real audience to an audience that literally doesn’t know about struggle upon their head tops.

Shea Moisture admitted they ‘Fucked up‘ and also announced that Unilever is acquiring it, wonder what this means for future advertisements.

The one ad that I saw that actually made no common sense.

Versace

‘Versace Versace, Medusa head on me like I’m Illuminati’

In 2016 a former Versace employee vowed to sue the luxury retailer, accusing the company of discrimination for its use of a secret code they use when a black person enters the store which alerts staff and security. The former employee who was hired in the San Francisco store 2016 said the code ‘D410’ alerts when someone of black skin tone enters and is then followed around the store. The code is also the brand’s label for a black t-shirt. According to TMZ, the man was fired after telling his employer he was African American.

Tommy Hilfiger 

“My passion for music has always inspired my designs”

Tommy Hilfiger was accused of being racist when a ‘Chain Letter’ went round of his saying if he knew minorities were going to wear his clothes he would’ve never made them and wishes they would stop wearing them. How lovely.

In 2014, however, Hilfiger did say that while hip-hop’s adoption of his clothing ‘Fueled growth‘ for his label, he’s disappointed at the urban demographic ‘Took us away from our roots‘ So is the word urban black? 

Marc Jacobs 

” I always find beauty in things that are odd & imperfect- they are much more interesting”

During 2016’s NYFW Marc Jacobs felt a wrath of Twitter backlash as he sent predominately white models down the runway in dreadlocks, which many felt was a blatant appropriation of black culture. 

Jacobs response: ” all who cry ‘cultural appropriation’ or whatever nonsense about any race or skin colour wearing their hair in a particular style or manner – funny how you don’t criticize women of colour for straightening their hair” Ouch.

But wait is straightening only for white people? Because I’m pretty sure when I was growing up I used a flat iron comb, but hey you know what if that’s what Jacobs wanted to bring to the table than so be it.

A few days later he issued an apology on his Instagram page.

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American Eagle

“Don’t quack like a duck, soar like an eagle”

In December 2017 people were outraged at American Eagle who was selling bracelets that looked like slave shackle cuffs.

The public started sharing photo’s of the bracelets on December 11th, by December 12th they issued out an apology.

American Eagle pulled the product from the shelves but a few days later the public still found them in stores up and down the USA.

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Kendall + Kylie

“It’s always the people that know the least about you, that want to judge you the most”

2017 Kendall & Kylie Jenner were in hot water with the public again for plastering their faces over popular music icons.

After controversy and heavy backlash, Kendall & Kylie pulled the t-shirts from their site, the shirts were put on their website June 28th, 2017 and removed the very next day, the sisters put their faces over the likes of Biggie, 2pac and The Doors. 

They were even issued with a lawsuit as their faces ruined the trademark of The Doors.

They issued an apology.

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Boohoo/Nasty Gal

Before being sold to BooHoo (If BooHoo minded their business they wouldn’t have been in this predicament) Nasty Gal went under fire for appropriating black culture with a $50 faux leather do-rag.

The discontinued product sparked outrage in 2014 after users on Twitter questioned if Nasty Gal knew the true function of a do-rag, which is to protect and maintain natural hairstyles.

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Blackface

“Blackface is a form of theatrical makeup used predominantly by non-black performers to represent a black person” 

Blackface was either a layer of burnt cork, a layer of cocoa butter or black grease paint, in the early years they painted on red lips to resemble a clown, costumes were either swallowtail coats, striped hats and top hats. 

Minstrel shows entertainment imitated black music, dance and imitated ‘plantation talk’. The shows featured some of the most ‘ugliest‘ African Americans from 1840- 1890, minstrel shows were the most popular form of entertainment in America.

The Golliwog is a black fictional character that resembles the exact same features as blackface.

It is the 21st Century 2018 and blackface and golliwogs still exist to this day, Blackface started in the 18th century over 200 years ago and us black people are getting resembled a doll and we still get taken for idiots by fellow white people. We are not clowns, we are not your entertainment at all.

Careers/Work Paths

“Ever felt like you haven’t been accepted because of your skin colour? Yeah same”

Some workplaces just aren’t diverse enough, to be honest, I’ve never let this stop me from getting to where I want to be, but I’ve had a good few arguments along the way because I’m always adding my signature somewhere to guidelines like ‘We accept everyone no matter what background or race your from‘ And most of the time it ends up complete and utter bullshit. I’ve been discriminated at work so many times, I’ve had managers all up in my space talking down to me like I’m a child and stupid, I’m far from that, did I ever report any of these incidents? No I did not my mindset back then and kind of still now is that the white man won’t listen and in my case it’s true, I’d report something and it will get shoved in the bin, a white person will report the exact same thing and of course it becomes a priority! Am I an idiot? 50/50 really. I wanted to quit some of these jobs so bad but no one will ever get in the way of my money and qualifications absolutely impossible.

There was one job I absolutely adored, but I started to hate it once we got new management, there was one event I had to work at over 1000 + people attended this event, my manager treated me like a slave like I actually felt like a slave, it was a 15 hour shift from the last minute planning to sort out big preparations, I value my job description and honestly the things he made me do, certainly werent in my job description, and oh yes I’m one of those people if it isn’t in my job description then piss off I ain’t doing it, I did as I was told for about 12 hours the last three hours my anger was boiling and honestly my anger is not something to play with because once I flip it’s game over. I’m 100% sure he was doing it on purpose long story short I flipped and got so angry I cried and traded some very nasty words towards my manager, I told my mum and she went ballistic because I never cry I also quit my job.

It was the fact I was the only black person doing the dirty work everyone was chilling, watching the boxing event, I was going back and forth like a flipping circus animal.

Update: 08/03/18

Honestly, I’m extremely upset & extremely infuriated about what I witnessed on Twitter 07/03/18 “Fuck the blacks” I felt extremely sorry for the girl that had to put up with this as she was the only black person on that floor, it is a hate crime! I know racism still goes on till this day, but it’s not even on a sly it was full on and I’m highly disgusted by Nottingham Trent Uni, they responded far too late for my liking, if this was dealt with earlier it probably wouldn’t of reached the likes of social media but I’m glad it did!

Now have a look at some more evidence and opinions:

 

Nottingham Trent University, look what you have done, you’ve ruined the reputation of your own university for not responding in the correct time frame.

How can this be reported on Monday and you want to come and issue a response 3 days later, the young woman had to bring the situation to social media’s attention just so it could receive an uproar so you lot could respond! You would’ve dusted this under the carpet like other issues, which I have further evidence on.

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All these universities claim they have ‘support’ but you don’t, a situation similar to this happened at De Montfort University in Leicester (DMU). DMU I definitely didn’t forget about you lot.

You universities love ruining your reputation, either accommodate every single race or close them down. 

Oh and the Daily Mail, I see how you were very quick to swoop down and collect the news and write your article.

Listen to me, you lot are not slick in the slightest.

Daily Mail keep the same energy! You hate us one week and the next week you want to write a supporting article. 

Sorry but I don’t like you at all.

If this was my situation, I can’t lie I wouldn’t hold back at all the same attitude you people think black people have ‘The angry black woman’ I’d unleash it 100% paint me with that brush, wouldn’t care less don’t be racist and not expect a backlash!

If a group of black boys were to walk past, those white men would’ve ducked their heads, a young black girl on her own in her accommodation had to experience this.

I could never imagine getting through all the stages of getting to university and then a situation like this occurs.

I understand steps have now been taken as arrests have been made & suspensions have been enforced, but that is not enough! Their courses need to be terminated, named and shamed, faces need to be shown, in the real world things like this cannot run at all.

A few of my opinions:

If you follow me you should know, that I was literally going for anyone with a silly opinion.

@RufaroChisango_  I stand by you, and so do a majority of Twitter.

Interesting Questions

Why is it acceptable for black women to openly prefer dark skin men over light skin men, but black men can’t openly prefer light skin women over dark skin women?
Do you pick friends based on skin tone?

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Does dark-skinned privilege exist?

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Jorja Smith

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All races answer…Do you like your skin tone? If no why not?
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If you could would you change your skin tone?

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Do you think people use colourism as a scapegoat for the fact their ugly?
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Why is it always the ugly girls feel a type of way, when it comes to colourism why do people relate to men’s preferences and not a social construct?

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Now to all the tweets where I just couldn’t figure out where to add them in but all equally important as each other.

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To everyone that enjoyed my thread and took time out to say, I certainly didn’t miss you out and I’m ever so grateful.

My Personal Hypothetical

Personally, to me, it all boils down to racism, colourism and discrimination.

If those three things didn’t exist this world wouldn’t be so twisted, looking at slavery it’s so immorally incorrect and I will never understand how you can punish someone on the colour of skin, if I had the option to change the skin tone I 100% wouldn’t if I have to take all the abuse that comes with it, then so be it. I’m black and I’m so proud some of the history associated with the colour black is disheartening, but our ancestors fought for our freedom! 

Civil rights activist Rosa Parks 1913-2005, refused to surrender her seat to a white passenger on a segregated Montgomery bus which spurred on the 381-day boycott. This helped launch nationwide efforts to end segregation of public facilities. The city of Montgomery had no other choice but to lift the law requiring segregation on public buses. Rosa Parks did that.

Social Activist and Baptist minister, Martin Luther King Jr led the civil right’s movement from the mid-1950’s until his death by assassination in 1968. 

 King received the Nobel peace prize in 1964 along with several other honours, assassinated in 1968 he still lives on to be one of the most influential African American leaders in history.

“I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the colour of their skin but by the content of their character.”  — Martin Luther King, Jr. / “I Have A Dream” speech, August 28, 1963

South African Activist and former president Nelson Mandela 1918-2013 helped bring an end to apartheid and has been a global advocate for human rights. A member of the African National Congress party beginning in the 1940s, he was a leader of both peaceful protests and armed resistance against the white minority’s oppressive regime in a racially divided South Africa. This manoeuvre landed Mandela in jail for nearly three decades, but he was the face of the apartheid movement. Mandela was released from jail in 1990 and participated in the eradication of apartheid and became the first black president of South Africa.

Antiapartheid: The anti-apartheid movement, originally known as the boycott movement, was a British Organisation that was at the centre of the international movement opposing South Africa’s system of supporting South Africa’s non-whites.

Honestly, we have so many more people but these were honestly the greatest people in my opinion! They lived and died by the movement and they will always live on!

I wrote something a few months ago and hopefully, it can sum up my conclusion because I am absolutely lost for words.

All colour, ethnicity & race is beautiful. 

Black is beautiful.

Mixed Raced is beautiful.

Brown is beautiful.

White is beautiful.

We all slay every day, don’t we?

Don’t get it twisted we’re all ugly in someone’s eyes, but we’re all beautiful in someone else’s right? 

We as humans weren’t made for everyone, we don’t get accepted by everyone but that’s okay because that’s life isn’t it? Or wait am I wrong is that just my conception of my life lessons, or is it the god damn truth that everyone should bloody well listen too?

Oh, I don’t know what is life, what is beautiful, what the hell is ugly, who created these words, was it YOU, did you give us your unwanted opinions? 

My own words 

This one is very short as I just didn’t know what I was writing, but in this day and age I see a lot of slander  on race, colour, ethnicity the whole bloody lot, this hatred for other people will never stop, no race is better than one, no ethnicity is more powerful than the other and no colour is more superior, God created every single one of us differently so no one has the right to say anyone is ugly or disgusting. But I honestly do believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and that not everyone will find us all beautiful but that’s okay, God created us all with different features so we can all individually stand out and be unique. 

I’m pretty sure no one would like to be the exact same as someone else, everyone’s personality is completely different, we all get angry differently, for example, I get angry in the speed of sound while others can just keep their cool and act as if everything is a walk in the park. But don’t be scared of being different, act out, go crazy, experiment with things, do you! 

Regarding my cover photo, I wanted to outline all the different features everyone possesses whether your black, white, pink, orange or purple, everyone is different in their own way, shape and form.
Hope everyone has seen my vision and liked it. 

Teeks X

 

 

 

 

The Creatives Industry

 

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This is an inspired blog from Twitter of course where else, the creatives industry, especially within the black community, is lacking dramatically if you think otherwise you’re clearly deluded, but if you have an opinion then have it all for freedom of speech and all of that, I have seen some companies thrive and do well, they have the followers, content and most importantly the consistency, but some of you in this industry are bitter.

The creatives going to be included:

THE MUSIC INDUSTRY

YOUTUBERS

(ART)ISTS

GRAPHIC DESIGNERS

SOCIAL MEDIA INFLUENCERS

FASHION DESIGNERS

MODELS

I’ve been scrolling through Twitter as I do and, just found tweets that correlated heavily and so many people are woke on this situation but what can be done on something that is literally spiralling out of control at a rapid rate.

The creative sector currently employs 3 million people, the number of jobs in creative arts and design rose by 5 % in 2016 and the growth of the sector is expected to carry on rising.

THE MUSIC INDUSTRY

“The scene is so fake.” @Jamzldnkmt

The music scene has so much potential within the realm of possibilities, however, there are too many people who don’t know what category they belong to at all, it is starting to look like a travesty.

Grime is getting mixed up with drill, singers are hopping into the drill scene, Afrobeats and Bashment are clashing continuously, some people won’t collaborate at all, the females within the scene it’s too small, it’s a shambles.

We have people coming on the scene taking the mick, like the You tuber Vanbanter, some people really have gassed him up for what reason, you’re giving attention to people that don’t need it yet there’s a rapper/singer out there looking for the same attention but their not getting it.

We as a collective need to stop shouting ‘We need to get this person signed’ please we cannot come like that American guy @IamAkademiks he’s made the likes of ‘boonk’ famous, he entertains all these dumb people for retweets and likes, this stupidness cannot come and land itself in the UK.

The way some people overhype their friends in this industry is ludicrous, especially when the song is wham. Some music that gets put out it’s like some of you are deaf, the beats are first class until some of you spit over the beat or even sing and it just ruins the whole aura.

I’ve personally been sent songs to review and I honestly enjoy doing it and giving my opinion and feedback where needed, please if your looking for your song to be reviewed get someone out of your circle to do so, because lies can really take shit music far, also when advice is given don’t get defensive because the music industry is far from a walk in the park, it can be a dream come true or a nightmare about to begin.

” The lack of professionalism shown by UK musicians is genuinely baffling” @Or_cle

“From when some of them can’t take criticism, no way they are going to be professional”  @StevenChap

Personally I think the UK creatives industry is lacking professionalism, you’ll make a comment about someone’s music and the way they’ll come for you like nobody’s business it is insane, the music is for the people, doesn’t matter what audience but your projecting towards us, so if your music is shit we should be able to project our voices without constant issues, I’ve made comments about people’s music and even though I can’t sing/ rap whatever, I can filter between worthy and unworthy music, I’ve seen musicians personally search for people’s @’s on Twitter to look for comments, honestly it’s too sad, either do your thing and accept the good and bad comments and improve or move from the scene and give someone else a chance, there’s enough space for everyone in the scene but it’s how you get noticed.

Ramz- Barking, I admit from the start I didn’t like this song only because to me the lyrics actually made no logical sense to me ” I might link my ting from Barking 7am in the morning” can’t lie that bar spun me into another dimension, who’s linking who at 7am? Not even PM a whole AM, but I started hearing this tune daily, then hourly I added it to one of my YouTube playlists and that was it for me, it’s so catchy like ‘Addison Lee’ or ‘Man’s not hot’ I feel like it’s very similar to Addison Lee well the video scene, but either than that Ramz is taking the UK charts by storm, the highest charting rap in the UK in 3 years, if that’s not an accomplishment then I don’t know what is, the hate I’ve seen Ramz receive though it’s actually horrible fair enough your allowed to have your opinion but you lot are deep, every bit of hate he’s received he’s bounced back he even apologised to someone because they said his song was shit, he continued to say that he can only do better and improve.

Ramz is only 20, from South London honestly you people always want people from ends to blow but you won’t even give this artist a time of day, South London is on the map again, you people hating did the exact same thing with Not3s & Michael Dapaah honestly give it a rest.

Stop dividing our race and support your black brothers & sisters.

Real Recognise Real”

On the week beginning 08/01/18 I decided to collect some information, here are my results:

Personally, I think it’s lacking both, some people are really professional and some people really need a tutorial on how to come correct.

Creativity is lacking a lot, we have people spitting bars about hood life when they live a good quiet life.

Recently there was a dispute on the TL between Dimzy and his self because I’m pretty sure Michael Dapaah didn’t do anything purposely wrong.

For anyone that didn’t quite understand what was going on here is what I got out of it so ‘Man’s not hot’ went viral over 177 million hits on YouTube, Mr Dapaah has flown around the world performing his new hit, now where it got sticky is 67 said that Mr Dapaah should’ve given them more exposure as it was their beat which went with their song ‘Let’s lurk’ which was released a year ago and received 12 million hits, but Twitter being Twitter people clearly knew where the beat originally came from and it was 86, not being funny but I didn’t see 86 complain, I would’ve bought royalties to the beat, but Michael Dapaah really grabbed his opportunity and I’m mad happy for him.

No losses just lessons” ~ @23Unofficial

 

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Within the black community with females I’m not seeing a lot in the industry, I really think it’s harder for black females to break out, always have to look a certain way, certain sound, honestly it’s easier for males.

There are so many black females that deserve exposure, so I’ll list a few of my favourites:

@Aprilmusic ‘Turn away’

@RebeccaWinter_x ‘Dance with me’

@Nallie_SheTrap ‘Which gyal man’

@DeliciaEmusic ‘Your mine’

@Bleuautumn New Single ‘Good girl’ behind the scenes footage

@MissLottieJade – ‘Oh well’

 

21/01/18 I conducted more questions on Twitter, I swear I was meant to ask five questions but honestly I saw people answering them so I was like to myself “Yo this is fun lets just carry it on”forty-nine questions later I rounded it up and told everyone I was tired, I was not tired but honestly I got some spectacular results, I’ll list a few of the questions down below along with responses.

Who’s your favourite artist and why?

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Who’s the hardest drill artist out there?

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K-Trap, Headie One was definitely winning.

Skengdo X AM & Loski, these three were very close behind.

 

Who’s the hardest rapper out there?

Which artists do you think will blow this year? (UK) 

What are the negatives & positives of the music industry?

Is drill a bad influence on the younger generation?

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As I know a few of you won’t have twitter here’s a link to the full question thread ‘Creatives Thread’

Take a look around you, different views on the same topic shared daily.

I listen to Soundcloud a lot, it’s the point when I get bored of Apple Music, and the artists from Soundcloud that I want on Apple Music just aren’t there, so I have to swap! However Soundcloud has the mixes I want to hear or just different rappers or singers, I’ve discovered a lot of people through there and there’s honestly so many people that deserve exposure or a few minutes out of someone’s day to help them blow, so I’ll list a few of mine.

Wisdom – Addicted 

Dok- Stressin me

Bruvahood – Certain man

Teks Sinatra – Letter to my unborn 

Ratlin- More money, more problems 

Dinero- crush it 

Mischief- Uckerz Badderz 

Sketch- Nights in the trap

Tolu mogul- We came a long way 

Dolo brassi- Round here 

Ambush X SP Montiz- Extra 

Tex- Cold love & Cold love (part 2)

Richlove- All for you 

Tisrome- Nigga like me 

100KAY- Class A

Central C- Line

OfficiallySVR- Perspective

Renne- Addicted Ft Lottie Jade

Nics – EPsode 1: Recognise

I’m going to post all my Soundcloud playlists below, please some of them don’t make sense though, I just add music to any list but one day, not this year I’ll rearrange them.

Supposed Grime Playlist

Mix & Mash

Strictly Drill

++Destination Unkwn++

Album Produced by @LWRNCE1 & @PRVXMITI

Sound Engineered, mixed & mastered by @LWRNCE1

Featuring: @MAGSDBF @KINGKYLA @MULANROUGE

Released 22/01/18

If you know what’s good for you, you’ll stream/ buy this album, available on all platforms

Links will be below:

Apple Music

Amazon

Google Play

Tidal

Spotify

 

One Take

@Only1Tizz

#PEN2CHALLENGE

@VezzyCrooks

Looking for a new collaboration?

Have a listen to both & please follow their socials.

YOUTUBERS

YouTubers are literally the second worst in my category, I’ve seen that some of them literally converse with the same people, videos with the same people and when a new person jumps on the scene and asks for simple advice a majority of them are just shut down, everyone wants to ‘win’ so badly but won’t help each other prosper, this behaviour is very foul. Personally, I’ve wanted to join YouTube for time but how the scene is at the moment I might just have to take a seat until people start to come correct, the only people that can change it is us, not just creatives but everyone.

 

We’ve had the likes of Oloni ( Award-winning sex & relationships blogger) try and help pave the way for new YouTubers, on the 17/01/18 @Oloni created a thread prompting new YouTubers to share their links, the tweet itself gained over 2000+ replies and it helped a lot of people gain subscribers.

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Personally, I thought this was an incredible idea, so many people got involved even people I followed who I never knew had YouTube tagged themselves in and shared.

“This really isn’t my market but 2018 black British YouTubers, please start collaborating more with each other, not this cliquey thing, bring each other up and support each other and get your coins, lastly be genuine about it too, don’t try work with someone to get your clout up.” @Ghostbanks ( Sauce Ctrl)

This is so correct to me, Ghost Banks is a creative himself and even sees the industry itself for what it really is, this whole clique nonsense needs to get cancelled, redirected and teleported back to 2017.

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From @Ghostbanks, @ProdbyMk & @shotbykaiz they’ve all come together to create:  “Wave Like Me”

                                                       Here’s a small snippet, Full video on YouTube

 Wave Like Me

Video Vixens you’re up next, you vixens can stay in the YouTube category because some of you are either front and centre of just in the background making some sort of movement, some of you vixens make me laugh, the music videos I’ve watched and seen some of these girls in with no purpose to be there just make me scream.

The one music video I’ve watched for me to gather an opinion is ‘Sun goes down’ by Belly Squad X Section Boyz if you haven’t then please click the link and watch the girls, to me the girls look like they actually don’t want to be there at all, they’re all bopping to different beats, it’s actually a mess, however I have nothing against these girls clearly because I don’t know them, however the song is levels.

 

21/01/18 Regarding my results on video vixens with the ‘Sun goes down’ visuals I found two people who had more of the same opinion as me.

What music video do you think has the most useless video vixens?

 

(ART)ISTS

The art I’ve seen on my timeline over the past few years I’m honestly amazed, I could never draw as a kid let alone in art class at school, my stickmen looked like they were on crack! Being an artist is a real talent, the work, hours, reaching standards, getting noticed looks like a lot of work but must be so rewarding sharing your work with the world.

There are only a five people that consistently catch my eye, so if I was you check them out:

@Pricisionart

@SelluBanya1

@KirzArt

@PedroAB_

@KashARTwork

GRAPHIC DESIGNERS

One word

Talented.

I can’t even draw on paint, I have no patience and to do this I know you have to have a lot of that.

There are only two graphic designers I actually really like or pay attention too and will defiantly be using their services in the coming months.

Joe (@Unfamiliarjoe) Owner of (www.thefilterplug.com)

The one thing filter plug is clearly known for is snapchat filters, you’re probably thinking but you can get filters from snapchat.

If you are thinking that yes you’re correct but I’m sorry if you buy your filters from snapchat you’re very mad.

First of all snapchat filters from snapchat are boring and basic looking, I tested out the service for myself and let me tell you never again, I compared areas and the pricing goes up depending on your geographical area, imagine paying more for a service because you live in London or less because you live in the countryside, sorry but I don’t think so.

The same snapchat that wanted to charge us for certain filters or that one where it would cost 79p for a replay a REPLAY, come say I miss my a snap by accident and I have to pay to see it again, I certainly cannot come and kill myself, your probably thinking but 79p isn’t a lot of money, the way I miss people’s snaps by skipping them when they get sent to me I’d be spending £10 in one sitting.

Why buy Geo – filters from snap chat when you can go to ( The filter plug) get one specially made for any occasion and they’re all unique.

Want a Snapchat filter? Want a logo? Business Card? The filter plug is your new go-to!

(@Whybleach) Owner of (dbwb.co.uk)

Design your own package? You now know where to go.

 

SOCIAL MEDIA INFLUENCERS

19/01/18 Today I read a news article regarding Elle Darby a social media influencer, she focuses mostly on fitness, lifestyle, travel & beauty. Elle Darby sent an email to a luxury hotel in Dublin requesting a 5 night free stay in exchange for exposure, the hotel turned around and declined this request, the hotel owner Paul Stenson released the email and rubbed out the influencers name but it wasn’t done properly, you could slyly see her second name, once people recognised who it was Elle received a substantial amount of backlash from the public.

 

Images from ( @d_alesheaMUA)

My personal opinion of all of this, I’m livid and the news article also gave me brain damage for a few hours, this girl is absolutely insane, so Elle Darby thought because she is a social media influencer she could get a free stay in exchange for some poxy exposure, the hotel is luxury and she offered exposure, some of you social media influencers think your the dog’s bollocks, couple thousand followers and requesting free shit, look at the economy and you want to be asking for FREE stuff.

Half of you buy your followers for what reason I will never work out, saying you have a business through your following count but baby please who are you promoting too if half of them are fake/ghost?

The entitlement you ‘social media influencers’ think your worthy of is ridiculous, don’t forget you’re normal people as well, wouldn’t catch me emailing brands asking for collaborations it would have to be the other way round.

Moving on slightly some of you ‘social media influencers’ who ask for people to pay for promotions, fair enough everyone makes’s their money in various ways, but it’s you lot that someone will pay you and then you say you’ll promote and you don’t do it are you sick? And please some of you aren’t slick people can defiantly tell the difference between paid and genuine promotion, paid you lot don’t put in any effort, this singing/rapping venture whatever some people are into, is actually their grind and for it not to be promoted properly while it’s been paid for, I’d really fight someone.

I’ve seen someone with 300k followers promote a song and it got a marga 20 likes & 30 retweets, I was so confused.

I first joined Twitter seven years ago, honestly back in the day I had every social media platform there was, I wanted to be in with the times and didn’t want to be left behind, at the start I did not understand twitter at all, likes, retweets, DM ( I didn’t know what ‘DM’ stood for, I left twitter and came back in 2012 when Twitter was in it’s prime, honestly all my tweets from when I first joined are still around, I tweeted the stupidest shit ever, however I learnt for myself how to work twitter, I gained followers and continued that growth, I really learnt what a simple retweet could do I was so astonished, I’ve made friendships, business contacts all through just socialising, honestly I would’ve never started a blog if my followers weren’t up but all my followers are authentic, and if you deem yourself to be a ‘social media influencer’ yours should be too can’t be selling dreams.

 

FASHION DESIGNERS

 

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Hello…hi, this tweet honestly made me scream with laughter because it’s so true, some of you slap your logo on a cheap product and sell it for triple the price, I’m sorry I’ll happily shop from the white man, people are honestly creating logo’s and slapping them here, there and everywhere they want to call themselves a fashion designer/graphic designer, sorry but it doesn’t work like that at all, it’s actually very cheeky.

I’ve seen people personally work consistently on a craft day in day out, fashion designers are perfectionists, imagine throwing a design away because there’s something just not right but you can’t figure out what.

Perfect your craft and graft effortlessly till you know it’s something you want to see someone styling out.

I’ve only seen a few black clothing lines I’d buy off and they are:

EL Velvet

Grind shine LDN

Gone Club

 

MODELS

“Beautiful” “Hold that pose” “Work the camera” “Ok now I want you to take off your clothes” “Sorry but you’re not tall enough for the runway, maybe commercial” “You’re too big to model, slim down maybe” “This is your career” “Do this shoot, then you can have fun”

Any of these sayings sound familiar to you?

I’ve been to a few shoots myself, some of them were fun, some not so much, the not so fun ones where you had to do outfit changes in minutes, going to and from hair and makeup, back on the set, honestly it’s tiring I’ve had to give it a rest.

The modelling industry, one of the hardest industries to get into, having to look a certain way, specific heights, you have to have the LOOK! I don’t know what the ‘look’ is but I guess agencies know what they are looking for and what the new in thing is!

Personally from looking at the modelling industry a few years ago to now, it’s come a long way, plus size models did not exist, it was a size 4-8 or nothing, I found that a bit absurd I really use to think who could fit into a size 4, well it’s me I used to be able to, let me repeat USED to, not anymore now I’m a mere size 6-8, I used to hate being so small everyday “Your anorexic”  more time it was just a high metabolism that I had/have no control over, but a few years later I’m overly thankful as I can eat whatever I want without worrying about gaining weight.

In addition to the modelling industry it’s improving dramatically I never thought I would see change, but its happening the first plus-sized model was Emme Aronson, Emme is a body positive supermodel that has paved the way for the woman to know that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.

Nevertheless, beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

I want to dedicate this part of my blog to Harry Uzoka.

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Our black brother is no longer with us and he never deserved what happened to him.

Jehovah Jireh, there is none like you. Everyday we want to praise & worship your glorious name. Today we weep at the death of our friends, family, or loved ones, but blessed father, we can rest assured knowing we can find comfort and peace within you, in the midst of our tears & our grief. Lord, we shout your praises, because you have turned our mourning into dancing.” 

Peace go with you.

God’s quiet within the noise

God’s hope within the uncertainty

God’s rest with the toil

God’s presence within your soul

Peace go with you”

May his soul rest in perfect peace.

 

There is a lot of platforms that are for sure getting the scene seen more, and they’re honestly my favourites pages, which are:

Make sure to follow them up!

At long last I have come to the end of writing out this blog, I’ve really enjoyed writing this, hopefully, I have opened a few eyes on what is really going on in the creatives industry too many people get thrown under the bus and honestly it needs to stop.

People need to learn to come together and support each other I’ve screamed about support in previous blogs and this will be the last one (I’m probably lying, don’t mind me) I’ll be mentioning it in, it’s ridiculous what I’ve been seeing lately, support your brothers and sisters we are all striving for the top and to be successful.

Please continue to support each other there is enough space at the top for everyone, there’s no reason to knock someone’s grind, opinions are allowed but be careful how you go about it.

Real rap needs to come back onto the scene. Real hood storytellers none of this fake shit.

We need to see more versatility, flows, melodies, lyricism, we need deliverance.

We need experimental music, so far we have Afro- trap, Afro beats, we need more, being different is what the scene needs. UK music will and shall always prosper.

We need fresh faces. We need to give fresh talent a chance.

Anyone in the creatives section needs a strong team behind them binding them together.

We can’t do this shit on our own, support is vital.

But it will only prosper if we allow it too, there’s too much negativity in each and every sector, it can only move forward if we accept it.

I actually enjoyed doing the question thread, first off I really needed those responses and I loved seeing everyone come together with their opinions everything was so positive as in there was no arguments started there was minor debates and just agreements, that’s what I like to see.

I’ve tried to feature as many people as I could within this blog, all @’s our included I’m not a person where I’ll drop names out unlike some.

2018, we are out here chasing dreams, aspire to inspire before we expire” ~Teeks

Thank you to everyone who continues to support I really appreciate it.
See you in my next one.
Teeks X

 

Goodbye 2017.

2017-2018

I’ve decided to write a blog about Twitter and other social sites but mostly Twitter because what’s gone down on the Twitter TL this year has made me laugh and made me scream literally, the clap backs I’ve seen some people receive its made me grip my non-existent chest in agony, I’m that person that will just scroll and scroll till I find the root of the argument or sometimes I’ll make a quick two’s two comments then dip out again and say in my head “That’s your problem”

THE WHOLE SAGA

‘Come collect your man Whitney’
‘Sayphilzki’ (Clothing line grafted though) but did she say philzki?
‘SpAcNaTiOn’ (Gifty & The Skengman)
‘Men are trash’ (continued)
‘BkchatLDN’ (Nunu admitting she’s been eating out on her reds)
‘ Caribbean vs Africans’
‘Bashment vs Afrobeats ( “If you don’t play Afrobeats at your wedding, what are you going to play?”
‘Curious cat’ (Found out my boyfriend was bullying me about my weight)
Nyash vs breasts
Portugal Invasion ( Common £200 flights deetsed, fake money, fake garms)
Black girls hating on black girls (Zero sense)
“I spent over £3000 on driving lessons”
25+ Twitter
“You people still beat people from the TL”
“Your body count still looking like the yellow pages”

“Twitter Purge”

The twitter purge was the weirdest thing to come about, people’s accounts were getting suspended left, right and centre ( but mine didn’t though, too blessed to be stressed) and it only targeted UK accounts, normally if you get suspended you get a warning and shown the tweet that caused ‘offence’ which no one seemed to get, it was more black twitter I saw got kicked off and that’s why everyone moved to ‘Blitter’ which is black twitter supposedly well it is, but I don’t have time for people calling me a racist, the amount of white people that got reported and suspended within a few minutes I’m sorry but it was actually funny just shows how fast and vigilant people really are. I had a Blitter account from day dot so as soon as Blitter came out I made an account, the app was dry as the Sahara desert, but I gave it a chance and kept the app as decoration, as soon as the purge began I swapped to my other twitter account and started following bare people just in case my main went down, I went to Blitter because twitter was boring without the regular accounts, chatting shit, making jokes or just generally there existing, but really I knew Blitter was not going to last for long, the Americans thought they ran shit on there like honestly they did not, they were arguing with us over dumb shit like “AmErIcA Is BeTtEr ThAn THe Uk” WOT the fuck??? Donald Duck is running your country and they wanted to argue I think the fuck not.

I understand Blitter was just starting off but Bebo looked more advanced than them, once it all died down, people emigrated back to Twitter, thank fuck.

I don’t think twitter understood the full effects of what they did, some of us just have followers for absolutely no reason at all, but a majority of us are building businesses through them, some people are Youtubers, bloggers all different kinds of content creators and tell people to follow them on all their socials, but oh no twitter completely obliterated them with no thought, there were people who even appealed for their accounts back and got completely the opposite, do you know how hard it is to get all these followers let alone get them back after you’ve been suspended, when it did happen I was like “minor they’ll be back” but they never came back with their normal account, the TL was dead for a good two weeks, the most boring two weeks of social media history.

There’s way more, If I’ve missed any key ones then let me know.

Listen when I say the TL has been a mess it’s been a real mess, but I’ve seen the TL in positive light as well, like The Grenfell tower inferno, yo I’m not saying the tower burning down is positive but it’s how the community on social media and of social media came together to push for things to change, if it wasn’t for the communities coming together we would’ve continued to be lied to, we would’ve never found out the truth, no one would be getting rehoused, if it wasn’t for us the government would’ve allowed it to crash and burn even more, there are so many things that would’ve went tits up if it wasn’t for the likes of social media spreading it so quickly then we would be living under a cloud of doubt, another example is looking at the Kenneka Jenkins story, smart people would’ve seen straight away by looking at evidence that the hotel staff and friends murdered her there was enough CCTV footage to come to this conclusion, but there’s always a dumb few that couldn’t quite get to the point, they’d always question something completely obvious and make their own stupid assumptions, the hashtag for this one girl was trending for weeks upon weeks, the hypothesis’s some people were thinking off were very realistic, the police shut down the case in minutes of hearing it, we as social media have kept this girls spirit alive and remembered.

Social media is very powerful and it can either make you or break you, if you have an upcoming project utilise all the tools that are now available to you, back in the days all these social sites did not exist at all.

Twitter ( Launched July 15th, 2006, 330 million users)
Periscope ( Launched 26th March 2015, 10 + million accounts)
Vine ( Launched January 2013, 40 million users)
Facebook ( Launched February 4th, 2004, 2 billion users)
Snapchat ( Launched September 2011, 20 million photos shared per day, 6 billion videos per day, 166 million active users)
Instagram ( Launched October 6th, 2010, 800 million users)
Wordpress ( Launched May 27th, 2003, 74 + million, 6 new WordPress posts per second)
Tumblr ( Launched February 19th, 2007, hosts over 375 million blogs, 555 million monthly visitors)
Crowd fire ( 21st February 2010, used by 10 + million Twitter and Instagram users)
Hoot suite ( Launched December 2008, 15 + million users)
YouTube ( Launched 14 February 2005, 1 billion active users monthly, YouTube has a production space in LA which is free to use if you have 10,000 + subscribers, if you search ‘do the Harlem shake on YouTube, the page itself will shake)

So what are you lot thinking after reading that, hmm let me guess ‘What’s with all these fucking numbers” “Too much information to remember” I agree it’s a lot of figures but they are facts and you should utilise them especially if your in the creatives section, inhale and exhale this information on what you want to do, download these apps especially crowd fire and hoot suite.

Crowdfire ( Millions of creators, for example, Youtubers, bloggers, artists, freelancers etc can grow their audience through this app, it’s all about marketing and knowing who your audience is and people to follow, but it also has the helpful tool of who the cheeky fuckers who ( follow, unfollow then have the cheek to follow back) (compose tweets and post later including media as well)

Hoot suite ( Social media management, with hoot suite you can manage all your socials through one application, no one likes to keep switching apps when it’s all built into one) I also use this app to write my tweets and then set times for them to be posted, one thing people normally think is that I sit on social media all day especially Twitter, 60% of my tweets are grafted hours or days before then I’ll set a time and date to post the other 40% is things like replies or tweets that are in the moment that have to be posted there and then.

I’m guessing you know what the rest of the social sites are, if not then please just look it up.

Overall I think 2017 has gone not too badly I’ve seen people on my TL grafting, collecting money, having months full of bookings and that’s what I like to see and hear for example singers, rappers, content creators, snap filter creators, Youtubers, photographers the grind really never stops and I’m looking forward to what everyone gets up to in 2018, I want to see everyone winning.

For me personally, 2017 has been a whirlwind of events, at the beginning of the year I went ghost not fully but I just wasn’t interested in a lot of people my social life was crazy from the beginning of 2016 – the beginning of 2017 my phone was buzzing every few seconds I was in so many group chats on WhatsApp, snapchat, twitter, so I just went silent after March, work and home was my life, I didn’t like going out too much or interacting, in the middle of 2017 I hit a low point like really low, but I managed to get through it alone, no one helped me people who I thought I was close to didn’t realise but in the end it was okay because I’ve been coping on my own for a long time.

I met a few girls on a group chat who are honestly like long lost sisters because we honestly don’t live any close distance together, we are all up and down the map, a few of us have met up and it honestly felt like I’ve known these people all my life, their people you can open up to, well for me anyways and whatever opinion they give it’s honest and that’s what I live for, no sugar coated bullshit just straight up honesty and just love.

But now it’s the end of the year looking back I’ve achieved a lot maybe one thing I didn’t complete but I know by God’s grace I’ll get there next year.

I’m thankful for who’s entered my life whether it’s through social media or just out and about, I’m grateful to myself for who I’ve dropped out, I don’t do toxic people in my life but I’m lucky to be blessed with a life.

I’ve got a few projects up my sleeve this year that I’ll be speaking into existence inside my house and not anywhere else because I know people like to see downfall well hahaha suckers I won’t be falling down anywhere except maybe on New Years night, but apart from that no I’ll continue to rise up and prosper.

Ooooo one more thing if you saw my previous pinned tweet on Twitter I asked for help to get to 4,000 views, well on the 21st December I asked Twitter and other sites but indeed mostly Twitter to help me get to 4,000 views before the end of the December on that day I was on 3,676 and now I’m on 4200 views which I’m forever grateful for, getting to 4000 views in less than 2 days makes my end of year goal for next year which is 10,000 views before the end of the year which is highly possible.

“Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 day book, write a good one”

Goodbye 2017.

Be good to us 2018.

Teeks

Black & Asian Mental Health

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I’ve decided I’ll write about mental health as it’s something I suffer with and so do so many other people, I feel mental health is brushed under the carpet just because it’s not physical, your health is your health and it’s so important. I was meant to start writing this blog just over a week ago but I’ve been in a dark place myself, and I kept on blowing it off and kept saying I’ll write it another day, well 2 weeks before release date here I am twiddling my thumbs on how I should come about this topic as it is very sensitive subject to talk on.

I’ve been in a dark place for weeks probably months even and I can’t even figure out the reason why, I’ve been to the doctors countless amount of times on my physical health and haven’t even got simple health, on my mental health I can’t bring myself to do it, the fact that I could get sectioned or giving medication to make me feel ‘better’ I really don’t have time for that, I have times where my mood flips uncontrollably and it’s so hard to control it, I have times where I can’t go to sleep past 6 am, I have days where I get sleep paralysis the first few times I was really freaking out, then it continued to happen regularly and I got used to it, there were times it would get so bad I would get dragged down my bed, no bullshit people would say go read the bible?? What’s that going to do? Sleep paralysis is not a fun situation to be in at all, the only thing in your body that will move is your eyes, it’s a real damn struggle to move everything else, I’ve been depressed but not overly depressed it didn’t last very long but now I’m anti I don’t really talk to people anymore, people pop up all the time and say ” you haven’t been active lately” or ” you’re not normally like this” this really does play on my mind I’ve deeped people I normally talk to I can’t find the energy to talk to them anymore or if they talk to me, I really can’t be fucked to reply anytime asks me “how are you” everyone will get the same reply “I’m calm” it rarely changes I really copy and paste the same answer to everyone, you’re probably thinking that’s cold, I agree it is, but when you have no energy to conversate that’s how it’ll be, a couple people called me reserved so I asked the person who knows me the best which is my mum, and she agreed but the thing is with me I let people know what I want them to know, if we’re having a conversation and the topic becomes a little too personal 9 times out of 10 I’ll cut the call and go sleep or go about my business,everything depends on my mood I don’t mean for my mood to flip I even get called crazy like what the fuck it’s not really my fault, I’ve tried to top myself by taking excessive amount of tablets it really didn’t work at all the pills must of liked my immune system because nothing happened. I’m one of them people that would rather help someone else through their problems I’ve heard people talk about how they’ll commit their own suicide on the phone to me, I’ve seen people try to top themselves ending up in accident and emergency all I think is I could’ve done more, but there’s only so much I can do, if you want to die then do it, there’s only so much help I can give. A few weeks ago I decided to give blood as I saw that only a small percentage of black people do, so I went along and like I said I ‘tried’ and failed I have the sickle cell anaemia trait and iron deficiency which makes me sleep for heavy periods at a time or my energy is low, sometimes I am in a good mood and my energy is out of this world but other times no I’m just Teeks, I sit in my room all day hardly leave I’ll decline times to go out and just sit there get restless, sleep, eat and then repeat all within my own space, my worst times were through my childhood just dealing with the divorce of my parents hurt and it’ll stick with me forever…but be moving on as time goes on so do I and what goes on will always have a reason.

Recently I’ve been on Twitter scrolling up and down the TL like a mad woman and started to come across tweets that are talking about mental health, I’ll scroll further and see the suicide help line number tweeted in both the United Kingdom and America, but the main communities I want to focus on are the black and Asian as I know these are the forgotten communities we have something wrong with us we get called crazy by the national health service or given medication that should somehow make us feel better or we just get abused by the police trust me it happens, or in some cases rituals are made. Mental health is an important issue in the black and Asian community and as a black young woman I’ve been more informed about this, over the recent weeks on Twitter I’ve seen more mental health tweets, my own followers tweeting about committing suicide, saying they have no one to talk to, no where to turn, mental health within these two communities are swept under the carpet as if they don’t exist, growing up I got told to be a ‘strong independent black woman’ but really I was crippling on the inside, social construct is so backwards we’re told to be this, do that or act like we are completely normal, what is normal? I fail to understand.

If you’ve read my blogs before you know that if I’m writing such strong topics I’ll have facts to support my evidence, with this one topic it took me time to find facts but once I got into it I came across a lot, I was actually flabbergasted at what I found.

I’ve found that in the black and Asian communities:
– More likely to be diagnosed with mental health problems
– More likely to experience a poor outcome and treatment
– More likely to disengage from mainstream services like social services leading to social exclusion and further deterioration in health
– Likely that mental health is overly diagnosed in people whose first language isn’t English

Have you ever thought about why mental health and mental illness impacts people in the black & Asian community more than any other?

Personally, I think it’s down to the factors that are plastered on us as a whole
– Poverty
– Racism
– Background
– Bad housing
– Unemployment
– Stress
– Abuse
– Neglect

All these factors play a huge role in the support which we should get equally but we don’t, we’re judged then ‘treated’ I hardly call it treatment I’ve seen a number of people descend on how they’re and it’s sad to see, what I seem to not understand is how can colour separate us, how can black people be diagnosed with severe mental disorders, we go to doctors for help, a psychiatrist for our problems to be listened to, God for guidance, our parents to see if they see it from our point of view, as a community you think we have a options but do we really?

An overwhelming amount of people with mental health are living in poor conditions, there are considerably high rates of physical and sexual victimisation, most people with mental disorders are restricted in their ability to access essential health, social care including emergency relief services. Poverty is the worlds most ruthless killer, poverty is a multidimensional phenomenon encompassing the inability to basic needs, lack of control over resources, lack of education and poor health. The measurement on which poverty is based on is income, if you earn less than a certain amount then you will be classified as poor. Poverty is associated with many long term problems, such as poor health and increased mortality, school failure, crime and substance misuse.

People with mental health are one and half times more likely to live in rented accommodation, social housing and in a poor area, they’re twice as unlikely with their housing and four times more likely to say that it makes their mental health worse. Children who have moved around quite a lot tend to have depression and anxiety compared to their peers. Many people have reported that housing costs have caused stress.

– 33% (15 million) say housing costs cause stress and depression
– 25% (12.2 million) are kept awake by stress of paying bills and mortgage
– 25% say housing bills cause arguments between partners and other family members
The number of homeless people diagnosed with mental health is spiralling out of control, it’s almost double the rate of the general population homeless link surveyed 2,500 homeless people and found out 45% of them had a mental health issue compared to the general population only 25% of them was found.

– 32% said they were experiencing suicidal thoughts
– 39%’said they have panic attacks
– 18% hear voices
– 67% feel depressed
– 41% misuse drugs or alcohol

Racism will forever be an ongoing issue I feel like the black community and the Asians are hit the most, not a day goes by where I see a non-black person say the word ‘nigga’ or a non Asian person say ‘paki’ ‘chinky’ etc.. But besides this discrimination against the black and Asian communities is reported across a wide range of everyday activities, a survey was carried out between February and March 2013 where 740 people from these minorities communities carried out a study. 6.9% (69) of people said they did not experience any discrimination which shows that 93.2% (671) of them felt some form of discrimination within finding a job, housing, education, getting into a relationship, why is it other people in other communities get every and anything handed to them on a plate, but because there’s a couple stereotype here and there about others we have to scream for our voices to be heard, rally together to hold protests that clearly get ignored, constantly being stopped on the road for a ‘routine check’ I’m not completely obnoxious but through my eyes this is things I hear or see every day. Imagine being black you receive the lowest treatment rates in England, half of what a white person would receive, being coloured ha such a hard life.

Recently I was scrolling on Twitter and a topic of conversation made the TL overly active everyone well I’m saying everyone I really only saw blacks/Asians started talking about the ‘beatings/licks they received as a child most people didn’t see it as an abuse but I don’t know what minds some of you lot have because by the way some of you lot described it I would’ve called child line, however everyone’s different for me growing up if I did naughty things around my dad he’d instantly say “yuh wan licks child sha” then I’d instantly pause whatever I was doing and go back to being good, with my mum the most I’ve done is kneel on my knees for quite some time, but the ones I saw on Twitter they were something else, I can tell how these implications can affect someone later on in life, beating your child is the first steps of abuse, now I know people will come back and say “My parents beat me because they wanted me to learn how to be respectful” blah blah blah you can be taught in various ways without beating someone with a belt, ginger in your anus, products being thrown at you etc…What I read I could tell these had an effect on the people’s lives and it’s daunting to see or read.  Domestic abuse can have a huge effect on your mental health, it is now well accepted  that abuse both in childhood and adulthood is often the main factor in the development of depression, anxiety and other mental health disorders and may lead to  sleep disturbances, self-harm, suicide and attempted suicide, eating disorders and substance misuse.

We have people drowning in their own thoughts within their households, can’t talk to mum, can’t talk to dad, so where do we go from here, my problem with some parents is they always think they’re right, some believe their child is completely fine, we can look perfect on the outside and be dying on the inside, some say go pray to God, praying does not help everyone, performing a ritual doesn’t cure everyone, doing witch craft doesn’t work for everyone, being a shoulder to cry on helps letting out emotion which is completely natural, supporting your child on what to do next is so important, I’ve seen teenagers, adults, children be here today and gone the next, and the parents always say ‘I blame myself’ stop blaming and start acting upon what is happening in front of your own eyes, under your own roof, I’m completely aware that some people can hide pain scarily well but asking a simple ‘Are you okay’ is fine but never settle for the answer of ‘I’m fine’ ask for them to expand until you’re both satisfied. A study of 2000 adults commissioned by the mental health foundation has found that the average adult will say “I’m fine” 14 times a week although only 19% will mean it so out of 100%, the other 81% won’t mean it, do you see where I’m coming from? That large percentage your family member, friend, could not be ‘fine’ what does fine even mean? What’s normal? 1/3 of the same study = 667 people said they often lie about how they’re feeling to other people, while 1/10 = 400 say they always lie about their emotional state. “I’m fine” is such an effortless answer, this answer is the answer to end all conversations, it has to be a conversation killer but if we don’t know what to reply how are we meant to say.

I personally believe that mental health should be completely equal to physical health, but for me saying that I would expect to see pigs fly first before they rule out this new plan. The media is such a dark place, they ignore us at any given moment or take the original story and twist it, these inequalities are virtually ignored by them, but to be honest, this is nothing new, it’s been the case for decades due to a lack of focus, but for why? Why does the colour of our skin rule out the level of exposure we receive, this is highly incompetent and extremely melancholic. The image it paints is one for misery, loneliness and desperate individuals needing help but each time we are let down for the colour of our skin, a colour that we can’t choose, even if I could change my colour I wouldn’t I’m proud of my race and what we’ve become and what we continue to achieve each day.

The NHS is an amazing amicable service to an extent, they’ll fix your broken arm but won’t fix a broken mind, they’ll give you gas and air but won’t give you air to breathe in real life, drowning in thoughts and no one around, is this what black and Asians should expect for the rest of our existence. People from African & Caribbean communities are more likely than others to be admitted to the hospital, worldwide it seems people who move from country to country have a higher risk of, mental health illness, this is predominantly true for black people who move to mainly white countries and an even higher risk for their children.

I’ve found quite a few statistic from the Asian and black communities on our mental health systems
– African/Caribbean are 3/5 times more likely to be diagnosed and admitted for schizophrenia
– Suicide is low among Asian men but high for Asian women
– African/Caribbean are more likely to enter the mental health services is the police or courts
– Indian men have a high rate of alcohol related problems
– African/Caribbean are more likely to be treated under a section of the mental health act
– Asian people have a quicker recovery rate from schizophrenia due to family support
– African/Caribbean more likely to receive medication rather than be offered a talking session known as psychotherapy.

We’re being failed as two separate communities due to ancestry, the colour of our skin, moving to predominantly ‘white’ countries the first I’ve heard Britain as a ‘white country’ I’m pretty sure we’ve been multi-cultured for 158 years since 1858 since Queen Victoria’s proclamation of India. We’ve been failed as people and institutional racism started this and no matter what people say racism will never end, there has been mounting evidence that institutional racism plays a major role, systematic analysis of what is wrong from sociological, historical and political perspectives really shows how embedded racism is in the practices and how it really does affect mental health services, while at the same time can show us way in which changes could be made. Black and Asian people are significantly over- diagnosed with stigmatising ‘conditions’ such as schizophrenia, depression and bipolar and are under referred for talking therapies but instead given large doses of drugs which cause long term physical problems which will continue to live with them for a long period of time and are over represented among sectioned patients, people served with a community treatments orders and those incarcerated in secure hospitals which are known as dangerous. There have been many attempts in recent years to make mental health become more culturally and sensitive ‘attempts’ these attempts I’ve never seen we all get treated like animals we get drugged up and sent into a room, we’re not listened to at all, whatever we say gets ignored, we’re seen as crazy. We want help, don’t label us. The attempts by our government to bring about racial equality have been very unsuccessful they haven’t even touched the edges in 30 years nothing has changed. One way to counteract them is for private and public services should minimise the use of sectioning get incarceration and the use of forced drug intake, instead of telling us these drugs will make us feel ‘better’ tell us the real effects, tell us that these drugs stop certain feelings from showing through, tell us how to deal with the side effects, tell us what we can do if we’re feeling suicidal etc, give us structural advice instead of giving us pills, focus needs to shift towards collaborating with service users, aiming to support where and when needed with recovery from personal setbacks and social problems.

There are so many mental health problems/illnesses and I think you should all be aware of all.
– bipolar disorder
– Schizophrenia
– Psychosis
– OCD
– Alcoholism
– Eating disorder
– Anxiety disorder
– Post traumatic stress disorder
– Personality disorder
– Fatigue
– Mood disorder
– Borderline personality
– Mixed anxiety
– Major depressive
– Seasonal affective
– Delusion
– Mental distress
– Sleep disorder
– Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder
– Schizoaffective disorder
– Autism
– Emotional & Behavioural disorder
– Autistic spectrum disorder
– Dissociative identity disorder
– Confusion
– Spectrum disorder
– Postpartum psychosis
– Sickle cell disease

I’ve done this long list for you to be more aware of what is a mental health illness, there are things on here I never even thought of like delusion because all I hear is ‘your so deluded’ who would’ve thought delusion would even be apart of it.

The one thing I’d say to be aware of is lucid dreaming it can cause sleep paralysis if it’s not done correctly and having a sleep disorder is not fun at all it’s completely wack. Lucid dreaming is safe but if you don’t know how to do it I suggest you stay well away from doing it, performing a lucid dream you can experience hallucinations, you can fall between consciousness and unconsciousness within a few seconds. Lucid dreams can turn into lucid nightmares extremely quickly and a lot of things don’t scare me but sleep paralysis scares the shit out of me and lucid dreams are weird but lucid nightmares are the worst thing I’ve experienced, but within lucid nightmares it’s something you can control to an extent you can really remind yourself that it’s a dream, you can encounter demons in lucid dreams and sleep paralysis but whether you know how to control it is another thing.

Last year I watched a documentary called ‘Being black, going crazy’ This film is presented by Keith Dube known as (Mrexposed) on Twitter, he’s a young writer and blogger who wrote the blog ‘Mr exposed’ Keith used to suffer from depression and as a result he wanted to spread awareness about mental health within the community. Keith spoke to patients as well as staff at Park Royal mental health centre, they spoke deeply on how they were treated before, how their parents treated them, even how the police treated them. In my opinion, when this aired on BBC 3 it was one of the best documentaries I’ve watched, there were topics within topics discussed and it was alarming how some of these people were treated, I suggest if you haven’t watched it then it will be a good idea that you do.

– Black men are 17 times more likely to be diagnosed with a serious mental health condition and 6 times more likely to be an inpatient in a mental health unit than a white man
– 56% of black in patients have been sectioned more than any other ethnic group
– 67% of black people with mental health issues have been stigmatised and treated unfairly by their own families
All I’ve been writing is black blackity black for god knows how long, and every time I write black in whichever sentence theirs always unfairness that comes along with it.

Moving on a few weeks back when I was on the idea of writing this blog I wanted to write about people that have suffered from mental health and died in the hands of police custody, that wasn’t hard to find at all, I came across someone named Sean Riggs, the name sounded very familiar and as I looked him up I remembered this is the man who suffered from paranoid schizophrenia, unfortunately he died following a cardiac arrest on 21st August 2008 while in the hands of police custody no surprise there. Sean Rigg was a 40-year-old black British musician and producer, the events leading to the death Mr Riggs lived in a hostel that dealt with uncooperative and aggressive behaviour, on the 21st August five 999 calls were made during a 3 hour period by the hotel staff, the police didn’t find Mr Riggs a priority which is extremely odd because being black we’re always a priority for the police no matter what situation, on the fifth call the police finally turned up and restrained him in a ghastly manner, he was handcuffed, face on the floor and officers knelt on him for 8 minutes while he was being transported to Brixton police station, during the journey his mental health deteriorated massively, he was extremely unwell and not fully conscious, when they arrived Rigg was left unattended and unmonitored for 25 minutes one of the officers said he was faking it, a further 10 minutes later his heart had stopped and all signs of life was not there one of the sergeants mislead the doctor by telling them he was faking unconsciousness, which is totally untrue he was dead at the age of 40 because police do not understand how to understand people with a mental issue. If we fast forward a few years the series Orange is the new black has an exact scene like this where Poussey dies as an officer holds her to the ground leans heavily on her back, and she begins to say “I can’t breathe” the exact same words Eric Garner says when cops choke hold him and slam him to the ground if you’ve seen the video you will hear him saying “I can’t breathe’ 1 fictional character dies and 2 non-fictional people die, and of course each one of these had a protest of unfair ruling, even though one was a scene it still shows it goes on and only to one race, I haven’t seen it anywhere else.

Really I think police officers think they’re superior actually correction they do think they’re superior, sad really a uniform gives these people such confidence, the job they’re meant to do they can’t do it without drawing out a baton or gun, what happened to talking and engaging, what happened to simple handcuff on and in the back of the police car, but instead now I’ve seen guns drawn out, people with a condition being tackled to the ground like it’s a game of rugby, their knees should be on the ground not on the offenders stomach/back, I’ve seen so many people die in the hands of police custody not necessarily with a mental health issue but people like Edson Da Costa, Rashan Charles did not in anyway or form deserve that treatment I’m highly disgusted reading the newspapers everyday scrolling through Twitter to find out another black teenager here in the UK or anywhere else has died in the hands of police custody, I actually want to know what the fuck do these police officers do in training, because somewhere along the lines they always end up killing someone. There should be a complete end to physical restraint and training should consist of dealing with people and their mental health problems, beating them up will only lead them to further deteriorating we want people’s health to improve not to further worsen we’re not crazy, we are human and deserve humane treatment. Black, white, brown, purple and blue all just colours. If we turn people inside out we all have the same features a heart, eyes, arms, legs etc we’re no different stop treating us as separate, stop causing a divide and help us.

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First, off my apologies for taking so long to write this, this is the first ever topic I’ve been stuck on, but thank you to everyone that helped give me further ideas on what to write on.

Mental health is so hard to write on and if you find anything offensive or incorrect then let me know but I’ve looked for information everywhere, I’ve read books, watched documentaries just to get a further insight into the world of black and Asian mental health, within the Asian mental health I couldn’t even find a lot, but there was so much on the black communities and I’m glad I’ve written this because I’ve found out things I never knew, I would like to say anyone suffering from mental health please speak on it for yourself and for others, raise the awareness we deserve, fight for what you believe in, if you know that someone is suffering help them by listening never ever settle for the answer of “I’m fine” because 9/10 they’re not, dig deeper into the situation don’t grill them on it but ask more open than closed questions, look for signs I’ve seen people in front of me suffer and I never knew till I started asking and they started doing funny things, and you can kinda tell, I’ve had people call me saying they’re going to kill themselves, counting down the days, hours till they top themselves, sometimes I feel like I’m the shoulder to cry on in certain groups of friends but thinking about it I don’t mind, even though I issue out the same advice I’m not that person and only that person can change themselves. If you think there’s something wrong within yourself then go and get help and always get a second opinion, I’d even suggest going private, if your parents are in your life start talking to them, because they certainly are not here forever, parents start talking to your kids in some cases your children are under the same roof as you crumbling with no one to talk to, friends, family there is always someone to talk to including me, my social accounts are all out there, if you feel alone want someone to talk to then honestly I’m here!

Please, can we all remember that yesterday marked the two month anniversary of the Grenfell Tower Inferno, 2 months later still fuck all done, 2 months on and a lot of them have come out with mental health issues, 2 months later and hardly any questions have been answered.

Also, would like to say a huge thank you to everyone that continues to read my blogs, I’m so thankful for how far I’ve come, you lot might count it as showing off, well couldn’t care less. I’ve met my target which was 2k and now on 2.2k if you have me on Twitter remember what I said when I get to 10k I’ll throw a party which I will.

“Each day means a new 24 hours, each day means everything’s possible again.

Not entirely sure if this blog makes sense, but hey I tried, I’ll be writing two more blogs before the year ends, so if you have a topic let me know.

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